Deep Space;
Cloaking Field;
[member="Cryax Bane"].
The pieces of Nejaa's mind lay scattered in shards akin to broken glass. Silence only disturbed him, made him feel useless, but he hated anything else. The Scimitar was therefore perfect, constant digital noises, constant upkeep on the hull's condition, various measures and system pings. That grumble of the engine which equates to silence until you really stop and listen;
then you hear it. Behind closed eye lids lay quivering spheres. Dancing like in dream state though he was very much awake, struggling to maintain focus on
exactly nothing. Clear your
mind, he had always been told, open yourself to the force, let it
speak to you. He
was open to the force! He
needed the force!
Why was it
not then coming to him!? For what seemed to be the fiftieth time, he shifted the position of his hands, one atop the other on his lap, reptilian fangs bearing down increasingly harder on his lip. Anger began to shade black with red and each
deliberate buzzing noise from the ship's dashboard sharpened until more pointed than the needles of an interrogation droid.
There, ahead of him, displayed in near life form was a holo projection of Cryax's cell. Warped so that it took up most all of the cockpit, placing Nejaa in the scene from afar- across from the blue demon. But Nejaa did not look at him. Did not look at anything, only into the chaotic void of his own being. A jumbled and repetitively moving mass of tar colored clouds. Never still enough to be at peace, not like the Jedi had wished for him. Master Keba would have known how to train him, how to respect him as who he was. But they had cut him loose, let him fall, he was just an ordinary
casualty to them. A number, a nameless master. Open palms constricted, curling in on themselves, tightening. How he wished a throat was in his grip, another arrogant councilor. Someone
fragile so he could do it with just one hand.
He is here Nejaa, your darkness is here...
Use your darkness, boy, that is your weapon...
Bathe in this, Nejaa, for power will consume you...
Brows furrowed, pushed in on themselves. He could feel Bane there, hear him breathing. The wet sound of water. The thud of a black heart, separated by staggering gasps. The pain of his
broken body. That was ice to Nejaa's burns, cooling and sobering. Nejaa's knuckles relaxed, his first breath without shaking overwhelming him.
Fffffffffffffffff. Emotion poured through him now more than ever, unrestricted, mysterious and
unfamiliar. Most Jedi would undergo any challenge to suppress themselves or squander who they were. Overcome any obstacle if it meant hiding from their
natural feelings.
God forbid you give in to the temptations and cravings of life, experience something so good it could become addicting.
Taste it, Nejaa...
Feel the power move through you...
The dark side, Nejaa, embrace it and you will live...
Another breath, and then again, they were becoming even, paced out. Monotonous. Tendrils of some other awareness began to sink like lactic acid into his muscles. Making him heavy, plaguing him with an oddly serene fatigue. Pins and needles covered his skin, a frown creased further then dispersed in slow motion. Without opening his eyes Nejaa glared at the holo-alien before him, used his dramatic sighs and exhales as a metronome. Focused on the discomfort Cryax must have been feeling as if it were his own. Peeling Bane apart and crawling inside that living body, sticking blue over his own and letting their thoughts find rhythm along one another. Until he too saw what Bane saw, felt the pull of an aching bone, cracked somewhere his mid section. The left side. Lax lips flexed, snarling at the ghost of his own creation.
He saw...
He saw...
He saw Cryax standing there. Alone, younger-
small. In the distance
other children, nondescript faces meant not to leave an impression. A chunk of some gear, no, an old data pad. Outdated by todays standards
or the standards of a few generations,
actually. Junk in the hands of most.
He saw that boy grow up, a smile fall into neutrality, then again to a faceted scowl, aimed at the galaxy. Aimed at himself. That sith, the woman, Matsu. [member="Matsu Xiangu"]! He saw her, too, the both of them. Standing surrounded in metals of various sources and makes. They were shaking one another's hands, but it wasn't formal... both of them were
smiling.
Someone else, someone else entirely. A blue blade,
Torin. Never alone, always shrouded in the ever present stench of the order. An apprentice to something he was taught never to understand, stranded, desperate looking. Like he was looking for something... or some
one... looking right at Nejaa without seeing hi--
wait.
Could he see him?
He cou--!!
NeJAa LoOK OuT--!! NeJAa LoOK OuT--!!
NeJAa LoOK OuT--!! NeJAa LoOK OuT--!!
NeJAa LoOK OuT--!!
NeJAa LoOK OuT--!!
NeJAa LoOK OuT--!!
Torin had reached out, one hand hoping to find its way towards Nejaa- but the images blasted into ashen illusion as a blue blade pierced through Nejaa's chest. Sizzled and spat like grease on a pan heated to too high a temperature. Until he fell forward, catching himself for a hold which lasted only a few seconds. A deafening crunch of metal, and he shook. Him, on his knees before that woman. Her claws wrapping round his neck, eyes boring holes into him. All the while a screaming which had seemed tolerable before now split his ears, melted him out from the inside. Hands gripped at him, Torin's, those of the order, Cryax's.
"Guhhaahh!"
Nejaa's arms nearly punched his own chest, shattered eyes wide in horror of what he had just seen. Before him, unchanged, the alien still lingered about in a perpetual loneliness. Even when Nejaa almost choked, scrambling to regain his position, his composure. It felt like a train had run head first into him, lungs stinging in starvation, begging for more air than Nejaa could provide in one heave, or
ten.
"We... we... what's..."
Like words from a mad man, followed by an intoxicated shamble and war for balance in the attempt of standing. Even while the cockpit's flooring was unmoving, he swayed back and forth as if in the water, clumsy arms aiming to remove the room's holo-projection. But he'd never make it there. Not before everything stopped all at once, throwing him into the array of terminals hard enough to knock him unconscious- only avoiding such a fate out of good fortune and a quick reflex. Stars which had stretched round them before cut from streaks to dots and everything lurched.
No vessel was
meant to be sucked from hyperspace, nor taken out of it in any fashion beyond a proper digression. There was nothing...
proper about this, creaking moans accompanying a red, beeping alarm which rang on not one, but three holo-interfaces. Climbing back onto weak legs and coughing, Nejaa nursed his side, moving with the projected Bane who no doubt also felt their rapid descent from such speeds.
It jerked again, everything, collapsing the ground under him for the last time and shooting him like laundry against the pilot's swinging seat. He couldn't see anything happening around them, no blaster fire when that's what it seemed like. No enemy craft, nothing on the radar. Each coupled warning or alert carried news of a new malfunction, a long list of system check failures beginning to compile on a touch screen under it all. His first thought was Cryax... what had
he done!?
"Frack..."