A few people have asked, now, and it's been a pretty long while since my last entry, so I figured I might as well write about it. Why did I go NFU after working hard for almost a year to reach Knight status, my first character to ever get promoted? Why did I flush all that down the drain?
The simple answer is I got tired of writing a Force User.
As some of you may or may not know, through my various phases and inspirations, none have lasted as long as this character has. A year is a pretty long time to write a character, especially for me. And as I wrote, I found out something interesting: my favorite posts and threads were the ones that had nothing to do with the Force. The appeal of Nyx was always her brusque personality, her strange sense of humor, not the stuff with her angsty flirting with the Dark Side. I found that Nyx lost the things that made her unique and original during that, and turned into just another emo Forcie. Some people can write that kind of character very well, it's just not my strong suit, I found out.
Another concern of mine was the fact that I just wasn't ready. I may have written like a Knight or Master, but I certainly had a tendency to act like a fresh faced Padawan. I don't blame the person who promoted me, as they thought they were doing a good thing, but upon reflection I have realized that I simply was not prepared for Knighthood. I still have a lot to learn about both writing and maturity, turns out.
So, instead, I've gone with something I think is a bit more unique than just another merc with a saber. Most, if not all, of my characters have been ones to pick fights for the sake of picking fights, so this time around, I went for someone who wouldn't pick a fight if you stuck a blaster in her face.
And you know what? I'm more inspired to write now than I have ever been, before, even when I first started here. So I don't regret giving up that Knight tag, because in the end, it's just a tag, and one that I can earn back when I'm a better writer and a more mature person.
So there's the long and short answer to that question.
The simple answer is I got tired of writing a Force User.
As some of you may or may not know, through my various phases and inspirations, none have lasted as long as this character has. A year is a pretty long time to write a character, especially for me. And as I wrote, I found out something interesting: my favorite posts and threads were the ones that had nothing to do with the Force. The appeal of Nyx was always her brusque personality, her strange sense of humor, not the stuff with her angsty flirting with the Dark Side. I found that Nyx lost the things that made her unique and original during that, and turned into just another emo Forcie. Some people can write that kind of character very well, it's just not my strong suit, I found out.
Another concern of mine was the fact that I just wasn't ready. I may have written like a Knight or Master, but I certainly had a tendency to act like a fresh faced Padawan. I don't blame the person who promoted me, as they thought they were doing a good thing, but upon reflection I have realized that I simply was not prepared for Knighthood. I still have a lot to learn about both writing and maturity, turns out.
So, instead, I've gone with something I think is a bit more unique than just another merc with a saber. Most, if not all, of my characters have been ones to pick fights for the sake of picking fights, so this time around, I went for someone who wouldn't pick a fight if you stuck a blaster in her face.
And you know what? I'm more inspired to write now than I have ever been, before, even when I first started here. So I don't regret giving up that Knight tag, because in the end, it's just a tag, and one that I can earn back when I'm a better writer and a more mature person.
So there's the long and short answer to that question.