Xian Xiao
Elementalist
Xian didn't get far before her lungs started to burn, but she didn't stop.
Not yet.
Not while her chest felt tight and her thoughts kept crashing over each other like a storm she couldn't calm down.
Noriko's presence brushed her mind through the Force—soft, reaching, calling her back.
Xian flinched.
Not out of fear.
Out of confusion.
Hurt.
Embarrassment.
Why did she always make everything worse? Why couldn't she just… be normal? Quiet? Easy?
She wiped at her face with the back of her sleeve—furious that she'd even teared up at all—and kept running until the palace rooftops dipped out of sight and the wind was the only thing answering her.
When she finally slowed, she collapsed onto a smooth stone outcropping overlooking the fields, her breath shuddering as she curled her knees up to her chest. The horizon stretched wide and golden. The longma riders moved like living shadows far below. She knew she shouldn't be here alone. She knew Noriko was right about the danger.
She also knew she couldn't go back yet, not like this.
Her small voice escaped before she could swallow it down.
"Gray hair… she keeps saying gray hair…"
She sniffed, scowling at herself for sounding pathetic.
"I'm not trying to give her gray hair," she muttered into her knees. "I just… I don't know how to talk without messing everything up."
A gust of wind rolled over her, warm and sympathetic. It made her hair whip forward against her cheeks, and she buried her face deeper into her arms.
"She probably thinks I'm ungrateful. Or stupid. Or… or just a problem to deal with."
Her throat tightened again.
"That's what everybody used to think."
She squeezed her eyes shut.
"I'm trying," she whispered, barely audible, as if admitting it too loudly would make it less accurate. "I really am."
The breeze answered—gentle, brushing her shoulders like a hand that wasn't quite there. She hugged her knees tighter.
"I just needed to get away before I said something I couldn't take back…"
A shaky breath.
"…again."
She stared at the distant line of the palace roofs glowing under the late afternoon light.
Noriko was somewhere back there—probably annoyed, definitely worried, maybe even angry.
Despite all her own frustration, despite her instinct to run from everything that scared her…
Xian's chest pinched at the thought of Noriko actually giving up on her.
"I'll go back," she murmured.
"Just… not yet."
Her fingers brushed over the pendant hidden under her tunic—the small one Noriko had given her on their first real day together. The weight of it steadied her a little.
"…I just need a minute," she whispered to the wind.
And for now, at least, the wind stayed with her.
Noriko Ike
Not yet.
Not while her chest felt tight and her thoughts kept crashing over each other like a storm she couldn't calm down.
Noriko's presence brushed her mind through the Force—soft, reaching, calling her back.
Xian flinched.
Not out of fear.
Out of confusion.
Hurt.
Embarrassment.
Why did she always make everything worse? Why couldn't she just… be normal? Quiet? Easy?
She wiped at her face with the back of her sleeve—furious that she'd even teared up at all—and kept running until the palace rooftops dipped out of sight and the wind was the only thing answering her.
When she finally slowed, she collapsed onto a smooth stone outcropping overlooking the fields, her breath shuddering as she curled her knees up to her chest. The horizon stretched wide and golden. The longma riders moved like living shadows far below. She knew she shouldn't be here alone. She knew Noriko was right about the danger.
She also knew she couldn't go back yet, not like this.
Her small voice escaped before she could swallow it down.
"Gray hair… she keeps saying gray hair…"
She sniffed, scowling at herself for sounding pathetic.
"I'm not trying to give her gray hair," she muttered into her knees. "I just… I don't know how to talk without messing everything up."
A gust of wind rolled over her, warm and sympathetic. It made her hair whip forward against her cheeks, and she buried her face deeper into her arms.
"She probably thinks I'm ungrateful. Or stupid. Or… or just a problem to deal with."
Her throat tightened again.
"That's what everybody used to think."
She squeezed her eyes shut.
"I'm trying," she whispered, barely audible, as if admitting it too loudly would make it less accurate. "I really am."
The breeze answered—gentle, brushing her shoulders like a hand that wasn't quite there. She hugged her knees tighter.
"I just needed to get away before I said something I couldn't take back…"
A shaky breath.
"…again."
She stared at the distant line of the palace roofs glowing under the late afternoon light.
Noriko was somewhere back there—probably annoyed, definitely worried, maybe even angry.
Despite all her own frustration, despite her instinct to run from everything that scared her…
Xian's chest pinched at the thought of Noriko actually giving up on her.
"I'll go back," she murmured.
"Just… not yet."
Her fingers brushed over the pendant hidden under her tunic—the small one Noriko had given her on their first real day together. The weight of it steadied her a little.
"…I just need a minute," she whispered to the wind.
And for now, at least, the wind stayed with her.