"Yeah, yeah. I've been through worse."
"Liar," she murmured. Fooling an ER doctor about physical trauma was, well, a fool's errand. But she left it at that for now. She was still, frankly, somewhat in awe of the feat he had just accomplished- both the obvious physical one, but also the change of heart.
Which was why the next few moments were so. Damn. Hard.
"Why do you want to save him?"
She checked all of the Zabrak's vitals in silence, not answering right away. In truth, enough time passed after he asked that it was possible she wasn't going to answer him at all. Obviously, she was a doctor, and that's what doctors, did, after all. It would have been very, very easy to just let that unspoken assumption lie between them. Because then later, it wouldn't be her fault. The assumption would be that she had tried. That if he died, it would be because she couldn't save.
Instead of that she had chosen not to.
"I have been asking myself the very same question," she said finally, her voice so quiet he'd have to strain to hear.
"And the answer surprised me."
She rocked back on her heels, still crouched next to the unconscious form. Her dark hair hung around her face, blocking it from [member="Ghorua the Shark"] 's view.
"While I am sure that it varies from place to place, Doctors make a promise, Shark. Actually, we make quite a lot of them. We promise to respect knowledge, and to share it with those who will come after us. We promise that we understand that there is an art to medicine, beyond just the science- that warmth, sympathy, and understanding may outweigh the surgeon's knife or the chemist's drug. We promise to be unafraid to say that we do not know, and to ask for the help of another doctor in order to help a patient. We promise to respect privacy. We promise..... to not treat the disease- but the whole person. We promise to.... prevent disease, where possible, because prevention is more important than treatment."
She paused now, her chest tight as she thought about the virus coursing through her own system. Was she any different from this man beneath her hands? Not in her decision as a doctor- but in her actions as a sentient with responsibility toward the rest of the galaxy? She carried in her the ability to wipe out a planet if at any time she 'pushed the detonator.' All she had to do was let go of it. Her deadman's switch. And instead of getting on a ship and piloting herself in to a star or a black hole, here she was, on the most populated planet in the galaxy. Shopping. She had the power to prevent an outbreak like had happened on her home world. But she simply couldn't bring herself to end it. To die.
What right did she have to condemn this man, now?
Irajah swallowed, hard.
"We promise," she continued, her voice tight, "To remember that we are members of society, with a special obligation to our fellow sentients. We promise.... to tread with care in matters of life. And death. And to above all, not play god."
For the first time in this very long litany, Irajah looked up at him. Her eyes were dry, but there was no mistaking the guilt that ravaged her face. All of this, over one man? Of course it wasn't. But there was no clear way for him to know exactly what more fueled the expression. Just that, surely, there was far more to it than this single moment.
"But the very first thing we swear," she whispered, her voice raw with emotion, "is to fulfill, to the best of our ability and judgment, all of the things I have already said. To the best of my ability and judgement."
Deliberately, she started to put her tools away.
"I don't know if I can save him. Even if I wanted to," she said, fighting to make her voice even again. "And I will not kill him. But the least I can do is stay with him until it is clear. If he will live.... or if he will die."
Very slowly, she stood up.
"I'd like to take a look at your arm now, if that's alright."