Seraphina Shel'tah
Kinky Darth Pinky

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I'm at war with the world and they
Try to pull me into the dark
I struggle to find my faith
As I'm slippin' from your arms
It's getting harder to stay awake
And my strength is fading fast
You breathe into me at last
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Ever since Sera had encountered [member="Darth Ferus"] at Onderon, her mind had been constantly at odds with itself. Whether this was due to the traumatic realization that he had beaten her, both physically and mentally, or simply because in those final moments when he had opened his mind to her, unleashing a vision so heinous, so evil, something so abhorrent that she frequently suffered from nightmares now. A defeat is always difficult to swallow. This was something that far exceeded any kind of defeat she had ever experienced. The atrocities he was willing to commit were so sinister that, an honest threat or not, were monstrous to think of.
Resting her consciousness had become something of a gamble every night as well. It seemed she was at the mercy of her own sanity. Some nights she slept at ease, without worry, without fear, without turmoil racking her brain. Other nights she would awaken several times, tormented by demons in her mind. The mental scars of that day would often pierce her dreams. On occasion they felt so real that when she awoke she would worry for days on end that what she had seen would come true. Often meditation would bring clarity to her nightmares. She found herself in deep meditation much more frequently than ever before.
When her mind wasn't focused on the images of death and horror in her dreams, her conscious mind would often tear her back to that brief battle. Sure, she had managed to impede his assault, escape from a terrible demise, surprise Krest a few times, and even stop him in his tracks for a brief moment twice. But it simply wasn't enough. Had he even given her his full strength? Did he spare her life out of pity? Why? Questions she had no answers for continuously danced through her mind constantly.
How had he bested me? What did I do wrong? How can I surpass evil so tainted with darkness?
The Jedi's mind slipped quietly into the darkness as her consciousness subsided, her body finally succumbing to what she hoped would be a restful sleep. The final thoughts she had would drift to Cambria, her home. Her mother Dahlia, her father Kethzen. She'd meant to return several times of late but was constantly recalled back by the Order for obligations that needed to be fulfilled. She had now begun teaching Padawans since her promotion, and so some things slipped through the cracks, but her family was never forgotten. She would see them again soon.
[member="Darth Ferus"] | [member="Gherron Vael"]