Private Awakening

[Colette]

The leather of the booth puffed up as they sat down, one woman in front of the other. Colette had eased up just a little but that didn't say much. She felt off, weird, as if something was being done to her against her will and she didn't know what to do. In truth there was even a small hint of fear mixed into it. She enjoyed self-control, she enjoyed being aware of her actions and what she was doing, and this was none of that.

"What's up?" She asked and began to shift in her seat. "I mean, I know what's up but do you know what's up?"

There was a little shift in her seat, a look out into the crowd beyond the booth. A vacant stare, a clear case of the thoughtsies before she turned back to look towards Lily again. Not so much at her, but towards her.

Eye contact felt difficult, the shame was all hers to own but she had no idea why just that it was.

Lily Decoria

 

[Lily Decoria]

Location: Rodia - Nightclub
Outfit: Party Dress
Tag: Colette

Reaching out to Colette, Lily offered a warm, sympathetic smile. Lily had never felt surprised or confused about herself when with others, she always just was herself with no apologies and expected people to enjoy that. "So, I think it might be good for you to know why you might be feeling the way that you are." Lily stated, knowing that her friend was a slight control freak but in the best of ways so having new feelings was likely as scary as it was confusing.

"I think, when I moved in close and invaded your personal space... I think your body reacted the way it did because you found me attractive." Lily paused to let that sink in, but then realised she might need to follow up, and how she was never going to be the best at this. "More than just how you find someone platonically attractive, I think it was something deeper, more intimate. A physical attraction."

Frowning as she thought about how poorly she was saying all this, "Colette, I think you found me sexually attractive and you might be bisexual. Which is totally normal, I'm bisexual, I think you are really hot too." Lily finally blurted out everything in as blunt of a manner as she could, hoping that would be the most helpful approach to her friend. Subtly was not Lily's strongest suit.

She just hoped it made sense to Colette.

 

[Colette]

Lily Decoria

Oh?

Colette's eyes set on Lily properly, the focus evident in the slight shift of her glance.

… Oh.

She couldn't help but look at Lily in a new light, one that she hadn't really seen her in before. Not as a friend but as a potential… More. A lover? It felt weird to even think about it. She didn't exactly mind others being into it, but that was how others were, y'know? If Colette was this… Bi-thing, then how come she hadn't noticed it before?

She had hugged Lily, and Everest, and many others before plenty of times but never felt quite like this. Hell, she had even been in a relationship with Shan but that had felt more…

More…

Colette frowned.

I find you hot too.

Her eyes darted up from the table and over towards Lily's blue eyes only to find herself at the receiving end of another shot of awkward. Colette opened her mouth to speak, either to defend herself or to agree but despite her lips forming words her voice just didn't carry.

Nothing but the most open-ended question of them all:

"Why?"

 

[Lily Decoria]

Location: Rodia - Nightclub
Outfit: Party Dress
Tag: Colette

Lily watched as Colette absorbed all the information that she had provided and gestured to the bar for them to get drinks since she figured that Colette might enjoy a drink as something to distract. When Colette finally spoke it was a singular word, just a question that was probably the more interesting question but the toughest to ask.

"Hmmmm... That's a tricky one." Lily admitted, not because it was impossible to ask or that Lily had lied about the attraction, it was more her trying to figure out what could be the reasons now after having felt the attraction for so long. It just seemed like everything but that wouldn't be helpful as an answer. "Well, let's start with the obvious, you are beautiful, strong and very physically attractive. At least to me." Lily stated, deciding to mention that as the first thing.

She then smiled, "but it is more than that, you are stubborn, singularly focused and loyal. I know stubborn might seem like a bad thing but I think that can be good, you don't give up easily and when you set your mind on something, nothing will throw you off course. I admire that in you and it is a very attractive trait for me." Lily knew that what appealed to her in a person was never going to be universal. "I can't concrete say everything I find attractive, mostly because so much of attraction and bonding I find through fighting. Sparring to express our emotions and open ourselves up to one another."

"However, there is an attraction and there has been for a while. It's why it hurt so much when you were so upset with me over my reluctance to help with Quinn..." Lily admitted, chewing on her bottom lip.