His words were true. At least they were to him for a great extent. For me? I was mulling it over. It wasn't that I felt the man was necessary, but it didn't fall on him for the swords creation. No. It was my own. He might have not been really needed for the sacrifice, but I was. I needed to give something up, to gain something more.... well more. I knew the little jest at the end was just for me, I just rolled my eyes and paid attention as he began to forge the process of the sword. Lightning filled the room with the smell of ozone as a pommel came out of the lake of blood. I looked at it rather strangely as the grip and hilt was longer than the basin was deep.
Krest spoke and his words entered my ears clearly. I needed to take the blade. and to not let go. Standing there. I felt like this was going to be a heavy mess of what I needed. For the process to work, I needed to take my gloves off. Since they attracted lightning, I didn't want them to absorb too much and blow on me. As well, I took my jacket off. Revealing a black and red band tank top. If Krest looked from behind me, he could see the chain of a necklace that I always wore. Taking it out, I held it for a second. Remembering my family. Knowing that I couldn't let go. I would never let go.
Letting it fall against my chest, I walked up to the basin. Nervous as ever. Seeing the lightning flashing around the grip of the sword as it protruded from the crimson lake. Slowly I reached out with my right hand. But once I was close enough to get shocked by the lightning, the grip seemed to attract my hand like two magnets. I gripped it with all that I had. My knuckled turned white, and my skin flashed With lightning. My arm was shaking violently and threatened to let go, but I held on.
Mental images of my life flashed through my eyes. Growing up as a child. Playing with toy swords out in the front yard with Morna. Seeing my parents smile as they watched us play swords and war. Morna would smack me too hard in the hand and as I child I would cry. But he was there to help me up. Trying to make it better by consoling me. Even letting me give him a free shot at him. Which I never took. The pain of the next day, watching as my mother and father were murdered by a Sith apprentice. Fearing the man in the black cloak as he used a sword to cut my father down. Raping my mother before she too was killed. I had watched it all.
Morna and I were scared. Not knowing what to do. The man was coming into the kitchen and I shoved my brother into the cabinet under the sink. Turning around as the door opened, I looked up at the man. Seeing his face. I was scared, but at the age of five, I stood up, trying to protect my brother. Feeling the pain as lightning hit me. I phased back into the present. My entire body shook. I couldn't control it any more. I tightened my grip on the sword. Vowing to not let go. Once more I thought of my time stuck in the lab as an experiment. Tested on. Beaten, scarred, scared, afraid of the Sith who had me captured. Wanting to see if my brother was okay. I fought for each day of my life. Never giving up. Never giving in. The pain I felt then was nothing as I am feeling now.
Lightning flashed back to current time. I had to keep it there. I felt my hand slipping. Even more so, I didn't care that the lightning was hurting me. I wouldn't let go of who I was. And what I had become. Taking my left hand. I reached out. Grabbing the blade with both hands. I arched my back as the pain flooded over my entire body. My eyes were watering and yet they were dry. My face felt hot and burning as a star just before it ended it's life. My hands felt as though thousands of needles were being jammed into my hand over and over again. My heart raced faster than the beat of any bird living or dead. My chest felt like it was going to explode like a supernova.
Yet I still held on. Dreaming of the images of my brother. Searching for him. My first fight with Krest. Ashin, training to become better with a Saber. Getting Storm and using it for the first time. My strength as a Fire Shaper. The crush I had on Aerin. The creation of my lightsaber. Being Knighted and becoming even more stronger. Fighting in an Invasion, Accepting my Dark side. Learning to control my anger. The death of Morna, Fighting with his wife Lexa. Then becoming her lover and father to a child. And most of all, the dragon in which I have taken care of over the past 19 years since I was a lowly Knight. All these images and instances flooded my head as I held on with all of my strength. I could smell the smoke of a fire in which I had upon my hands and arms. My vision was flooded in red and orange to which I had to force my will upon this sword. Taking in all this pain. Not saying a word, but cringing, yelling, screaming. I could feel my hands get hot at my nails and claws were digging into my skin from the other side of the handle. Feeling the blood drip down my hand and into the boiling waves of crimson blood. The life force of us all.
My back was still arched My chest popping out to the sky in pain. Shaking as though an earthquake was running throughout the entirety of my body and form. Tremors shaking my soul. I pushed myself to lean forward. Leaning down to face the sword and it's creation. I am the wielder of this blade. I am the wielder of a sword that would be made from my very essence. Time felt forever as I stood there. Letting the lightning flood me with pain and agony to levels I had never felt before. Gripping onto the sword. A doubt entered my mind.
"Should I let go?"
And in that instant, I knew that I couldn't.... wouldn't let go. Leaning completely forward. I closed my mouth from the screaming and hollering. Clenching my teeth together so hard I feared they might break. And in that moment, I said only one sentence that I will never forget. Uttering the phrase with every ounce of power and ability I had. I might give my soul for such a saying. My voice deep and filled with manifestations of the force. Flowing through my veins like a river.
"Warriors are not made my the strength of their body, but by the strength of their soul."
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