Private A Grave Mistake

[Caden Evesa]

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A single tear trickled down his cheek.

His fingers closed around the Corellian Jedi Credit that Okkeus Dainlei had thrown down on the table. He had withheld the emotions for so long, blinded by anger and fear. The Corellian Jedi Credit had broken him, allowed the emotions that he was bottling up to come to the forefront of everything.

He dropped to his knees, credit falling from his grasp to join his fallen lightsaber on the floor. Another tear fell from the opposite eye, staining his cheek with a watery dew. He couldn't stop the tears falling, he couldn't stop the sadness from overcoming the anger and betrayal that he felt.

The thought of every adventure that he and Okkeus had been on flooded him. Takodana, the adventures they had had in the castle ruins. The beach with Damian, the duo building survival encampments and learning to collect water. Kattada, Caden in the hospital learning force heal just to help save his best friend.

Former best friend.

Every adventure they had been on since Okkeus had asked Caden to serve as his Padawan. Saving the young Jedi from the ship yard. Mygeeto, the building of the lightsaber that now lay fallen on the floor. Corellia, Caden had invited Okkeus into his family house. They had repaired and raced X-Wings across the Corellian sky. Okkeus had been there when Caden had learnt that his mother had been studying Sith arts.

They had been brothers, best friends. They were inseparable, where there was one there was the other. They had shared a room more than once, Caden sleeping on a sofa or in Okkeus' spare room. They were a dynamic duo, helping people and saving each other more than once. They had been impressive together, bouncing off of each other with all the grace and style that came with that.

The bond they had formed was the closest bond Caden had ever seen. It was gone now, left for dead. Caden had killed the partnership and the bond. He had butchered it with his own anger, his own frustration and betrayal. He had made Okkeus hate him, and Caden couldn't blame him. Caden would hate Okkeus if he had treated him how he (Caden) had treated Okkeus.

He hadn't realized how much he was crying.

Mathieu Brion

 

[Mathieu Brion]

It had been a good day. Mathieu had survived what he saw as a rather tough class-setting despite failing to live up to the tips Caden had given him before they got attacked. In many ways, he had his training with the Soller Navah to thank for being so well prepared to answer the actual questions which the teaching Master of the class, Kei Westbrook , had asked. But even then, he had found some odd sense of appreciation for the Master's style.

There was one obvious person to share it with. To tell how well the class in the the basement of the eastern wing of the Academy had went. Knowing Caden Evesa , Mathieu guessed that the guy was probably somewhere in the opposite end of the temple by the living quarters - and chances were that he was studying. The former Mercenary was thinking his lucky stars for having made the friend during their time together on the expedition and then later when they tried to go out for a morning cup of coffee. Not only was it nice to have a friend who knew his way around the training which he was about to undergo, but he knew Caden as a nice guy overall.

Upon arriving by the end of the building where the living quarters were, however, the new Padawan felt how something wasn't quite right. By now, he had learned that these feelings shouldn't be ignored as he so often tended to do in the past. But then, it didn't really feel as if something was about to go wrong - nothing bad was going to happen. It was already happening. And whatever it was, it brought Mathieu's mood down to the same levels as it was during his last break-up. Something really wasn't right.

Nearing the end of the corridor he was currently walking through and having the option of either turning left or right, the Morellian saw the young Jedi Knight Okkeus Dainlei pass by. The guy appeared to be distraught but with the speed at which he moved, distance and bad angle, it was hard to tell for sure. Mathieu guessed that he was related, or perhaps even the source of the bad feeling he had and picked up his pace a little. But when he arrived at the point of divergence, he was drawn to the opposite direction from where the Knight had been moving.

He trusted in the force, and so, he followed his instinct, or the force. It was still rather blurry. It wouldn't be blurry much longer.

"Caden?" his voice was surprised and soft - this was certainly not the padawan's room, yet there he sat. Mathieu looked down at his friend, seeing his wet eyes and the tears running down his cheeks. The younger Padawan was smaller than Mathieu had ever seen him - maybe not in a physical sense, but most definitely in a spiritual one. The former Mercenary eyed the credit and lightsabre, both which laid close to the kneeling boy on the floor. Nearing his friend with a few long strides, Mathieu kneeled down next to him and bent down to put their heads on the same level so that their eyes could meet directly "Hey" he said, empathically "Caden, what's up?"

 

[Caden Evesa]

He got up to his feet.

His fingers closed around both the lightsaber and the Corellian Jedi Credit that was on the floor in front of him. Both of them lifted with him, cold metal pressed against his finger tips. The Corellian Jedi Credit was his only reminder of what Caden and Okkeus Dainlei had once done.

Mathieu had attempted to speak to him, yet he couldn't hear the words properly. He saw the man's mouth move, he saw that the man was talking. He couldn't clearly hear the words of the man, they sounded so super distant and far away, like Mathieu wasn't directly opposite him.

Everything hurt, he was numb and in shock.

He hooked his fallen blade onto the belt around his waist. He had never intended to draw the weapon, nor had he ever intended to use it. The threat he had made was empty, even if at the time he hadn't known that it was empty. He would never have hurt Okkeus, he loved the man.

Distant in the force, Caden felt the Jedi Knight, his former mentor. He was leaving the temple, the fear and sadness radiating from him was depressing, like a knife to the heart of the young Jedi who felt beyond responsible for everything that had happened.

Mathieu had become one of his closest friends, but he wasn't Okkeus. Okkeus had held such a special place in his heart and that was gone, Caden had killed that and he felt guilty. He felt like a complete mess, like he had made a really large mistake.

"I messed up"

He knew where Okkeus would be going. where he would go next. It would either be Corellia, the Evesa home where Caden and Okkeus had reached the peak of their relationship or Mygeeto, the first time that Okkeus had thought he would lose Caden for good.

"We need to go"

He looked at Mathieu, and shook the tears from his eyes. He needed to catch Okkeus, he needed to apologize and say he had made a mistake. He needed to make Okkeus realize that he was sorry, that he never wanted to do as much damage as he did.

He had to.

Mathieu Brion