Ignatius
A N A R C H Y
I always enjoyed a walk. They calmed me down and helped me to reduce the stress that I had in my life. With becoming one of the head students of Vur Tepe, Training [member="Sahna Te"], and as always, doing my best to try and fight the demons that have been plaguing my mind. I still seemed to come back to them. Always. While recently they have been not attacking me as often, I still felt them in the back of my mind. My demons, my sins, and my father's sins that I needed to repent for.
Stop it.
Shaking my head, I needed to clear my mind. I needed to get a better frame of mind for me to even get close to the opening that my own mentor, [member="Jyn Sol"], had showed me. A place where I could be alone. A place where I could focus myself and my energies. Ever since she had told me to come here and practice meditation, to strengthen my mind and spirit with, and without the force, I had been doing so on a regular basis. Recently I hadn't due to working on various projects, but I was going to attempt to make up for it.
I cleared my mind a little more from the thoughts. Entering the clearing once more to see no one there. Part of me always wished that I could have found Jyn here in meditation, so we could maybe catch up. However, it seemed she was very busy. Hearing just little snidbits of her life being quite interesting with another one of our members. However, I could not fault her. I seemed to have a... close relationship with Sahna. It was a strange one. That much is true. I felt like an older brother to her. Someone she looked up to, but also intimidated her simply because I was so knowledgeable compared to her. I was supposed to be her teacher, and in the process, found a friend and an ally to call upon.
I wanted to know more about our relationship, but I had no clue how to bring it up to her. I have never had a relationship like I have had before. Sure in grade school I had a girlfriend. But that was nothing compared to this. Then, it was a status symbol to be dating someone from a well known family. Here? It doesn't matter who you are. You are nothing out here in the galaxy. Yet, the Je'daii once more seemed to prove me wrong. Their tightly knit group of force users, as well as the citizens who happened to be in this system were very much accommodating to when I first came. A darker individual who saw the darkness within him, and wanted to control it. Even when I had handed over my fathers holocron to Jyn, I barely felt any darkness from it. However, she felt so much, that she didn't even want to touch it. It showed me how much I have to learn and grow to become a more balanced individual.
Coming back to the present, I still found the place empty. Just the natural wild life around me. I slowly drew in a fresh breath of air, and slowly exhaled through my mouth. Calming myself, I began to remove my shirt. Walking to the normal rock that I would sit upon that was near the outskirts of the pond. Using the shirt as a sort of sitting pad. I crossed my legs and relaxed myself. Sitting up straight and just calmed myself. Listening to ebbs and flows of the wind and the jungle around me. Rippling of the water, and the wildlife that grew around it. I slowly began to center myself.
The feeling was calming. Just listening to what was around me. Feeling the soft wind. I knew it had been too long since I had been here that I was missing this. The chance to come out here and to feel and experience this. The problem was, this feeling didn't last very long. Even as I sat here, doing nothing, I began to feel something creeping up into my mind. This started to feel painful. Like a headache or a migraine that was caused by bright lights and a hangover. I shook my head trying to physically get rid of whatever it was, yet it still persisted. I was then frozen to the spot. Unable to move or speak. I could feel someone's eyes on me. Piercing eyes that judged every part of my being.
Nickolas.
I could hear his voice as it entered my head.
"Oh the child still believes he can fix the impossible. Fight and beat the impossible. How endearing."
His words were filled with malice and hatred towards me. Knowing that his words would anger and send me over the edge. I wanted so deeply to end this now. To draw my promises and use them as a weapon against him. Send him back into the Netherworld where he literally crawled out of.
"You wish to end me. To rid the galaxy of some great evil? How could I be evil when I created you? You are born of my loins. You are my son. My creation. Nothing will change that. If you really feel like you need to end this, Come to Arkania. You know where I reside."
I could feel his presence. I knew he wasn't really there. However, I fought him with everything I had. I gave into my anger, my hatred, but I didn't let it control me. I used the love for my friends, the hope I carried of a new world where people could be safer from the likes of my father. I spoke very simply and plainly back to this mental projection.
"I will be coming. I will finish what was started years ago."
I could feel the smile from the monster. I could almost hear the chuckling in his voice. Without another word, the presence vanished. He left me once more in this grove. Alone and with the wildlife. However, tainted, and distraught. Attempting to calm myself, I couldn't. The challenge he gave me was stronger than ever. My blood boiled to finish this. Standing up, I retrieved my shirt, and began preparations for this encounter.
Stop it.
Shaking my head, I needed to clear my mind. I needed to get a better frame of mind for me to even get close to the opening that my own mentor, [member="Jyn Sol"], had showed me. A place where I could be alone. A place where I could focus myself and my energies. Ever since she had told me to come here and practice meditation, to strengthen my mind and spirit with, and without the force, I had been doing so on a regular basis. Recently I hadn't due to working on various projects, but I was going to attempt to make up for it.
I cleared my mind a little more from the thoughts. Entering the clearing once more to see no one there. Part of me always wished that I could have found Jyn here in meditation, so we could maybe catch up. However, it seemed she was very busy. Hearing just little snidbits of her life being quite interesting with another one of our members. However, I could not fault her. I seemed to have a... close relationship with Sahna. It was a strange one. That much is true. I felt like an older brother to her. Someone she looked up to, but also intimidated her simply because I was so knowledgeable compared to her. I was supposed to be her teacher, and in the process, found a friend and an ally to call upon.
I wanted to know more about our relationship, but I had no clue how to bring it up to her. I have never had a relationship like I have had before. Sure in grade school I had a girlfriend. But that was nothing compared to this. Then, it was a status symbol to be dating someone from a well known family. Here? It doesn't matter who you are. You are nothing out here in the galaxy. Yet, the Je'daii once more seemed to prove me wrong. Their tightly knit group of force users, as well as the citizens who happened to be in this system were very much accommodating to when I first came. A darker individual who saw the darkness within him, and wanted to control it. Even when I had handed over my fathers holocron to Jyn, I barely felt any darkness from it. However, she felt so much, that she didn't even want to touch it. It showed me how much I have to learn and grow to become a more balanced individual.
Coming back to the present, I still found the place empty. Just the natural wild life around me. I slowly drew in a fresh breath of air, and slowly exhaled through my mouth. Calming myself, I began to remove my shirt. Walking to the normal rock that I would sit upon that was near the outskirts of the pond. Using the shirt as a sort of sitting pad. I crossed my legs and relaxed myself. Sitting up straight and just calmed myself. Listening to ebbs and flows of the wind and the jungle around me. Rippling of the water, and the wildlife that grew around it. I slowly began to center myself.
The feeling was calming. Just listening to what was around me. Feeling the soft wind. I knew it had been too long since I had been here that I was missing this. The chance to come out here and to feel and experience this. The problem was, this feeling didn't last very long. Even as I sat here, doing nothing, I began to feel something creeping up into my mind. This started to feel painful. Like a headache or a migraine that was caused by bright lights and a hangover. I shook my head trying to physically get rid of whatever it was, yet it still persisted. I was then frozen to the spot. Unable to move or speak. I could feel someone's eyes on me. Piercing eyes that judged every part of my being.
Nickolas.
I could hear his voice as it entered my head.
"Oh the child still believes he can fix the impossible. Fight and beat the impossible. How endearing."
His words were filled with malice and hatred towards me. Knowing that his words would anger and send me over the edge. I wanted so deeply to end this now. To draw my promises and use them as a weapon against him. Send him back into the Netherworld where he literally crawled out of.
"You wish to end me. To rid the galaxy of some great evil? How could I be evil when I created you? You are born of my loins. You are my son. My creation. Nothing will change that. If you really feel like you need to end this, Come to Arkania. You know where I reside."
I could feel his presence. I knew he wasn't really there. However, I fought him with everything I had. I gave into my anger, my hatred, but I didn't let it control me. I used the love for my friends, the hope I carried of a new world where people could be safer from the likes of my father. I spoke very simply and plainly back to this mental projection.
"I will be coming. I will finish what was started years ago."
I could feel the smile from the monster. I could almost hear the chuckling in his voice. Without another word, the presence vanished. He left me once more in this grove. Alone and with the wildlife. However, tainted, and distraught. Attempting to calm myself, I couldn't. The challenge he gave me was stronger than ever. My blood boiled to finish this. Standing up, I retrieved my shirt, and began preparations for this encounter.