A lot of things have happened in the last two years... I've been welcomed back into the Jedi with open arms as I escaped that wretched simulation. I regained my memory, I accomplished a lifelong dream of becoming a Jedi Knight... And now here I am, sitting here now writing this a Jedi Weapon Master, Jedi Knight, and the Knight Representative of the Jedi Council. I've met more people then I can count, though anyone from my past appears to have either died or disappeared... And perhaps that is for the best.
I've fought opposition that I never would have dreamed of, learned things that I never would have dreamed existed, and seen things that would drive a normal man to the brink of insanity, if not far beyond it. But here I stand, stronger for it. And I wouldn't have had it any other way.
Admittedly, my heartstrings have been tugged a few times over the course of the last two years. I mean, it's human nature for it to happen, even for Jedi. I've seen myself fall for small crushes, such as that one Senator I had a few missions with... Actually, I haven't seen Chi in ages if I recall. Should probably check on her at some point, would be nice to catch up after all that's happened. Back to my point, I've had things like that, then bigger things such as falling head over heels, out of nowhere with a fellow Jedi. Apparently this gal's been the attention of many though, and I never... Really figured I had a chance, regardless of how I felt. Still, in the end she's still a great friend to me, and those feelings would come to pass, for the most part. Things like that cling to you until death, but a great thing about being a Jedi is the ability to block things out... Being able to force it from your mind, at least temporarily and see the world around you for what it truly is. Alas, last I heard, she had found someone. I kind of pushed her toward it when she suggested it, and I'm happy I did, because I was willing to put any grumblings in the back of my mind aside for her happiness, and she's found it. Still, I feel bad that she was basically made to leave her spot in the Jedi Order to run for Chancellor.. She's gotten a karkton of flak for it too, maybe I'll bring her flowers after the election to cheer her up regardless of the result... As a friend of course.
Speaking of which... I DID find someone who managed to finally cause me to be able to drown away the thoughts of the simulation, the "Family" I had there, someone who's made me happy myself. She goes by the name of Saoirse Jenulia. We have a... Rather weird history, considering we went from randomly meeting on the streets of Coruscant, to spending the week together, acting as the parents of a child who meant a lot to her... And I tried not to fall for her. I really did, I knew in my heart she was a Sith, I just didn't want to admit it, even when I found out it was true.
Yet... The Force works in the strangest of ways. And I'm happy that in the end, things worked out. She means more then she knows, and losing her would be something I don't think I could ever bear. Still, I did manage to restrain myself until she left the Empire, which is a good thing most likely. Was a... Rather difficult lesson in restraint, a prime thing for a Jedi to have. But it had to be done, and it was done. And it paid off in the end.
Why am I going on about my lovelife, when normally I don't even TOUCH on it besides for jokes, cracks and good drinking stories? Well, that's probably because Saoirse agreed to go with me to Dantooine tomorrow. It's been two years now, and one thing has bugged the hell out of me, and it's that damned simulation. That damned facility. I received permission from the rest of the Council to investigate what I said had been a "disturbance" on Dantooine... And surprisingly, although I overstated it a bit to begin with, I ended up being completely right without meaning to be. What I found nearby surprised me, which was the fact that the Sith had been abducting innocent people on Dantooine for use in experiments in their new version of the simulation ever since I escaped. From there, I ended up dueling a... Rather strange Miraluka woman. What happened there exactly is foggy to me, but I ended up finding the plans and location of the facility I was looking for. At this point, this became more then just a personal thing, even if deep in my heart I just want to destroy the damned thing, and wipe that ghost of my past away forever. I can't allow this travesty to go on anymore, and even if it wasn't plaguing me personally, I won't be able to sleep until it's gone for good.
Tomorrow I'll arrive at Dantooine. As much as I hate to say it, considering my loyalty to the Jedi, but this is a personal mission. I guess it's ironic that the most important person in my life is going with me to what will likely be one of the most important things to happen in my life. But as I said... The Force works in the weirdest of ways. There's always a method to the madness, and I for one am looking forward to the ride.
Tonight, I sleep with my heart beating heavy, knowing that tomorrow brings personal trials and tribulations. My muse for penning my thoughts to paper for later reminisce has left me as sleep overtakes... Goodnight.
I've fought opposition that I never would have dreamed of, learned things that I never would have dreamed existed, and seen things that would drive a normal man to the brink of insanity, if not far beyond it. But here I stand, stronger for it. And I wouldn't have had it any other way.
Admittedly, my heartstrings have been tugged a few times over the course of the last two years. I mean, it's human nature for it to happen, even for Jedi. I've seen myself fall for small crushes, such as that one Senator I had a few missions with... Actually, I haven't seen Chi in ages if I recall. Should probably check on her at some point, would be nice to catch up after all that's happened. Back to my point, I've had things like that, then bigger things such as falling head over heels, out of nowhere with a fellow Jedi. Apparently this gal's been the attention of many though, and I never... Really figured I had a chance, regardless of how I felt. Still, in the end she's still a great friend to me, and those feelings would come to pass, for the most part. Things like that cling to you until death, but a great thing about being a Jedi is the ability to block things out... Being able to force it from your mind, at least temporarily and see the world around you for what it truly is. Alas, last I heard, she had found someone. I kind of pushed her toward it when she suggested it, and I'm happy I did, because I was willing to put any grumblings in the back of my mind aside for her happiness, and she's found it. Still, I feel bad that she was basically made to leave her spot in the Jedi Order to run for Chancellor.. She's gotten a karkton of flak for it too, maybe I'll bring her flowers after the election to cheer her up regardless of the result... As a friend of course.
Speaking of which... I DID find someone who managed to finally cause me to be able to drown away the thoughts of the simulation, the "Family" I had there, someone who's made me happy myself. She goes by the name of Saoirse Jenulia. We have a... Rather weird history, considering we went from randomly meeting on the streets of Coruscant, to spending the week together, acting as the parents of a child who meant a lot to her... And I tried not to fall for her. I really did, I knew in my heart she was a Sith, I just didn't want to admit it, even when I found out it was true.
Yet... The Force works in the strangest of ways. And I'm happy that in the end, things worked out. She means more then she knows, and losing her would be something I don't think I could ever bear. Still, I did manage to restrain myself until she left the Empire, which is a good thing most likely. Was a... Rather difficult lesson in restraint, a prime thing for a Jedi to have. But it had to be done, and it was done. And it paid off in the end.
Why am I going on about my lovelife, when normally I don't even TOUCH on it besides for jokes, cracks and good drinking stories? Well, that's probably because Saoirse agreed to go with me to Dantooine tomorrow. It's been two years now, and one thing has bugged the hell out of me, and it's that damned simulation. That damned facility. I received permission from the rest of the Council to investigate what I said had been a "disturbance" on Dantooine... And surprisingly, although I overstated it a bit to begin with, I ended up being completely right without meaning to be. What I found nearby surprised me, which was the fact that the Sith had been abducting innocent people on Dantooine for use in experiments in their new version of the simulation ever since I escaped. From there, I ended up dueling a... Rather strange Miraluka woman. What happened there exactly is foggy to me, but I ended up finding the plans and location of the facility I was looking for. At this point, this became more then just a personal thing, even if deep in my heart I just want to destroy the damned thing, and wipe that ghost of my past away forever. I can't allow this travesty to go on anymore, and even if it wasn't plaguing me personally, I won't be able to sleep until it's gone for good.
Tomorrow I'll arrive at Dantooine. As much as I hate to say it, considering my loyalty to the Jedi, but this is a personal mission. I guess it's ironic that the most important person in my life is going with me to what will likely be one of the most important things to happen in my life. But as I said... The Force works in the weirdest of ways. There's always a method to the madness, and I for one am looking forward to the ride.
Tonight, I sleep with my heart beating heavy, knowing that tomorrow brings personal trials and tribulations. My muse for penning my thoughts to paper for later reminisce has left me as sleep overtakes... Goodnight.
