The Crystal, The Premier, and The Wizard

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Harris would be lying if he said he wasn't slightly puzzled, but he felt as though he knew what [member="Xos"] was talking about. Often in meditation, he would black out after feeling a sensation of the living force overtaking his conciousness. He never knew how long he was out, only that he'd have dreams of levitation and see the enviorment around him. He would enter a state of hyperfocus in these dreams, feeling the world around him and the souls surrounding him as something tangable to which he could touch. But those were only visions, Right?

"I'm sorry, I don't follow. I didn't enter it as a whole." He rubbed his temple for a moment, "Did I?" There was the sensation of a migrain setting in, "I remember closing my eyes and then opening them, seemlessly, no longer then a blink. But when my eyes opened, I felt almost as though I was off the ground for a moment, a sensation of floating." He held out for a moment, he was curious now and a question was eating him up. "I had a vision however, as I normally do in meditation, a strong feeling of the force overcomes me, and then I feel as though I'm almost knocked out. But during these periods I feel as though I am in an extremely focused dream state, some kind of vision. Almost like I'm watching my life through a holo-projection. Moments ago, I seen rocks floating, and a shocked look on what I can see of your face. I need to know, was that just an illusion which my brain made up in a split second, or is it possible I tapped into a higher power?"

 

[Xos]

Xos hummed to himself in thought hearing his response, unaware of what he had done seemingly, a peculiarity in more ways then one it seemed. He explained it from his point of view, and Xos listened carefully, considering each word of what he said, the vision, the feeling, the sense of calm, but also, the sense of being like a dream. He knew it wasn't technically oneness that the Premier had entered, but it was still a friendship with the force he rarely encountered, well, actually, hadn't encountered. He could become immensely close to the force, but not in the same way. He didn't channel the light, the dark, the grey. Not like that.

A vision, a looking upon oneself rather then through oneself. It was all so familiar yet so different.

I need to know, was that just an illusion which my brain made up in a split second, or is it possible I tapped into a higher power?"

An illusion he mentioned, no, that was not it, not to Xos. The Force worked in many ways, and he believed, this was how it had chosen to work with this man. For one reason or another. And then came his question, the Sage raised his brow, but he did not deny it, rather he nodded his head, "It is, quite possible. In fact I have little doubt you have...an unusual connection with the force. I do not know if it is technically unique, but it is undoubtedly very rare. It is more a friendship, a free flowing, then sheer power. This is a gift, whether by your own actions, or those of the force, you have something many do not get."


Again the Sage folded his hands together on his lap, "Have you used this already, applied it I mean. Meditation is of course immensely important, and the pathway to furthering ones gifts, and connection, to the force. But have you actually attempted to act, while within this state? Or allowed the force to guide your actions to a goal? Or have you been more guided yourself by it, causing you to take actions even if you didn't necessarily understand why or how."

​the questions were important to understanding how similar or dissimilar it was from Oneness.

[member="Premier William Harris I"]

 

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"Have you used this already, applied it I mean. Meditation is of course immensely important, and the pathway to furthering ones gifts, and connection, to the force. But have you actually attempted to act, while within this state? Or allowed the force to guide your actions to a goal? Or have you been more guided yourself by it, causing you to take actions even if you didn't necessarily understand why or how."

Harris pondered the idea for a moment, he never felt unable to move in this state, he simply never tried, he spoke up, "I of course meditate, but once in the state that you describe, and that I feel, I sort of loose total control of myself. I don't feel as though I can't resist, and I very well may be able to move on my own command, but I have never tried, always chalking the visions up to nothing more than a dream."

Harris looked down for a moment, flattening one of his hands against the sandy ground on which he sat, reaching out, even in conversation, his mind was focused on what he'd experienced. His answers almost flowed out of him, no thought was needed. His mind was somewhere else entirely, despite the appearance of engagement with the conversation. It was nothing personal, but he couldn't entirely focus.

Harris looked back up to [member="Xos"] with a questioning face, a question he wanted to ask, 'could I consciously use this,' 'can I try to bend the force,' 'am I reaching some strange harmony?' All these questions raced, but no words came out. Harris glanced downwards once more, freezing at the off-white crystal he hadn't noticed, now in his clenched left hand. That couldn't be, his crystal was yellow, and over time orange, who's was this? Harris looked puzzled and pulled up his bag, he was confused, and Xos didn't seem to realize the situation until he noticed the pure crystal. Harris dug through his bag, "How?"

He looked up at Xos, who had a somewhat confused look, "Did I go through my bag during this instance? My lightsaber's crystal is missing. It was yellow, but tainted orange after beginning to bleed," he raised his fist and opened his hand, "But now it is white. Almost as though my connection purged my crystal. I've heard legends, is it possible for a crystal to be purged of darkness and lose its color? I've spent my time talking and never even realized my cracked crystal in my palm up until now."

 

[Xos]

Xos nodded to himself in thought at the answer, a release of ones own control in a sense. It was a good thing in the case of the force. Unwise to give in completely to impulse, but to the force, it was different. "I might suggest it, don't push it, don't try and force yourself out of it. Let the force guide you when you do it, ask it, to allow you, to assist you, to lead you to something. Many more things can be achieved by following the force, then by having it follow us." he said. Then an entirely new topic occurred, as Harris looked into his clenched hand and held up a white crystal.

The Sage breathed in, well well. That was truly fascinating. And what's more Harris didn't know initially how it got there. He hadn't seen the Premier go through the bag, and the Premier hadn't felt himself do it apparently. He chuckled, not an evil chuckle, a friendly, pleasant, fascinated chuckle. Xos shook his head but not in disagreement as he took another look at the crystal, "Healed indeed, it seems so. I've heard of it as well, but not in person. It is a rarity to preform, let alone have the conditions of a force sensitive having a crystal that they would have reason to 'purge'."

Tapping his fingers together again he shook his head repeating, "Truly, a fascinating relationship you have to the force. First you channel it throughout it's forms at once, then you purify a crystal. You've got quite some stories to tell yourself. But I believe there is also a decision for you to make, if you're going to keep it that way. If you didn't make the decision to do that, who do you think did," he asked stopping his fingers tapping, in his mind, it was likely the force itself, "And should you contest it. After all, you could make it bleed again surely. But would you?"

[member="Premier William Harris I"]

 

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"And should you contest it. After all, you could make it bleed again surely. But would you?"

"I certainly wouldn't like to." He paused for a moment, "I have a question. It doesn't have to do with the force, but it is a favor. I believe you may be able to help me."

Harris lifted his bag and pushed aside an ancient looking leather book and pulled up the burnt silver and oak chassis of a destroyed lightsaber. He rubbed the metal slightly, scratching off a light film that sat beneath the burns before raising it to @Xos. He held it out for him to take.

"My... Well... Someone's lightsaber. It was scavenged from the outer rim on an expedition to an ancient Jedi temple. I had located it before the Imperium's civil war some time back, and I retrieved it from the ancient temple and attempted to repair it. The crystal is mine, but the chassis is not. It was my attempt to forge my weapon whilst having no knowledge. I am wondering if you would be able to assist me in my journey to rebuild my saber and explore deeper into my connections with the force. It isn't a long trip, but I will be traveling to Dagobah, Coruscant, and Tatooine. Would you travel with me to these places in an attempt to find balance?"

 

[Xos]

Xos nodded again, he said he wouldn't want to change it back. Sure he did mention it was an option, but he had hoped that Harris would choose otherwise regardless. Xos lifted his head as the Premier asked for a favor. And handed him a lightsaber, Xos received the object, running it under his hands lightly and careful not to do any damage to it should there be any unusually loose or damaged pieces.

William mentioned how he found the weapons chassis, how he attempted to put it together. And then gave the request, to help search to rebuild it and further explore the force. At first there was some thought, knowing that sometimes the Baran Do required him, or that he needed to leave. But [member="Premier William Harris I"] mentioned it would not be a long journey. And that it was to find balance.

The Sage let out a sense of agreeable happiness, "Yes, I believe I can do that, I would certainly be willing to journey with you. And will offer all the help I can. Besides, perhaps I too can learn from this experience in some way. Expand my knowledge of other worlds and such." He responded, "The force shall guide us where we need to go."