ok ima just be honest since i gotta get this shit outta my brain
expect typos because i type to fast sorry
I feel like i haven't been doing as good as i should when it comes to writing. i know i've only been around for a few months. i know that before this i've never written before and never even thouhgt about it, didnt think it was for me.
But i have been absolutely loved it here so far. i know others have had bad experiances with other people but im lucky since im fairly new(might as well be a baby compared to some of y'all with how long youve been around).
But...when i first started i was respoding to post so quickly, giving long things, like a paragraph or 2. now was it good? eh who knows im not going back to look lol. lately i've been taking days to respond and not writing much in the post. i see everyone else writing great posts and responces and im just here barely saying anything after days. i'v been beating myself up about it. i know part of it will come with time. but i just cant stop feeling bad about it and i have no clue why. my brain just at some point said "fuck you im not giving you any ideas or words to use." i hate it. i want to post and do stuff so bad because chaos is amazing, i love it. but my fucking brain jsut wont. let. me.
i just sit there and stare sometimes wanting to do something, anything but my brain wont fucking let me i HATE it.
and like I want to so bad. I cna do dialog more or less, but i don't want it to be just dialog. i want more then that. like its juts a personal thing. I want SO bad to make logner posts. not just to make long posts but to actually say more. add more to the post.
Actual stuff besides dialog. And not just posts big blocks of dialog either
I've been told im doing good, and it means a lot but still cant help but beat myself up about it. I've been told it will come with time and I know that but yet i cant stop beating myself up about it
ok rant over anyway love y'all keep being great <3
expect typos because i type to fast sorry
I feel like i haven't been doing as good as i should when it comes to writing. i know i've only been around for a few months. i know that before this i've never written before and never even thouhgt about it, didnt think it was for me.
But i have been absolutely loved it here so far. i know others have had bad experiances with other people but im lucky since im fairly new(might as well be a baby compared to some of y'all with how long youve been around).
But...when i first started i was respoding to post so quickly, giving long things, like a paragraph or 2. now was it good? eh who knows im not going back to look lol. lately i've been taking days to respond and not writing much in the post. i see everyone else writing great posts and responces and im just here barely saying anything after days. i'v been beating myself up about it. i know part of it will come with time. but i just cant stop feeling bad about it and i have no clue why. my brain just at some point said "fuck you im not giving you any ideas or words to use." i hate it. i want to post and do stuff so bad because chaos is amazing, i love it. but my fucking brain jsut wont. let. me.
i just sit there and stare sometimes wanting to do something, anything but my brain wont fucking let me i HATE it.
and like I want to so bad. I cna do dialog more or less, but i don't want it to be just dialog. i want more then that. like its juts a personal thing. I want SO bad to make logner posts. not just to make long posts but to actually say more. add more to the post.
Actual stuff besides dialog. And not just posts big blocks of dialog either
I've been told im doing good, and it means a lot but still cant help but beat myself up about it. I've been told it will come with time and I know that but yet i cant stop beating myself up about it
ok rant over anyway love y'all keep being great <3
