Mirien Valdier
Ice Queen
One singular event had changed Mirien's stars and with it her fate. In that fateful accident, tumbling with the crumbling stairs a good story down in that temple on Atrisia, the Force saving her life, but not preventing injury entirely. Her head colliding with the same stones in such a fall had wiped away her memories of who she used to be. Had it not been for that, the Lead Inquisitor at the time would have seen her executed and dead. They knew well enough she was a powerful force user and that still nearly got her killed. Losing her memories gave her another chance at another life. One where she rose above what she had previously done. Of course, the Atrisians had seen fit to hunt down what of her life they could and erase it, to keep her from ever recovering it. They wanted her as she was, a clean slate, no complications.
That day changed everything for her. Absolutely everything. And how frustrating and painful it had been to learn a new life, without knowing, she might look back on those horrible moments to see how they, in the end, had saved her life and gave her life.
Mirien only had a tiny clue of the abuses she'd gone through. Her journals from the Bando Gora hinted at the pains, suffering, and anger she'd gained from her childhood. She never gave much detail in those, but there was enough to get an idea. Now the memories were actually within her mind, pieces finally coming together for her to possibly piece together her former life. Though she certainly didn't want to remember this now. That option, in a way having no memories at all, had spared her so much. Equally taking from Mirien. All these horrible events had led her to Atrisia for some reason. There had been at least some good in that. It was here that she was caught in the middle of a war between forgetting and remembering. And that was a miserable place to be, caught between the two.
Thousands of memories and moments had piled onto the Mirien Siobhan knew. She was trapped, at the bottom of what felt like an endless pit of misery and pain she had never known before now. Who she used to be, certainly didn't help matters, keeping things just fragmented enough that Mirien could never sort it out on her own.
If Siobhan looked long enough, she would find her Mirien. She took the form of a young girl, utterly lost and alone in a corner, sobbing. She held no hope, curled into a small ball, quietly crying. Everything in her mind, in her head, she'd lost herself and her way. It seemed only natural to take the form of a child, lost in such a horrific mess of memories, and people and places. She needed someone to find her, help her and pull her out of it all.
Just like a child, she couldn't do it alone, not when she'd felt like she'd lost everything that made her strong, that made her able to face each day. Even more so when she had so much self-hatred and loathing for who and what she had been.
And while all of this was happening, outside of her mind, a few tears did slip down her cheeks. There were just so many horrors and so much pain that even she couldn't hide it for a second now. Everything hurt if truth be told. Especially her mind.
[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]
That day changed everything for her. Absolutely everything. And how frustrating and painful it had been to learn a new life, without knowing, she might look back on those horrible moments to see how they, in the end, had saved her life and gave her life.
Mirien only had a tiny clue of the abuses she'd gone through. Her journals from the Bando Gora hinted at the pains, suffering, and anger she'd gained from her childhood. She never gave much detail in those, but there was enough to get an idea. Now the memories were actually within her mind, pieces finally coming together for her to possibly piece together her former life. Though she certainly didn't want to remember this now. That option, in a way having no memories at all, had spared her so much. Equally taking from Mirien. All these horrible events had led her to Atrisia for some reason. There had been at least some good in that. It was here that she was caught in the middle of a war between forgetting and remembering. And that was a miserable place to be, caught between the two.
Thousands of memories and moments had piled onto the Mirien Siobhan knew. She was trapped, at the bottom of what felt like an endless pit of misery and pain she had never known before now. Who she used to be, certainly didn't help matters, keeping things just fragmented enough that Mirien could never sort it out on her own.
If Siobhan looked long enough, she would find her Mirien. She took the form of a young girl, utterly lost and alone in a corner, sobbing. She held no hope, curled into a small ball, quietly crying. Everything in her mind, in her head, she'd lost herself and her way. It seemed only natural to take the form of a child, lost in such a horrific mess of memories, and people and places. She needed someone to find her, help her and pull her out of it all.
Just like a child, she couldn't do it alone, not when she'd felt like she'd lost everything that made her strong, that made her able to face each day. Even more so when she had so much self-hatred and loathing for who and what she had been.
And while all of this was happening, outside of her mind, a few tears did slip down her cheeks. There were just so many horrors and so much pain that even she couldn't hide it for a second now. Everything hurt if truth be told. Especially her mind.
[member="Siobhan Kerrigan"]