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Private Warmth in the Storm

Snow pressed thick against the cantina windows, the storm outside turning the world into a restless blur of white and wind that swallowed the street and softened every sound beyond the walls. Inside, however, the air held a steady warmth that wrapped around Xian Xiao the moment she stepped through the door, letting it creak shut behind her as she brushed the snow from her coat.

She pushed her hood back, shaking loose a few damp strands of red hair that clung stubbornly to her cheek before tucking them behind her ear. Her black eyes adjusted slowly to the lantern-lit interior, where the glow was softer and kinder than the harsh winter light outside. The room smelled of wood smoke, sweet spice, and something rich simmering in the kitchen. An aroma that settled her shoulders almost instantly.

Valskar had a way of being brutally cold in the open air and unexpectedly gentle once you crossed a threshold. The little frontier settlement had grown around the hyperspace lanes like frost gathering around a lantern flame. Stubborn, bright, and determined to endure the long winter nights. This cantina looked as though it had been part of that endurance for years.

Heavy beams stretched across the ceiling, their surfaces darkened and scarred by age and smoke. Lanterns hung low over wooden tables where locals sat in small clusters, their conversations quiet and unhurried, as if the storm outside had convinced everyone to speak in softer tones. A few offworld travelers had claimed the back corner, their thick coats piled beside them while they warmed their hands around steaming mugs.

Xian made her way toward the counter, her boots thudding softly against the worn floorboards that had clearly weathered countless seasons. She slid onto a stool and rubbed her hands together, trying to coax warmth back into her fingers after the long walk through the snow.

"Hot chocolate, please," she said, her voice low but steady.

The bartender gave a short nod, already reaching for a tin behind the counter with the practiced ease of someone who had served the same comfort to countless cold travelers.

While she waited, Xian rested her elbows lightly on the bar and let her gaze drift around the room with a kind of idle curiosity. Snow tapped rhythmically against the windows, a soft percussion beneath the murmur of voices. Somewhere behind her, a chair scraped across the floor, followed by a laugh that sounded like someone trying—and failing—to make a joke land.

It felt…normal. Comfortingly, quietly normal.

The mug arrived a moment later, steam rising in delicate curls from the dark surface. Xian wrapped both hands around it immediately, letting the heat seep into her fingers and chase away the lingering chill that clung to her skin. She released a slow breath she hadn't realized she'd been holding, the warmth settling into her chest.

Perfect.

She lifted the mug and took a careful sip. The sweetness bloomed across her tongue, warm and rich, exactly what she had been craving since she stepped out into the storm.

Leaning back slightly on the stool, she kept one hand wrapped around the cup while the other rested loosely against the counter. Her eyes wandered across the cantina again, taking in the strangers scattered throughout the room without focusing on any one face for too long. They were just people. The travelers, locals, workers, wanderers, and each was wrapped in their own small stories.

Just another night.

Outside, the storm continued to howl across Valskar's frozen streets, but inside the cantina, the lanternlight held steady, casting warm gold across the wood and stone as Xian quietly savored her drink and the rare, uncomplicated peace of the moment.

Xiaoyu Xiaoyu
 

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The door creaked open just enough to let in a thin blade of cold air; and her, slipping through it like she belonged more to the draft than the room. Snow clung stubbornly to the hem of her sleeves and the edge of her hair, though she made no immediate effort to brush it off. Instead, she paused just inside, eyes in a half squint, quietly observing. The lantern oil smelled a touch overused. The stew in the back leaned heavy on root vegetables, likely to stretch supplies through the storm. A faint medicinal bitterness lingered near one of the corner tables, like someone treating themselves without knowing what they were doing.

She didn’t take a seat at first. Instead, she circled aimlessly to anyone watching, but her attention snagged briefly here and there. A chipped mug, a man favoring his left side, damp gloves left too close to the heat, risking stiffening rather than drying.

And then...something sweet. Her nose twitched at the scent, taking in a deep breath as though to swallow whatever it was based on the scent alone. It was definitely chocolate; that much she could be sure about. Another whiff and it was definitive; hot chocolate. She gave a smile, the scent of chocolate able to lift any mood. Although she wasn't one for the drink itself, she did enjoy the scent all the same. Xiaoyu opened her eyes, scanning the patrons to see who had ordered the drink.

Her eyes shifted, settling at last on Xian. Not in the way most would look; no curiosity about her face, her clothes, or her presence; but rather at the cup in her hands. The steam. The thickness. The way it clung faintly to the rim.

Xiaoyu approached without asking permission, stopping just beside the stool. “…Too much sugar,” she murmured, more to herself than to Xian. Her voice was soft, flat, and entirely unconcerned with whether it was welcome. Then, finally, she glanced up; sharp eyes meeting Xian’s, measuring in a way that felt closer to examination than introduction.

“But it’s covering the bitterness well,” she added, tilting her head slightly. “Whoever made it knows what they’re doing. Or they’re used to people who don’t.” Without waiting for a response, she slipped onto the stool beside her, movements economical and unceremonious. A bit of snow fell from her sleeve onto the floor. "Cold sake..." she signaled to the bartender. Only then did she rest her chin lightly against her palm, gaze drifting back across the room



 
Xian had noticed her the moment the door opened.

Not because of the cold, or the snow, but the way she moved through the room without really joining it. Like she was sorting through everything she saw, piece by piece, deciding what mattered.

It felt… familiar.

She didn't look up right away when the girl stopped beside her, only taking a small sip of her drink as the quiet commentary came. The warmth of it lingered, sweet and a little too rich, but she didn't seem bothered by that.

"Maybe," Xian said, her tone easy, thoughtful rather than defensive. "Or maybe people just like things that make the cold easier to ignore."

Her black eyes shifted then, lifting to meet Xiaoyu's sharper gaze without flinching. There was curiosity there, but not the same kind. Not invasive. Just… aware.

She turned the cup slightly in her hands, watching the steam curl for a second before adding, "It's supposed to be sweet."

A faint smile touched her mouth, small but genuine.

"I don't think it's trying to hide anything."

She took another sip, then tilted the cup just slightly in Xiaoyu's direction, not offering it, just acknowledging the shared space between them.

"You smelled it from across the room, didn't you?" she said, a little more amused now. "That's impressive."

A brief pause.

"I'm Xian."

Xiaoyu Xiaoyu
 

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Xiaoyu breathed, taking a moment before she responded, attention stayed on the rising steam rather than the person beside her. It curled in thin, delicate strands before disappearing into the warmer air above the cup; consistent, almost methodical in the way it faded. She seemed to follow that pattern more than the conversation itself, as if confirming something quietly in her own mind before deciding it was worth answering.

“…It is,” she said at last, her voice soft and distant, like she’d only just returned to the present. “Sweet...”

The word lingered, not quite agreement, not quite disagreement; more like she was testing how it felt to say it out loud. Her gaze shifted then, but not directly to Xian. It hovered just past her, studying in that same careful, almost clinical way, as though she were observing a specimen rather than a stranger sharing a drink.

“People say that a lot,” she continued, a touch more thoughtful now. “That things are supposed to be a certain way. Medicine is supposed to be bitter. Sweet things are supposed to be harmless.” Her eyes flickered back down to the chocolate, then up again. “Both of those are wrong often enough.”

Only then did she properly meet Xian’s gaze. “I smelled the cocoa,” she said simply. “The sugar just makes it easier to notice.” The bartender had already set down her drink. Xiaoyu lifted it without ceremony, taking a small sip. It was cold, clean, smooth; the kind of taste that didn’t try to be anything more than it was. She seemed to prefer that.

“Xiaoyu,” she added after a moment, as if remembering introductions were a thing people expected.

This time, when her gaze drifted, it didn’t go far. It settled back on Xian more easily, more deliberately than before, like she’d decided she was worth the attention. “You’re not just here to stay warm,” she said, just as plainly as before. “People who are don’t usually pay attention to who walks in.” She paused, before adding:

“But you noticed me.”



 
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Xian listened without interrupting, her hands still wrapped loosely around the cup as the warmth settled into her fingers. She didn't rush to answer, letting Xiaoyu's words sit the way she seemed to let everything sit first.

When Xiaoyu finished, Xian took a small sip, eyes lowering briefly to the surface of the drink before lifting again.

"I notice a lot of things," she said simply.

There was no defensiveness in it, no edge. Just a quiet truth.

Her gaze held Xiaoyu's now, steady and open, but not invasive. "You stood out," she added after a moment. "Not because of the cold. Or the snow." A faint pause. "Because you weren't trying to be part of any of it."

Her fingers shifted slightly on the cup, turning it just enough to watch the steam curl again, mirroring the way Xiaoyu had earlier without seeming to realize it.

"I'm not here just to stay warm," Xian admitted, her voice softer now, but no less certain. "But I'm not here for anything complicated either."

A small, almost thoughtful smile touched her expression. "I like places like this," she said. "You can sit, and no one expects anything from you. You just… exist for a while."

She glanced briefly toward Xiaoyu's drink, then back to her. "And you noticed my drink," she added, a quiet note of amusement in her voice. "So I guess we're even."

A beat passed, easy, unforced. "Do you always study rooms like that," Xian asked, not accusing, just curious, "or only when something smells interesting?"

Xiaoyu Xiaoyu
 

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Her fingers turned the small sake cup once, twice, the motion slow and absentminded, as if the question had been set somewhere just out of reach and she needed a moment to decide whether it was worth picking up. Her gaze drifted—not far, just enough to break the direct line between them; before settling somewhere along the edge of the counter.

“…Both,” she said eventually. Then, after a brief pause, she took a small sip of her drink, letting the quiet stretch a little longer before continuing.

“I look,” she added, more thoughtfully this time. “Most people don’t. They see what they expect to see, and then they stop.” Her eyes flicked, briefly, toward the room again; the scattered patrons, the low lanternlight, the illusion of stillness. “For me, it makes things obvious.”

Her gaze returned to Xian then, more direct now, though still lacking any real intensity. “You say you’re not here for anything complicated,” Xiaoyu continued, her tone quiet, almost idle. “But people who ‘just exist’ don’t usually watch the door. Or the people who come through it.” She tipped her head slightly, studying her in the same measured way she always did.

“They also don’t explain themselves to strangers.” Xiaoyu gave a small smile then, before adjusting herself in her chair once more. "In any case, what sort of uncomplicated things drew you here tonight?" Even though she would normally not care to know such trivial and personal matters, she figured it would serve her some purpose to continue a conversation with Xian, for as long as she was finishing her drinks.


 
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Xian blinked once, then let out a small, warm laugh under her breath, the sound soft but genuine.

"Okay, that sounds way more intense than what I'm actually doing," she admitted, shaking her head slightly.

Her hands wrapped a little more securely around the mug in front of her, soaking in the warmth before she took another small sip, clearly enjoying it.

"I just like sitting where I can see the door," Xian added with a light shrug. "You get to watch people come in, figure out where they fit, who looks lost, who doesn't."

Her tone stayed easy, more curious than cautious.

"And sometimes it's just interesting," she went on, glancing briefly toward the entrance again before looking back to Xiaoyu. "People don't really hide what they're feeling when they first walk into a place like this."

A small pause, then a faint grin.

"But mostly?" Xian lifted the mug slightly. "Hot chocolate."

She took another sip, shoulders relaxing as she settled into it.

"It's cold, I had nowhere better to be, and this seemed like a good place to sit for a while."

Her head tilted just a touch, more open now.

"And talking to strangers is kind of part of that," she added lightly. "You never know who you end up sharing a table with."

A brief beat, then a softer smile.

"So far, not a bad pick."

Xiaoyu Xiaoyu
 

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Xiaoyu watched her for a moment after the laugh, quiet in a way that didn’t interrupt it but didn’t quite join it either.

Her gaze dipped briefly to the mug in Xian’s hands, noting the way she held it now—more comfortably, more like she’d settled in rather than just arrived. The tension from the cold had faded. Or at least, most of it had.

“…Mm.” she murmured in agreement. “That’s true,” she said after a moment, her voice soft as she turned her cup slightly between her fingers again. “People are easiest to read when they haven’t decided what to show yet.”. Her eyes flicked, just briefly, toward the door as if acknowledging the point, then back to Xian. There was no resistance in her expression; just a quiet acceptance of the idea, like it fit neatly into something she already understood. “The first few seconds are usually the most honest.”

She lifted her sake and took a small sip, unhurried, letting the silence stretch just enough to feel natural instead of empty.

When she spoke again, her tone had shifted; still calm, but less dissecting, less like she was pulling things apart and more like she was simply… sitting there.

“…Hot chocolate is inefficient,” she added, almost absently. “Too sweet, not very filling, and it cools too quickly.” Realizing that she might have sounded a little pretentious, she quickly added "But it does smell nice..."

Her gaze drifted briefly across the room again before returning, settling more easily this time.

“I don’t usually talk to strangers,” Xiaoyu admitted, just as plainly as everything else she said. “Most of them aren’t very interesting. But this isn't so bad..." the latter part of the sentence was said in a softer tone, more to herself than to her new acquaintance.



 
Xian let out a soft breath through her nose, something just shy of a laugh as she turned the mug slightly in her hands, letting the warmth settle into her fingers. She listened without interrupting, the way she always did when someone spoke like that, not rushed, not trying to fill space, just… thinking out loud in a way that actually meant something.

Her eyes drifted over Xiaoyu for a moment, not in the same analytical way Xiaoyu seemed to observe others, but in a quieter, more instinctive way. Taking in the details, the posture, the way she held herself, the way she spoke. There was something about it that didn't quite match the usual expectations.

"You know," Xian said after a moment, her tone light but thoughtful, "I think we're about the same age."

She tilted her head slightly, studying her just a little more openly now, though there was no sharpness to it. Just curiosity, and something softer underneath.

"…but you sound like you've already figured out things I'm still tripping over," she added, a faint, self-aware smile pulling at the corner of her mouth.

Her gaze dropped briefly to her drink, watching the faint swirl of heat rising from it before she looked back up again.

"I mean, the way you talk about people, about moments… it's not just noticing things," Xian continued, a little more quietly now. "It's like you understand them before they even decide what they're doing."

She huffed a small breath, not quite frustration, not quite amusement.

"I mostly just react," she admitted. "Or I figure it out after I've already made a mess of it."

There was no bitterness in it, just honesty, the kind that didn't try to dress itself up into something better than it was.

"And you're sitting here talking about what people show in the first few seconds," she went on, her tone warming slightly, a hint of admiration threading through it. "That's… I don't know. That's ahead of where I am."

Her fingers tightened slightly around the mug before relaxing again, grounding herself in the warmth.

"Feels like you're already doing better than I ever will," Xian said, not heavy, not dramatic, just stated plainly, like something she'd thought before but never really said out loud.

Then, just as easily, she let a small smile return, softer this time, nudging the moment away from getting too serious.

"But I'll defend hot chocolate anyway," she added, lifting the cup slightly. "It's not about efficiency. It's about not freezing and having something that tastes good while you're doing it."

A small pause, then a quieter, more genuine note slipped in.

"And… talking to strangers isn't so bad," Xian said, glancing back at her. "At least, not this one."

Xiaoyu Xiaoyu
 

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Her fingers paused against the rim of the sake cup, the motion she’d been idly repeating coming to a stop as she listened. She didn’t look away this time, either. Her gaze stayed on Xian, steady in a way that was less analytical than before, like she wasn’t picking anything apart; just taking it in as it was.

“…You’re not behind,” she said after a few seconds. Her voice was softer than it had been up to that point, though it didn’t lose that same matter-of-fact tone. If anything, it sounded more certain, not less. “You just pay attention to different things.” She lifted her cup, taking a small sip, eyes lowering briefly before drifting back up again. There was no hesitation in her expression, no sign that she was trying to soften the statement or dress it up into something kinder than it was.

“Reacting isn’t worse,” she continued. “It just means you’re inside it while it’s happening. I stand outside of it,” she added, quieter now. “Most of the time.” Her fingers tapped lightly once against the side of the cup before stilling again, “It’s easier to understand things that way. But it also means you don’t really get to be part of them.” That thought lingered a second longer than her others usually did, like it had more weight than she meant to give it.

Her attention returned to Xian, expression smoothing back into something more neutral, though not as distant as before. “You’ll figure things out faster than you think,” Xiaoyu said. “People who notice they’re making mistakes usually do.” A faint shift followed those words, as to not sound too harsh or matter-of-fact; not quite a smile, but something close enough to soften the edges again. “And hot chocolate isn’t completely useless,” she added, glancing briefly at the mug. “If it keeps your hands warm, that’s already doing something.” She waved one hand in the air vaguely as she continued. “…And it smells better than most things in here.”


 
Xian listened without interrupting, the way she always did when something actually reached her rather than just passing by. Her fingers shifted slightly around the mug, not restless this time, simply present, as though she were holding onto the warmth with more intention than before. She didn't look away while Xiaoyu spoke, didn't deflect or retreat behind habit, even when the words came closer than she expected.

"You stand outside it," she repeated quietly, almost to herself at first, turning the idea over as if testing how it fit against the shape of her own experience. Her gaze drifted briefly across the room, taking in the movement, the people, the small currents of life happening around them, before returning with a steadier focus.

"I don't think I could do that," she admitted, not dismissing the thought, simply acknowledging it with the same honesty she used when something mattered. "Even if I tried." A faint breath left her, softer than frustration, more like acceptance of a truth she had known for a long time.

"I'm usually already in the middle of it before I realize what's happening," she added, the corner of her mouth lifting just slightly in something that wasn't quite amusement but carried the shape of it. Her eyes returned to Xiaoyu, a little more open now, as though the conversation had shifted something inside her.

"But what you said," she continued, quieter, more thoughtful, "about not getting to be part of it." She hesitated, searching for the right shape of the thought, not wanting to contradict but wanting to be precise. "I think that would bother me more," she said at last. "Understanding it afterward is one thing. Not being there for it at all feels worse."

Her fingers tapped lightly once against the mug, unconsciously mirroring Xiaoyu's earlier gesture, a small echo of connection she didn't seem aware of. "But I guess that means you see things I don't," Xian added, her tone carrying a genuine acknowledgment. "Things I miss because I'm too busy reacting."

A brief pause followed, her expression softening just a fraction, enough to show the shift without breaking her composure. "That's not a bad trade," she said, more certain now, as though she had arrived at the conclusion rather than spoken it. Her gaze dropped to the mug again before she lifted it slightly, more out of habit than intention, grounding herself in the motion.

"And for what it's worth," she added, a hint of warmth threading back into her voice, "I think you're better at talking to strangers than you think." A small beat passed. "Or maybe I'm just easy," she said, the faintest trace of dry humor returning, subtle but unmistakable. Then, quieter, with a sincerity she didn't try to hide: "But I'm glad you did."

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Her gaze lingered on Xian for a moment, steady and quiet, before drifting; the counter, the faint ring of moisture left behind by the mug, the slow curl of steam that had begun to thin as the drink cooled. Small things. Grounding things.

“…It would bother you,” she said at last, almost to herself, like she was confirming something she had already expected. Her fingers shifted slightly around the sake cup, “Most people don’t like being on the outside of things,” she continued, her voice calm, “They want to feel it while it’s happening. Even if it’s messy. You don’t miss as much as you think,” Xiaoyu added. “You just experience it differently.” She tilted her head slightly, studying her in that same quiet way, though there was less distance in it now.

“Reacting means you’re there,” she said. “It means you’re part of what’s happening, not just watching it...that has its own clarity.” She paused again, allowing the words to linger before softening her tone a fraction. "…Understanding something after doesn’t make it less real.” For a moment, she said nothing else.

Then her eyes flicked down briefly to the mug in Xian’s hands, noting the way she held it, the unconscious rhythm of her movements, before returning again. When Xian spoke about strangers, Xiaoyu exhaled faintly through her nose, not quite a laugh, but close enough to carry the shape of one. “I’m not,” she said plainly. “You’re just… easier than most. You don’t pretend as much.” Her fingers tapped once against the side of her cup before stilling again.

“That makes it easier.”

For a moment her gaze held the cup in her hand, “…I’m glad I did too,” Xiaoyu added, almost absently.


 
Xian went quiet for a moment, not because she had run out of words, but because too many of them had landed a little too cleanly and left her needing a second to sort through what they stirred up. She lowered her gaze to the mug in her hands, watching the last thin veil of steam dissolve into the air while her thumbs rested against the fading warmth as if the simple contact steadied her more than she wanted to admit.

"You notice a lot," she said eventually, her voice softer now and touched with something more thoughtful than guarded.

It did not sound like an accusation in the slightest. If anything, it carried the shape of respect, quiet and genuine.

When she looked back up at Xiaoyu, there was a steadier openness in her expression than there had been when they first began talking. Whatever guardedness she usually carried with strangers had eased somewhere along the way without her noticing, worn down not by pressure or insistence, but by the quiet relief of being spoken to honestly and without pretense.

"I think pretending is tiring," she continued, the corner of her mouth shifting into a small, wry curve that suggested she knew exactly how little talent she had for it. "Some people are very good at it, but I'm not."

The humor was dry, though the truth beneath it was unmistakable.

"I usually feel something first and figure it out later," she admitted, glancing briefly around the room before returning her attention to Xiaoyu again. "Sometimes much later, if I'm being honest."

She rolled the mug lightly between her palms, as though the motion itself helped her think more clearly.

"So maybe you're right," Xian said after a beat, the words slower and more deliberate now. "Maybe I'm not missing as much as I think I am."

Those words seemed to come with more effort than the others, as if she were trying them on to see whether they fit honestly before deciding to keep them.

"I just spend a lot of time assuming everyone else understands things faster than I do, and after a while it becomes easy to believe that must be true."

Her expression softened at that, less defensive now that the thought had finally been spoken aloud instead of carried around in silence.

When Xiaoyu mentioned that she did not pretend as much, Xian let out a breath that might have been a laugh if it had chosen to commit more fully.

"That might just mean I'm bad at hiding," she said lightly, the self-awareness in it easy enough to hear.

Then her gaze held Xiaoyu's a little longer than before, and something gentler settled there without fanfare.

"Or it might mean you're very good at seeing."

She lifted the mug again, though it had cooled enough that the gesture seemed more habitual than necessary.

"I'm glad you talked to me, too," she said quietly. "I came in here cold, planning to keep to myself, drink something warm, and leave without speaking to anyone."

A small, genuine smile touched her mouth and stayed there this time.

"And instead I ended up being psychoanalyzed over hot chocolate."

The humor was soft, but the warmth beneath it was unmistakable, and for once she made no effort to hide that either.

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