Nitya didn't pull away when his arm settled around her waist. If anything, she leaned into the contact just a fraction, not seeking to be held tighter, only acknowledging that it was there. Her posture remained relaxed and open, and when he asked the question, she didn't tense. She appreciated that he gave her space to refuse, even as his eyes stayed on hers.
"It's all right," she said softly. "I don't mind talking about it."
Her golden eyes drifted away for a moment, not from discomfort, but from memory. When she spoke again, her voice carried a quiet steadiness, the tone of someone recounting something difficult but long since integrated into who they were.
"The Zorren trials are…entirely racial," she began. "My mother is full Zorren. My father was human. Being half-Zorren means the change doesn't happen naturally or safely without intervention."
She turned her gaze back to him, making sure he understood before continuing.
"When a Zorren comes of age, they're sent into a harsh environment. Veradune is common, though some clans choose other worlds. The place itself isn't the point. The isolation is." A small pause. "The body doesn't transform on its own. It needs a catalyst. Stress. Fear. Survival. Something that forces the change to happen."
Her hand rested lightly over his forearm at her waist, grounding herself as much as him.
"You're alone. No tools beyond what you can find. No one to guide you. And you have to survive not just the environment, but the transformation itself. The pain. The disorientation. The loss of what you were before." Her lips curved faintly, not quite a smile. "If you fail, you don't die immediately. You just…never fully become."
She met his eyes again, steady and unflinching.
"For me, it meant being left on Veradune while my body changed in ways I couldn't control. My senses sharpened. My sight shifted. My connection to the Force deepened, but it also became louder. Harder to ignore." Her thumb brushed absently along his arm. "The golden glow you see now is part of that. A sign the trial took."
There was no pride in her voice. No bitterness either.
"It wasn't about proving strength," she finished quietly. "It was about learning who I was when nothing else was left to lean on."
She tilted her head slightly, studying him in return now.
"That's why Oralis Prime matters to me," she added. "After surviving something like that, you don't chase chaos. You learn to choose stillness."
Her eyes softened just a little. "And you asked respectfully," she said. "That matters too."
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