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Private One With the Course


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The Shirayan Temple was quiet this morning—just the kind of peaceful hush Ala Quin liked to start the day with. Mist coiled over the training grounds, catching in the rising sunlight as if the Force itself was stretching awake. But this morning wasn’t about quiet contemplation. It was about movement, reaction, and discovering where her two Padawans stood.

With a gentle hum, Ala's boots touched down on the soft stone platform overlooking the course. Elevated planks, narrow beams, floating columns, and reactive Force targets—all standard elements, but arranged with a little extra flair. Nothing overtly dangerous, of course. Just enough unpredictability to reveal instinct, focus, and creativity.

"Good morning, Balun. Michael," Ala greeted, her voice warm but steady. "Today, we’re going to keep things simple. Well... seemingly simple. This is an introductory course meant to test balance, intuition, and your relationship with the Force. No lightsabers, no competition—just you, the path, and your instincts."

She walked to the edge, letting her hand glide across the air, signaling the beginning.

"The goal isn't speed. It’s awareness. I want to see how you adapt. How you sense. How you move. If you fall, climb again. If you hesitate, breathe. Let the Force guide your steps, not your nerves."

A playful smile ghosted across her face as she stepped aside.

"And don’t worry... I only tripped twice the first time I ran it."

She winked.


 
Yes, I AM my father's son, proud of it too.

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Journal Entry:
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It is not customary for an Academy cadet to be pulled out of training so simply, however when you are a Jedi, and beckoned by a Master it will happen. On top of that, when your family name is on the Academy that is being built (I do not know whether to thank, or curse Queen Kalantha Kalantha for that), you are afforded privileges. Not that I should have them or not, that is simply the way it is.

The morning was rather pleasant, and I do enjoy the view from this part of the Temple. It's rather cool actually, if I could be afforded to use the vernacular I grew up with. Balun Dashiell Balun Dashiell was here as well. I remember him from the survival course we were a part of. He's a good guy and I offered a smile and and accompanying a fist bump. It’s funny really, a few months ago, that would have me… “relieving” myself in the most embarrassing possible way. That couple of days was actually enjoyable. It’s funny what a little self confidence can do for you. It’s all I wanted, and it’s a shame that I did not get it from the Order… at least not to this point… but the Academy.

Doesn’t matter now. I have it, and I will prove I belong here.

Aunt Al… Master Quin arrived, she is a breath of fresh air, happy and hopeful even in dire times. I feel hopeful myself, hopeful that I can enjoy something and not feel forced into it. Standing immediately at ease, I showed her the respect she deserved.

No pun intended.

The course we were overlooking looked to be challenging. I am actually looking forward to it. Courses are a part of our daily warm-up, this will be fun. However there was the question of the Force. Permission to speak, Master Quin.

I gave her a moment to (no doubt) confirm that I could.

I look forward to this, make no mistake. However, I must ask what you are referring to in regards to my “relationship with the Force”. I do gladly approach this, but at the same time, the only training that I have received of any kind, other than learning Force assisted speed, and jumping from Un… Master Vanagor… was how to form a Force Barrier from Master Lorn Reingard Lorn Reingard . I realize that he is a Jedi Knight, however he is a Council Member, “The Sword of Shiraya” and my senior. He deserves the distinction. My instincts are my greatest tool, however if I am supposed to use certain skills in certain places, I request either intel on those locations, or be satisfied in informing you of my situation, Ma’am.

Not the crazy kid she met that day in the starport, but I am still there.

 
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ONE WITH THE COURSE
INVENTORY: Lightsaber & Spacer Apparel (Minus the Jacket & Vest).
TAGS: Ala Quin Ala Quin & Michael Angellus Michael Angellus .

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The longer Balun spent within the stone-clad halls of the Shirayan Order's Temple, the more he came to realize just how far removed he had become from this kind of life. The quiet corridors, the rituals, the meditative discipline it all felt like echoes from a past that no longer fit quite right. Those thick permacrete walls, however sturdy and enduring, had a way of insulating their inhabitants from the raw, unfiltered reality of the galaxy beyond. For someone like Balun, who had lived through chaos and clawed his way through survival, the illusion was hard to ignore.

Among the other students, he often felt like a rogue element, an outlier who had learned his craft not through structured lessons or whispered teachings under ancient statues, but through trial, grit, and necessity. Where others had patiently sought out Masters for guidance, spending weeks or even months in study, Balun had carved his skills into his bones through field missions, skirmishes, and life-or-death decisions made in the heat of battle.

He had once longed for a teacher, for someone to guide him with certainty, but that had never truly materialised. Not until now. At nearly twenty-four, it had been seven years since he walked away from the Temple on Coruscant that had once been his sanctuary. Seven long years filled with hard-won lessons, family reunions, and trials that had moulded him into something more than just a student of the Force.

For the longest time, he had feared his growth had plateaued. Yet standing among the other Apprentices, he was beginning to see cracks in that belief. Some of the abilities he had come to rely on instinctively, practically, and honed in real-world settings were considered advanced here. It was a strange kind of validation, but one he welcomed nonetheless.

Today brought a new twist. Ala Quin had revealed she had another Apprentice, and Balun was slated to meet and train with them. Naturally, his mind began to cycle through the faces he'd encountered since his arrival, wondering who it could be—and more importantly, if he had already, somehow, managed to offend them. A very real possibility, given recent history.

At least he knew it wasn't Cerys Dyn Cerys Dyn . She had already made it clear in their tense first encounter who her Master was, and if he was lucky, he wouldn't be stepping on those toes again, at least not in front of Ala.

By the time he arrived at the training grounds, both Ala Quin Ala Quin and another familiar figure, Michael Angellus Michael Angellus , were already waiting. Balun recognised the man instantly: tall, broad-shouldered, and built like a walking tank. He'd been the one hacking through dense brush during their survival trek with Seth Denko, clearing the way with silent determination. Balun recalled him apologising back then for being socially awkward, a trait that, amusingly enough, seemed to be something of a shared trait among the Order's students.

"What's up, Muscles?" Balun greeted with a crooked grin, stepping up beside the larger man and giving his left shoulder a hearty slap that landed with a sharp clap of palm against muscle. The gesture was friendly, familiar in the way soldiers and field agents often were with one another. Falling in beside Michael, Balun rested his hands on his belt, thumbs hooked beneath the loops, arms relaxed but ready. His gaze drifted to Ala, curiosity sharpening his features as he waited to hear what she had in store for them.



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'Thought'.​
 

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She stepped onto the training platform with a lightness that belied the weight she carried most days. Today, though—today was for them.

"Good to see you both," Ala greeted, nodding warmly between them.

Michael, tall and proud and filled with earnest energy, looked more composed than she had seen him in some time. His gaze met hers with a steadiness that surprised her. Gone was the rattled boy in the starport, unsure of his place. In his place stood a young man reaching for clarity, not perfection.

Balun, on the other hand, wore confidence like a weathered coat—worn at the edges but undeniably his. He still carried the scent of the field, the quiet resilience of someone who had learned to rely on instinct long before trust.

They were so different, and yet, perhaps not as far apart as they thought.

When Michael raised his question, she listened with care, her arms crossing gently before she answered.

"That's a fair point, Michael, and I’m glad you asked. When I say ‘relationship with the Force,’ I don’t mean a checklist of techniques or how many powers you’ve mastered. It’s more personal than that. Think of it like your relationship with food—what you crave, how you use it, whether you listen to your body. Or your relationship with fear—do you avoid it, deny it, or do you face it with awareness? The Force is much the same. How do you engage with it? Do you trust it? Do you reach for it only when you’re desperate, or do you let it shape your smallest choices? That’s what I’m hoping to observe."

She offered a soft smile, stepping toward the beginning of the course. Her curls bounced with each stride, the morning sun catching gold in their dark coils.

"As for the course—" she gestured broadly to the arrangement of platforms, beams, floating stones, and reactive targets, "—it’s divided into four parts. First is the balance run. Narrow beams over a shallow basin, some stable, some not. Second, a leap sequence. Stone pillars at irregular intervals—height, distance, and stability vary. Third, reactive droids. They’ll toss projectiles, nothing harmful, but they respond to motion. The goal is to move through without triggering too many. And last…"

She stepped back, pointing to a sloped path lined with softly glowing orbs floating at head-height.

"The still path. Here, you walk. Slowly. No leaping, no dodging. Just you and the Force. The orbs will react to imbalance, to disruption. If too many flare red, you’ll repeat the section. If they stay blue… you’re calm enough to pass."

Her eyes returned to the two young men, her smile deepening—not just pride, but hope.

"You’ll take the course one at a time. And remember: this isn’t about being better than the other. It’s about learning something about yourself."

And...I will be alongside you every step of the way."



 
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If it is alright, I guess I will go first?


I gave them both a moment this time to (no doubt) confirm that I could.

This actually looked and sounded to be a great test, and I do not use that term lightly when I record this. Stepping forward, the first part being the balance run, this was much like the obstacle course at the Academy. Just one foot in front of the other and look forward, straightforward and simple in execution. One beam, the next, which was not very stable but that was expected, the next, and the final.

That was fun… I fully realize that the observation was more to myself than anything as while Aun… Master Quin was nearby, I made the comment under my breath. The next section was interesting. A regular jump here, a Force assisted jump there, it was a matter of figuring out where and when this was needed. The third and fourth leaps were close calls, relatively speaking, but they did not slow me in my progression to the end of the section.

Alright, here we go. The third section was not just a lesson in motion, it was a lesson in comprehension and paying attention. I had completely forgotten that the droids reacted as the first two droids almost hit me with their projectiles. A smirk, a shake of my head and slowing to a momentary stop, I took a breath and calmed down. This was a tactical test, and while I was still working on my skills, I could do this. So, like the balance beams, one step in front of the other, controlled and calm. I didn’t make it the entire section without getting more projectiles, two more went flying, but I think I did well.

Three down, one to go. The fourth section was a completely different animal. Comprehension and paying attention were key. I paid attention to the need to not change the color of the orbs, but I was not comprehending why I had done so the first, second, and the third time. This is where I used to get frustrated and push myself on sheer will, however my time in the Academy has taught me risk and threat analysis. I had been coming in too hot, so naturally the reactions were there. However, like my cousin, Connel Vanagor would say “You survived, if you don’t make it mean something, then what's the point of it?”

One second to catch my breath okay? She did say that it was about our relationship with the Force and ourselves. So I took a few deep breaths, cleared my mind, and started to walk again. If I fail again, I fail again, but I can start over… I made it two thirds the way through and noticed this when one of the orbs began to turn. I did not wait, I turned around and went back to the beginning of the section to start again. There was no frustration, or concern, I simply did so. Some more deep breaths, and again I was walking, slowly and relaxed. This time, I was thinking of my bunkmates, of our camaraderie and one of the recent games of cards we were playing. A great memory kept me calm and relaxed… and before I knew it… I was through.

No issues…

No broken ankle…

Just a genuine smile that Aun… Master Quin would remember. Thank you for letting me do this, this was fun.




 

ONE WITH THE COURSE
INVENTORY: Lightsaber & Spacer Apparel (Minus the Jacket & Vest).
TAGS: Ala Quin Ala Quin & Michael Angellus Michael Angellus

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Balun's gaze lingered on Michael Angellus Michael Angellus as the other Apprentice stepped forward to tackle the training course. Something about the setup tugged at memories long buried beneath years of hardship and change—memories of the New Jedi Order Temple on Coruscant, where he and Nouqai Veil had once trained side by side. First as bright-eyed Initiates, then as Padawans carving their path beneath the watchful gaze of their Masters. Fifteen years of structured living—every day meticulously measured between combat drills, meditation, and long lectures on the Jedi Code, the Three Pillars, and the guiding principles of the Jedi Path.

Even though the Order of Shiraya brought its flavour of philosophy and updated practices, the skeleton of the training remained familiar. The language may have changed, the instructors different, but Balun could still feel the rhythm of his past life beating beneath the surface of this place.

He said nothing, arms folded loosely across his chest as he watched Michael move. The larger man tackled the course with quiet confidence, determined but not brash. Every movement seemed considered, balanced between strength and restraint. There was no showboating, no puffed chest or exaggerated gestures for the sake of an audience. Just focus and forward momentum.

Balun found himself nodding in approval. This wasn't the type of student he'd grown used to clashing with in his youth—no posturing ego or loud-mouthed tryhard angling to be top of the class. No, Michael had a kind of grounded presence to him, the kind Balun respected. He wasn't looking to impress—he was simply doing the work.

And that spoke volumes.

By the time Michael reached the end of the course, Balun was already clapping. Not a sarcastic golf clap, not a reluctant pat of the hands—but a full, open show of genuine respect. They were peers now, students under the same Mentor, and that meant something. Teamwork wasn't optional in the field. Trust was earned, and camaraderie had to start somewhere.

"Well done, Muscles," Balun called out with a grin, voice light but sincere. "That was solid work."

He stepped forward as Michael cleared the course, rolling his shoulders once and casting a quick glance toward the balancing beams ahead. Familiar ground. He took a breath, centred himself, and then launched into motion.

His steps were swift, confident—each footfall placed with precision as he moved across the first beam. He didn't pause to analyse the course or hesitate when he reached the second, which wobbled beneath him with just enough give to throw off anyone overthinking it. But Balun wasn't thinking—he was moving. Not recklessly, but instinctively.

He let the Force wash over him—not summoned in a flare of power, but felt in the subtle way the world aligned with his breath and motion. It was there in the sway of the beam beneath his boots, in the quiet clarity that settled over his mind like a soft mist. He didn't need to control it. He just needed to trust it. And so he moved, not with the deliberate calculation of a student on a test, but with the grace of someone who had walked far more dangerous lines before.

The next challenge loomed ahead—an array of stone pillars, each spaced just far enough apart to demand precision and agility. Unlike the balancing beams, this wasn't about grounding or careful footing. This was about momentum, instinct, and elevation. And here, the Force would no longer be a subtle presence in the background—it would become how he soared.

Balun exhaled, eyes narrowing slightly as he studied the course. This was familiar territory. In the teachings of the Jedi, the technique had many names—Force Jump, Force Leap—but to Balun, it was simply a product of deeper mastery within the Alter branch of the Force. He had spent years sharpening this skill not through classroom drills, but on battlefields where hesitation meant death. Where brute strength failed him, the Force became his equaliser—his edge against Sith adversaries who towered over him in strength and cruelty alike.

He gathered his focus, drawing on the energy flowing through his body. With a sudden burst of kinetic grace, Balun launched himself skyward, the Force coiling like a spring within his legs and erupting outward in a controlled release. He cleared the first pillar entirely, boots landing square on the second with the practised confidence of someone who had made far more dangerous jumps before.

There was no pause, no hesitation. One foot found its mark, then the next, as he darted across the series of stone columns with measured precision. His movement was fluid, almost rhythmic—an interplay of power and control, honed instinct and quiet discipline. When he landed at the far end, both feet touched down with barely a sound. The rush of the leap faded, and Balun let his aura gently settle around him again, his connection to the Force easing into something more passive. He exhaled slowly, grounding himself with a few quiet breaths as he approached the third stage of the course.

Yet before continuing, a thought crossed his mind—one that made his brow furrow slightly in curiosity.

His eyes flicked toward Ala Quin Ala Quin , a grin already tugging at the corner of his mouth as he raised his voice to call out across the course.

"Apologies, Ala, but—quick question. Would it count as cheating if I used Altus Sopor to slip past the droids?"

There was humour in his tone, but the question was genuine. He'd used the technique before—an advanced skill that allowed a Force-sensitive to dim their presence so thoroughly they became virtually invisible to those attuned to the Force. It had served him well in stealth operations against Sith Lords during the war, allowing him to navigate perilous encounters without triggering an alarm. But droids? That was uncharted territory.

He chuckled softly, already suspecting what her answer would be. Still, the idea lingered in his mind—testing the limits of a technique, pushing the edge of its usefulness. That, more than clearing the course, was where Balun found challenge and growth.



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Ala followed behind them both—not looming, but shadowing just enough to observe. Her hands stayed clasped behind her back, steps light, eyes watchful. The course wasn’t about judgment, but insight. And already, she had plenty.

Michael went first, and she could feel the tension he carried at the start. Not nerves exactly—determination, maybe. She saw it in his posture, the deliberateness of his footing, the way he pushed just a little too hard in the beginning. But he didn’t lose himself. When the missteps came, he adapted. Breathed. Reset. That mattered more than anything.

“You moved with thoughtfulness, Michael,” she said gently as he finished, “and more importantly, you let yourself recalibrate instead of bulldozing through. That’s hard. That’s Jedi.”

She smiled as she added, “Also, well done remembering the orbs were a test of presence, not just posture. That wasn’t about getting it right the first time. It was about noticing what went wrong and making it mean something.”

Then came Balun. Watching him was like watching the course breathe—fluid, calm, efficient. He didn’t overthink, didn’t overextend. He let the Force be part of his stride, not something he wielded but something he flowed with.

“That was beautiful, Balun,” she said as he landed from the last pillar. “Your control, your timing—it all sang of practice and trust. I also appreciate the creativity,” she added with a crooked grin, glancing sideways. “Altus Sopor to sneak past the droids? You get points for style, not for cheating. But I’ll allow the curiosity.”

She gave a playful shrug, then looked between them both, curls bouncing with the turn of her head.

“Now for the real part of the test.”

Her tone shifted—still warm, but now focused, centered.

“How did the Force feel to you?” she asked, voice soft but clear. “Was it like flipping a switch when you needed it? Like a tool—'Press Force button, do Force thing'?”

She paced a few steps forward, motioning with her fingers like waves across the air.

“Or was it a tide? A current you could lean into? Something that carried you when you let go of needing control?”

Her eyes flicked up, curious and open.

“Some feel it like heat in their chest, rising when they’re near balance. Others hear it like music—melodies beneath thought. For me…” She smiled. “…it’s like the wind. I don’t make it blow, I just open the sail. And when I do, it moves me exactly where I need to go.”

She smiled softly, reassuringly.

“There’s no wrong answer, not here. But if we want to grow, we need to know how we touch the Force… and how it reaches back to us.”

She turned then, slow and unhurried, giving them the space to consider.


 
Yes, I AM my father's son, proud of it too.

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Getting to see Balun complete the course was… “educational”... he was clearly skilled in the abilities preferred in this, and it was interesting to see that one day, I might be at that level as well. Sure, I completed the course, which was exceptional, and without a broken ankle, which was preferred, but there’s always room for improvement, right? Well done, Balun. That was fun to watch.

Her critique of my skills was poignant and most of all, insightfully beneficial. This is what I need, not lectures of previous days, I am not afraid of my mistakes being pointed out if there are ways of better approaching them I could be educated on. I appreciated it.

Even to the point where I could make a funny face at her observation of Bale’s completion, as if about to jokingly say something along the lines of “Hey! I thought that this wasn’t a competition?” I thought better of it, but the face should have sufficed. He is clearly far more skilled and deserving of praise for his work than I am, not discounting my effort, just being clear.

Her question about how the Force felt was… difficult to say the least. Not to answer, but in that it sent a flood of memories into my mind. The lectures from Lorn Reingard Lorn Reingard , and outright lying to me that I did well on something when I did not. To Kahne Porte Kahne Porte outright insulting me to my face needlessly in one breath then apologizing the next. I do not hold ill will toward either of them anymore, but those were tumultuous times and events, both physically and emotionally.

Forgive the frank answer, ma’am, but I do not know “Jack” about the Force, so that is not a question that I truly know how to answer. I only know how to run, jump, and on a good day maybe pull something to my hand or stop a wooden knife. So if that is what I am to refer to… Then I did something I did not expect. Uncle Caltin always cracks his neck when he is about to explain something brutally honest. I did so as well as if on instinct. Perhaps I am in some respects, a “Vanagor”.

Then I did not feel anything. I used what I knew, and went on instinct the rest of the way. I am sorry if this is not enough to be a part of your group, and if it is not, I will accept that and return to the Academy, but I will no longer feel inadequate, even when others, even if unintentionally, make me feel that way. It was there that I realize that I need to clarify, so with a hand up, I added.

Not that either of you do, not at all. Pursing my lips and going “at ease”. I looked ahead as I did not want to exhibit the emotions that I was beginning to feel. Forgive me for my outburst. I do not wish to cause any stress like I apparently had before.

Nothing whiny or immature this time. Just honesty.




 

ONE WITH THE COURSE
INVENTORY: Lightsaber & Spacer Apparel (Minus the Jacket & Vest).
TAGS: Ala Quin Ala Quin & Michael Angellus Michael Angellus

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The question hung in the air between them—simple in phrasing, yet layered in meaning. What does the Force feel like to you? Balun wasn't sure he had ever truly articulated it before, not aloud. Not in a setting like this.

He glanced toward Michael Angellus Michael Angellus briefly, then back toward Ala Quin Ala Quin , his brow furrowed in quiet thought. It was a fair question, but a deeply personal one. To Balun, the Force wasn't easily explained. It wasn't a sensation he could reduce to something tangible—he couldn't point to it like a sound or a smell or the feel of wind across his skin. It was deeper than that. It was everywhere and nowhere. A current that flowed through him, not just around him.

And truthfully, he wasn't the type to share such things freely, especially in front of others. Vulnerability didn't come easily to him, particularly when the company was still new, still earning their place in the guarded corners of his trust. He took a breath and offered a subtle nod, more to himself than to the others, as he searched for the right words—something honest, but not too exposing.

"It's not something I can just switch on or off," he began quietly, eyes slightly distant as he spoke. "It's always there. Even when I'm not reaching for it, I feel it. Like a presence at the edge of my awareness". 'A reminder that I'm not alone... even when I am.'

He hesitated, choosing his next words with care.

"In the beginning, I had to really try—to consciously reach for its strength, like grabbing a ledge to pull myself up. But over time... it's changed. It's more instinct now. I don't think about using it—I just move with it. I listen to it... and it listens back."

He gave a small, almost sheepish shrug, one shoulder rising as if to downplay the weight of what he'd said. He wasn't sure if it was the kind of answer Ala was looking for or if Michael would make sense of it. But it was the truth as he knew it.

And sometimes, that was enough.



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Ala listened to them both, head tilted, curls shifting gently with the breeze. She said nothing at first—not out of hesitation, but out of respect. These were not rehearsed answers. They were truths, personal and raw, and she would meet them with the same sincerity.

She turned to Balun first, offering a nod that carried quiet approval.

“There’s a reason we don’t often put words to the Force. It’s like describing a song to someone who can’t hear the notes—it’s felt, not just known. But what you shared?” She paused, a gentle smile forming. “It tells me you’re already listening to it with more than just your ears. That presence you feel... that’s the kind of awareness that doesn’t just make a warrior—it makes a guide.”

Her eyes drifted to Michael, warm but unwavering.

“And you,” she said gently, “you’re further along than you realize.”

She took a step closer to him, her voice never losing its softness.

“I hear the pain in what you said, Michael. And I respect your honesty more than you know. But I want you to listen to me now, clearly: we are not going to dwell on the past. Not the stumbles. Not the names. Not the moments others misunderstood your strength.”

Ala's tone lifted slightly—not firm, but resolute.

“The Force is working in you, even if you don’t know its shape yet. You don’t need to feel it in grand gestures to be touched by it. Sometimes, the Force comes in the decision to start again. Or the calm in your chest that wasn’t there a moment before. You’ve already begun.”

She reached up, two fingers tapping lightly against her temple.

“The rest... we’ll uncover in the quiet. That’s where the Force speaks clearest. So—tomorrow morning. Before sunrise. Meet me in the south garden for meditation. We’ll begin there.”

Then, her gaze swept between both apprentices again.

“The course is a place to measure your movement. But the garden... is where we’ll begin to measure your stillness. And in that stillness, you may find the Force isn’t a tool to be used...”

She exhaled, breath mingling with the wind.

“...but a companion that’s been walking beside you this whole time.”


 
Yes, I AM my father's son, proud of it too.

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While I do not feel that I was being too hard on myself, or truly dwelling on anything (though in truth, I probably was), I took everything she said in to process. I was not only listening to what she was saying to me, but to Balun as well. It was important to take that in as well, not only because of the possible inferences in the future, but because it was poignant for me to do so.

We are not just learning from her, but from each other.

Apologies Ma’am… Academy protocol calls for transparency when addressed to assess performance, you might say it is “force of habit” no pun intended.

I will say that while I do not necessarily believe the extent of everything she had brought up, in regards to the past. I will not deny it either. I have the Academy and training to thank for that. On multiple levels, however this entry is not about my Academy training, this is about meeting Aun… Master Quin and potentially, finally training in the Force and forging my own identity, and not just “another Angellus” or “another Vanagor”.

There are those who might read that and see a tinge of arrogance in me, and while it may show unintentionally, I can assure that I am not looking to be a 6’10 Guardian monster of a Warden, or a 6’5 violent as the day is long Shadow, or even have a reputation. I am the same wide-eyed kid I was, but I am no longer afraid of my shadow, and that is important. I actually welcome criticism now, and that is something. I want to be content in my own shoes, and for the first time since coming to Naboo, I do.

Thank you Al… Master Quin. I really need to get a better handle on that, heh.

Her observation of how I was already feeling was an interesting one. Un.. Master Vanagor likes to joke how “The Force has a sense of humor”, and how “The Force works in mysterious ways”. Perhaps this is another manner in which that was proven true, and frankly, it intrigues and excites me to dive deeper into this.

She was dismissing us, so I know that I did not truly need to, but:

Permission to speak freely…. I did not need to wait, to be sure, but I did give her the moment to nod. “...but a companion that’s been walking beside you this whole time.” … that… is… so cool.

This is the type of training I was hoping for, I’m excited again and not afraid to admit it.

 



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From her perch beneath a canopy, Isla sat cross-legged on a smooth, sun-warmed stone, half-shrouded in the morning mist. She could just make out the flicker of movement on the training grounds below, shapes darting between planks and platforms, the soft thud of boots on stone echoing faintly. The Shirayan Temple might have been her new home, but it still didn't feel like hers - not really. Not yet.

It wasn't that the others were unkind. They were polite. Respectful. But she felt like a pebble dropped into someone else's pond - noticed, maybe, but not rippling quite the way she was supposed to. Everyone had their groups, their training partners, their rhythms. She just had quiet. And visions, of course. Lots of those. Uninvited, half-explained, and exhausting.

Lorn checked in sometimes, when he wasn't wrapped up in some nonsense or other business. He was kind in his way, but always felt a little far off, like someone waving from a tower. Ala, though... Ala was different.

Their evenings together had become her lifeline. Wandering through the gardens, voices hushed but warm, the air thick with the scent of night-blooming flowers and old stories. They didn't talk about powers or training. Not always. Sometimes they just talked. About stars. About what made food taste better in someone else's kitchen. About the loneliness you feel even when surrounded by people who say you belong.

Ala saw her. And maybe that was all Isla really needed - someone who didn't just nod and say "you're special," but someone who let her be ordinary for a while. Who made space. Who didn't flinch when Isla said the truth too loudly.

That's what drew her out this morning. Not curiosity. Not the weird dream that half-woke her before dawn. Just that familiar tug - like sunlight through fog - pulling her toward Ala. She followed it barefoot, through the garden paths and across dew-drenched grass, until she reached the edge of the training field.

She didn't get closer, not at first. Just crouched near a stone outcropping, out of sight, hugging her knees and watching.

Ala was there, of course. Always graceful, always grounded, the way other Jedi pretended to be but never quite were. Two boys were with her - older Padawans, Isla guessed - climbing, balancing, vaulting over the strange obstacle course set before them. Isla mimicked their steps in small movements: leaning to the side as if balancing on the beams, making a little hop when one leapt.

And when Ala spoke, Isla leaned forward, letting her senses stretch, hoping the Force would carry the words to her more clearly. She knew she wasn't supposed to eavesdrop. She also knew pretending not to was worse.

But Ala's words… they didn't sound like orders. They never did. They sounded like poetry disguised as lessons. Isla closed her eyes briefly and imagined herself on that course - arms outstretched, breath steady, the Force not pushing or pulling but walking beside her.

She smiled softly.

Maybe, if she was very quiet, Ala wouldn't even notice her there.

…Or maybe she would. Isla kind of hoped she would.



 

ONE WITH THE COURSE
INVENTORY: Lightsaber & Spacer Apparel (Minus the Jacket & Vest).
TAGS: Ala Quin Ala Quin , Michael Angellus Michael Angellus & Isla Reingard Isla Reingard

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Balun listened as Ala Quin Ala Quin continued to articulate her connection to the Force, each word layered with a wisdom that resonated quietly within him. He didn't interrupt. He didn't need to. Everything she spoke echoed his own understanding—his own journey. There was no disagreement, no lingering questions, just a quiet thread of agreement weaving through him as he listened in respectful silence.

It was Michael Angellus Michael Angellus who broke the moment with a comment—an observation about how powerful it was to consider the Force as a constant companion. That idea made Balun smile, not broadly, but with the subtle pull of someone who had lived those words rather than just heard them. He gave a single, approving nod.

He couldn't imagine what his life would've looked like without the Force—without that sense of presence in the dark. It had never been about power for him, not really. It was guidance. A steady flame in the void. There were days when all he had was faith—when he'd pressed on not because he had a plan, but because the Force whispered keep going. Without it, he would've been lost long ago.

But then something shifted.

It was small at first—like the faintest tug at the edge of his awareness, a presence brushing against the boundaries of his senses. Not a sound. Not even a clear feeling. Just a quiet knowing. His gaze broke from Ala as he turned his head slightly to the left, eyes narrowing with a subtle tension.

They weren't alone.

It wasn't paranoia. It wasn't even suspicion. It was instinct, honed through years of relying on that same unspoken warning. He scanned the chamber calmly, letting his eyes drift upward toward the observation deck that overlooked the training floor. It was a detail he'd mostly ignored until now—so used to training in solitude that he'd nearly forgotten what it felt like to be watched.

It had been four years since he'd last trained in the company of others. His daily rituals, his drills, even his meditations—all had been done alone, under the skies of Joiol, away from curious eyes and prying minds.

But now, high above them in the gallery, a figure caught his eye. A lone silhouette among the benches. Female. Young, perhaps—difficult to judge from this distance. Her expression wasn't immediately clear, but what struck him most was her unfamiliarity. She didn't belong to his memory.

His voice broke the stillness, steady but edged with curiosity.

"Were you expecting someone else to join us, Ala?" he asked, his tone casual but pointed. He didn't take his eyes off the girl, who would, in time, perhaps become known to him as Isla Reingard Isla Reingard .



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Ala smiled gently at Michael’s wide-eyed enthusiasm, the way he echoed her words back to her like they were a new favorite song. That was the kind of response she loved most—not rote, not reverent, but real. She caught the slip again, the Aun... Master Quin, and this time didn’t hide the smile that curled into her expression. She said nothing about it. Not yet.

Balun’s stillness told its own story. He didn’t add to the moment—he didn’t need to. The Force was strong in him in quiet ways. She could sense his awareness sharpen, like a pulse through water, and when he turned his head, Ala followed his gaze.

At the edge of the garden, she saw her. Not hiding, exactly. Just watching. Wrapped in morning mist, perched like a thought unspoken. Ala let the silence breathe for another moment before she spoke, soft but clearly. “No, Balun... but I hoped she would.”

She took a few slow steps toward the edge of the courtyard, her voice lifting only slightly—not calling out, just... reaching.

“Good morning, Isla. You’re welcome to stay, you know. We were just talking about what the Force feels like. Balun says it’s a quiet presence. Michael’s still figuring it out. I say it walks beside us.”

She paused, just short of turning her head, and added with a touch of mischief. “What do you say?”

She didn’t look back right away. Just let the question hang, an invitation. Not pressure. Not spotlight. Just space. The kind Isla always needed.

Behind her, she felt the balance between them all beginning to shift, not unsteady—but fuller. This was how the Force worked, after all. Quietly. Deliberately. Like dew gathering on a branch until it was time to fall.

She glanced back at Michael and Balun once more, golden eyes alight.

“Come,” she said simply. “Let’s walk together.”

 
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Journal Entry: .

Interesting that Dashiell pointed out the Reingard girl being there. I had a feeling that we were being watched. I would have blown this off as “coincidence” on my part in the past, but this had happened to me once before. Hopefully I did not give away that I had noticed her too, if I did, it might still be coincidental, however I could not help but wonder.

Her description of me told me all that I needed to know where I stood in her circle at the moment. I was dead last. This would have bothered me before, but it does not now. After all, she is entitled to her opinion, and it is not like instructors are beating down my proverbial door to show me the ways of the Force. I do have a reputation after all, right or wrong, it is there. I hold no ill will or grudge to her, I appreciate her willingness to show me this… whatever this lesson it is. I hope she will be willing to teach me another, after all, uncle Caltin keeps her clearly in high regard. She is a great instructor, I'm privileged to be here.

As she asked us to walk with her, I stayed in the back, following along, not out of any issue, or emotion, but to not get in the way of her actual students.
 



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Isla hesitated.

Her first instinct was to shrink back into the mist - into the silence that usually kept her safe from being seen too much. But Ala had seen her anyway. Of course she had. That was the thing about Ala. She always did.

So Isla stood, brushing dew from the back of her tunic. Her bare feet whispered over the grass as she made her way down the small slope, arms folded tightly across her chest like she was holding in a secret. She didn't look at the two boys right away, just kept her eyes on Ala, following the warmth in her voice like a tether in the wind.

When she reached the edge of the courtyard, she paused, casting a glance toward Balun - steady, unreadable - and then Michael, who stood slightly back. Isla didn't understand that, not yet, but she noted it all the same.

Ala's question hung in the space like morning light. What do you say?

"I…" Isla's voice cracked once before she caught it. She cleared her throat softly, eyes flicking down. "It doesn't feel quiet. Not to me."

She hesitated again, as if the words might get her in trouble. Or make them all think she was wrong. But the truth had always come too easily to Isla, and once it started, it rarely stopped.

"It feels like a storm," she said finally, shoulders drawing in. "Like… a thundercloud waiting. Too big for me to hold. And it's always moving. Always loud. Even when I'm trying to sleep. Especially when I'm trying to sleep."

She peeked up at Ala, just for a moment, then back down again. "So when you said it walks beside you, and when they said it's quiet, or patient, or warm…" Her voice trailed. "I think maybe mine is broken."

She wrapped her arms tighter around herself, trying to look casual and failing spectacularly. "I didn't want to say it wrong. But you asked. So."

The words were out now. Not dramatic. Just plain. Honest, like always. She glanced again at the two boys, her gaze quick and awkward, then back to Ala with something gentler in her eyes.

"…But I still want to be here."



 

ONE WITH THE COURSE
INVENTORY: Lightsaber & Spacer Apparel (Minus the Jacket & Vest).
TAGS: Ala Quin Ala Quin , Michael Angellus Michael Angellus & Isla Reingard Isla Reingard

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Balun fell into step beside Michael Angellus Michael Angellus , trailing just behind Ala Quin Ala Quin as she engaged with Isla Reingard Isla Reingard . The girl stood a short distance away, her posture not quite closed off, but uncertain—apprehensive in the way someone might be when standing at the edge of something unfamiliar, wondering whether to step forward or turn back. Her hesitation didn't feel like resistance, not to Balun. No, this was something else—something quieter. A kind of self-doubt, maybe. The way her gaze dipped slightly, the subtle pacing of her breath before she replied—it reminded him all too vividly of a younger version of himself.

Back on Coruscant, during his early days as an Initiate in the New Jedi Order, he'd often felt that same weight—the tension of being called on in a room full of students, praying the question would pass him by. He'd never liked the attention, never craved the spotlight. He had once dreaded the way silence could single you out just as much as speaking did.

And so, as he watched Isla now, something in him quietly understood.

He hadn't forgotten the moment on their survival trip when Michael had admitted to struggling with social situations—Balun had empathised then too, remembering the pressure to speak, to fit, to perform in front of others who all seemed more comfortable than you did. It wasn't an easy thing to unlearn.

When Isla's eyes flicked toward them, Balun met her gaze and offered a small, warm smile, encouraging but unintrusive. Just enough to say, You're not alone.

He considered responding to something she had said, a thought forming on the edge of his tongue about her description of the Force. But he held it back. Not out of disinterest, but out of deference. That space, that conversation, belonged to Ala right now. Balun wasn't a Knight, and certainly not a teacher. He didn't want to speak out of turn or risk complicating the moment with his own interpretation.

Still, the memory lingered—one of his tutors from years past, speaking gently about how the Force revealed itself differently to each individual. It spoke in ways unique to one's heart, their instincts, and their wounds. Some students felt it like a song, others like a wind, or a distant pull at the edge of consciousness. There had never been a single way to experience it. That idea had comforted him once, when he too had felt alien among his peers.

But whether that was a lesson Ala believed in, or a sentiment she would share with Isla now, wasn't for him to say.

So instead, he remained present. A silent ally. Letting his calm presence and quiet smile offer the reassurance he remembered once wishing someone had given him.



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Ala walked slowly along the garden path, her pace gentle, her voice drifting like the morning breeze that stirred the dew from the leaves. Her students followed behind her—each at their own rhythm, each carrying thoughts like lanterns.

"You know," she began, glancing over her shoulder, "some people think the lesson starts when I start speaking. But I’ve been watching...sensing...you all this whole time. The way you move, where you choose to stand, when you speak—or stay silent—that’s the real beginning."

Her gaze settled on Michael for a moment, kind but pointed.

"Michael," she said, "the Force isn’t impressed by order or protocol. It doesn’t line people up from most gifted to least. It listens to sincerity. And sincerity, I see a lot of in you. So stop worrying if you’re in the way."

She let her words drift naturally into the next step, tilting her head toward Isla as they passed beneath a flowering arch.

"Isla," she said softly, "storms can be beautiful. They feed forests, they stir the oceans, they shape entire landscapes. You don’t need to make the storm quieter. You just need to learn how to dance in the rain."

Ala didn’t stop walking, but her voice turned reflective, now directed toward Balun though she didn’t turn her head.

"And Balun... quiet strength doesn’t go unnoticed. You don’t have to speak to teach. But sometimes, even a small word from someone steady can stop a fall before it begins."

She came to a small clearing with a low stone bench and turned to face them all, her curls catching the light.

"The Force doesn't give the same lesson twice. It tailors itself to each of us—to what we need, to what we fear, to what we’re ready to hear." She smiled, warm and a little wistful.

"And for what it's worth… I'm still learning how to listen too."


 
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Journal Entry: .

“The more things change. The more they stay the same.” Now I am being critiqued for my stance and actions. It feels like I cannot win, no matter what I do sometimes. However, unlike the “Michael of old”, I will not apologize, or feel bad for it this time. I am of a military bloodline going back to the first hyperspace war. I accept that and embrace it, if that is the problem of others, it is theirs. I appreciate what she has to see, even the critique, but I am worried about nothing. I have no Master, Porte wants nothing to do with me. So I will continue to learn from who and where I can and take the lumps if and when they come.

I will not be angered, or show any emotion towards her pointed tone. In fact, I appreciate the fact that she had done this. I learned that I have to let my surface thoughts be something supercilious, like a song. No one will read my thoughts without a level of effort. Unfortunately I was unable to pay attention to her directives to her actual students. It’s probably for the best though as it is their business, and not mine. Thank you Master Quin.
 



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Isla walked a little behind now, trailing fingers along the edge of a flowering hedge as they moved. It helped her think, helped her feel without getting too swallowed by it. The petals were soft and somehow that small sensory anchor kept her from spiraling into the usual flood of worry that followed a moment like that. A moment where she'd said too much.

She'd told them it was a storm.

That still sat heavy in her chest, like a thunderclap waiting.

But Ala's reply... Ala didn't flinch. Didn't correct. She'd just called the storm beautiful, as if it was something to be admired, not fixed. That one sentence - "You don't need to make the storm quieter. You just need to learn how to dance in the rain." - had cracked something open in Isla's chest. Something small and scared and waiting.

She'd blinked hard and kept walking. No tears. Not here.

And then she glanced at the two boys again. Balun, who offered her that tiny, anchoring smile, just enough to say she wasn't weird for feeling what she felt. And Michael...

Michael was a tougher read. He felt like someone carrying a map with no landmarks. Quiet, but not the same kind of quiet as Balun. Guarded, maybe. Like he was building a wall out of politeness. Or pride. Or both. But Isla didn't judge that. She knew what it was like to want people to not see what you're really made of.

So when Ala spoke to them and tied it all together like strings pulled through cloth, Isla didn't say anything right away. She just listened, eyes wide, heart softening with each word. The Force tailored itself to you. Like it was alive. Like it knew her.

She didn't realize they'd reached a clearing until Ala stopped walking.

Isla stepped forward, slowly. Her voice, when it came, was softer now. Not uncertain—just new.

"Can I… say something?" she asked, glancing around as if waiting for permission from the group and not just Ala.

"I think maybe… the Force knows what it's doing." She looked at her toes, wiggling slightly in the grass. "I used to think it made a mistake. With me. Giving me too much of something I didn't know how to use."

She looked up again, brown eyes wide but clear now. "But maybe it gave it to me because I don't know what to do with it. Because I have to figure it out. Because if I did know… I'd never listen."

She shrugged, the motion small but honest. "Storms don't ask permission before they arrive. They just happen. And sometimes they destroy stuff. But sometimes they water things too."

Isla stepped closer to the bench, reaching out to touch the carved edge with two careful fingers. Then, half turning back to Ala and the others, she gave a shy but certain smile.

"I want to learn how to be the part that waters things."



 

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