"Vod, he's gone. Grandfathers gone."
"Alec, what do you mean he's gone? He-"
"He's dead, Caspian. They killed him. Terrorists killed our grandfather."
They killed him.
Nothing could've prepared him for the day when [member="Alec Rekali"] had come to him in Port Shardrock, he didn't even know what had happened at the time but the look on his sisters face made his heart sink, the grief she held behead her eyes. All it took was those five cursed words and his entire world shattered into a million pieces all at once. There were many things he could withstand, many things he could fight through but family loss, and the loss of such close family he couldn't. He lost his father, his grandmother, several of his aunts and uncles fighting the Sith. He lost yet another one of his aunts [member="Aaralyn Rekali"] when she was vented out into space by a Republic she swore to her dying breath she would defend. Some he wasn't old enough to grieve for and others he was, but each time it never got any easier.
He couldn't handle Ember's death.
Caspian took off into the jungle that day free-running through the jungles as fast as he could, his entire world was caving in around him and he'd go to the one place he knew he could be alone. The Lost City that his grandfather had brought him to so many times before, the place they spent so much time at. It was here that he learned, trained, and pushed himself both in mind and body to get to the next level, his progress shepherded by the Warlock's keen eye and firm hand, guiding his grandson. But even as he got there he couldn't bear to sit around and see ghosts of memories past, of great flashbacks of sparring, training. It was as if a part of him wanted to act like a young boy and just hide and hope everything is just a dream, while the other half was so filled with anger and rage he was ready to kill anyone and everyone who stood in his way of vengeance.
Caspian was somewhere lost in the middle in a place he was never comfortable being, so he bottled it all up and tossed it into the closet of his mind. He began training intensively to take it off his mind, pushing his body to the limits and stopping when he could no longer go any more for that day. Sleep came in small periods of one to two hours, and food tasted like ash in the mouth but he just kept running the same gauntlets until his legs gave out, kept lifting and working until his arms gave out and he couldn't breath. It was all he could do to force so much stress on his body that maybe he would forget about everything but it only stayed fresh on his mind. While his sister had made attempts to comfort a brother who was working his hardest to drive himself deeper into the dirt, he rebuffed her or just wouldn't talk to his sister.
She brought him a special signet ring made out of their grandfathers armor remains recovered after his death, reforged and embroidered with the "R" of their family name. The more he held it the more memories came to the surface, and the more he had to bottle up in the fringes of his mind. He tossed it down and bid her goodbye with about as much affection as two strangers on a spaceport terminal. But one thing did stick from that meeting of theirs. She was having another meeting of the clan in the next day or so, and she wanted him to be there. He didn't plan on going initially and wanted to stay buried deep in the Lost City, Caspian was overworked, exhausted, and tired from lack of sleep. But after collapsing hours later from running something happened that changed his mind. He saw Ember standing over him with a look of disappointment on his face. "While you bury your head and work yourself to death out here, your leaving your sister and your family alone out there." Ember told him.
He was abandoning his sister who was just as broken as he was, except she was the one everyone now looked to as leader of both Clan Rekali and the company the clan owned. Ember was right even in death the man still taught him, he couldn't just abandon his family out here. Caspian cleaned himself up, ate and slept, and the next day arrived back in Port Shardrock wearing his full Ori'ramikade Eukgar'gam covered with vahla, dathomiri witch, and mando'a symbols, as well as his signet ring. He stood just inside of the chamber amidst the faces so that his sister didn't see him in the sea, and only stepped up after she bid them to speak.
Caspian walked out into the open towards his sister and spoke "Our grandfather treated Manda'lore [member="Isley Verd"] like family. He respected him, trusted him. I don't believe we should go to war, they didn't do this. Rather we should work with them to find and bring to justice his killer."