Private Only Remember To Turn On The Light

[Reina Daival]

Tag: Acier Moonbound
Location: Random Forest Planet

At the very least she was being heard. Someone wasn't telling her that she was wrong. Of course it didn't help her. Nothing could help Reina out in this moment. It was just a dark hole that she was spiralling into. It was the same story for her, over and over again. And the one time she tried to end her own story, it didn't work.

The droid was trilling. Acting as if it was trying to be something that Reina felt a connection to. Some degree of empathy. It was nonsense. It was a Droid. Not a person. It couldn't understand what Reina was going through. A droid knew what it was made for. What it was meant to do. They were programmed in that way. Reina was not. She didn't know who she was meant to be. What she was meant to do. Which is why Acier's attempt to try and placate Reina by telling her that she didn't need to know what she had to do right now, didn't help whatsoever.

"Then when? You're younger than me Acier. And I still don't know where I belong. What I should do. I've leaped so many times, and each time has been a failure. I took a leap to join the Jedi. It was a failure. I took a leap to have a Master, which was an utter failure. Now I'm just waiting for this next leap to lead to me dying in some alleyway."

She had kept jumping. Again. And again. And it never worked. It never helped her. Reina just ran her hand down her face, trying to take in a deep breath. To try and keep herself cam, even as she ranted and raved away. Frustrations and anger building up inside of her. It was just something she'd dwell in. There would be no solution for it at the end of the day.

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[Acier Moonbound]

Location: Some Forest Planet

Equipment:
Field Gear | Lightsaber | Tic | Cybernetic Arm

Ace didn't say anything again. He wasn't sure if he even should. What even was the best option here? Try to say something else just for Reina to find another way to counter him? Or, say nothing and let her hopelessness fill the void.

This was more complicated than any kind of fight, harder than fixing a hyperdrive. He couldn't just fight his way out of it or fix it with a hydrospanner.

Ace shifted a little, staring ahead and watching the orange embers. He was silent, but his eyes were loud - loud in deep thought. His thoughts drifted to Naboo, to Lorn Reingard and what he'd said to him during Ace's own dark time.

"--Stop thinking about what's wrong. Just listen. Let the Force carry the weight."

The words were said to ease his anxieties about fighting again. But... they applied to life too. Ace's head turned slightly, eyes flicked to Reina for a brief moment. Lorn's advice was sound, and it helped Ace overcome his own blocks. But would it work on her? Was she even in a position to hear this.

Past evidence showed that she probably wasn't.

He sighed, casting her a sidelong glance. "I don't have an answer, Reina. No one does, 'cept you." He said with a shrug. "All I can say, all I will say is... you're going to fail. A lot. We all do, y'know?" Ace continued, tone even.

Ace thought back to his own set backs, his failures. His mother. The Death Star. Sibylla. His own self-destructive tendencies. All of it. His own will and stubborn determination helped him get through it all... but it wasn't just that. He had people to lean on, even strangers who happened to take a chance on him. Maybe Reina needed that too.

He then shifted his body to face her again, his tone was soft now but still carried its usual roughness.

"But you don't have to do it on your own." Ace shrugged again, looking forward once more. "I can give you my personal comm frequency. If you want. Reach out whenever. I'll be there."

Maybe if he could be someone steady in her life. Someone that won't abandon her - shy away from her darkness. It could help Reina break her cycle.

Reina Daival ​

 

[Reina Daival]

Tag: Acier Moonbound
Location: Random Forest Planet

It was amusing in a way, how the pair would rather fight through a problem than discuss it. It was easier to beat something up than it was to come to terms with things. Violence was perhaps not always the right answer, but it was quite often a solution. Life. Discussions. It was all so much more complicated than a fight. In a fight, it was you or them. In a discussion, it was you, them, their teacher, your teacher. It wasn't always right or wrong. Life or death. But that made things so much more difficult.

"All I ever do is fail."

Reina was well familiar with failure. In a way, it should have been her middle name. She failed to be a normal person with her family. She failed to be a Jedi. She failed. And failed. And failed. And it caused her to spiral into this self-loathing woman. Who felt as if she couldn't do a single thing right, because of the people who had been around her. The people who had wanted to change her. None of them had been happy with who she was, so how could she be happy with that?

Yet she was caught off guard when Acier had offered to stay in touch. To reach out whenever Reina needed it. It didn't matter. Not really. It would be the same situation as with Everest. Reina would push it off. Thinking Acier was busy. That he had something better to do than deal with Reina. He most definitely had his own issues with his heritage. Why would he want to help her? With that all being said however...Reina let out a long sigh, waving her hand dismissively. The first way to change was to take a single step or something.

"Sure. If you insist."

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[Acier Moonbound]

Location: Some Forest Planet

Equipment:
Field Gear | Lightsaber | Tic | Cybernetic Arm

Ace felt a smirk creep on his lips, although he didn't say anything. 'If you insist' she said. Reina was playing hardball, and he couldn't blame her, she expected him to up and vanish like a lot of people in her life did. If he was truly going to be offer himself to be there for her, Ace would need to earn her trust. Earn it through consistency and stability.

He reached for the inside pocket of his pocket, pulled out a small, beaten-up comm tab, definitely something he'd repaired a dozen times over and held it out to her in his palm.

"Here." He said simply.

Ace tapped the side of it once with his thumb, bringing up a faint blue ID signature hovering above the device. A single frequency line flickered in the air.

"My direct line. Not the Path channel." He clarified.

Whether she took his ID or not, Ace would shut down the device and shove it back into his pocket after a few moments. Then he leaned back on his palms once more, glancing back up toward the stars again.

"If you don't mind." He added, not looking at her, gaze focused above "I'll stay here with you for a bit. We don't have to talk."

When he'd spoken to Aether with Sibylla on Roon, he remembered telling himself he didn't want to be a storm like Aether. He wanted to be what came after. Instead of being a fighter, or a destroyer, maybe he could be... well, not something as grandiose as hope. But, something smaller, steady, reliable.

Was this it?

Reina Daival ​