Varin watched Haro’s reaction when he brought up Asaj. It pulled a small smirk over his face.
“Allegedly.”
As Haro inspected the ship he suggested they would certainly need the tow ship, to which Varin grunted in agreement. As Haro made his way inside behind Varin, he could tell the mechanic was excited about possibly finding some tech. He watched him after he felt his hand on his shoulder. His reassurance did bring some hope to Varin. But deep down he knew that the ship would never be the same. Perhaps it was for the best though, his mother always told him that some things have to die to birth new life. He supposed the same could be said about a ship.
Varin’s head shook after he spoke aloud to Ignati, noticing it caught Haro’s attention. Gently he placed his hand over his head slightly shaking his head from discomfort.
“Sorry, it's nothing.”
His hand glided over parts of the ship as memories flashed back into his mind. The heat, the pain. That’s when he heard her voice. He froze like stone instantly as he remembered what happened to her.
“Nier…I’m…I’m so sorry.”
He spoke softly as he heard the recording, his hand dropping to his side as a tear ran down his cheek.
"I'm... I'm sorry that happened to you, Varin,"
Varin’s eyes flicked over towards Haro. He was quiet for a moment.
"What exactly happened to your home?"
Varin looked at the charred floor of the ship. He remembered his home. The wind, the scent of the oceans…the garden.
“Carcosa…”
He spoke softly as he slowly sat on the floor, his back resting towards the console of the ship.
“
I come from a planet called Carcosa. My father, Lord Virelius Mortifer ruled over it. But our people loved him as a ruler. He held an iron grip over our people and their safety. We prospered. My mother, Lady Ravnika Mortifer, taught them how to grow crops, and how to do alchemy. Citizens all learned how to do alchemy.”
His voice ran quiet as his breath choked for a moment.
“Then there was….”
He took a deep shaking breath.
“There was my younger sister. Nier’Atta Mortifer.”
He looked over to Haro.
“You remind me of her, if I can be honest with you. Force dead, but she did not make that a weakness. In fact she was a genius when it came to Sith Spawn and alchemy.”
He laughed slightly as he began to reminisce.
“She and I were inseparable, just like you and Naamino. We did almost everything together. She would even help me train. Passing me weapons to clean and repair, helping me in my armor.”
He chuckled.
“She even gave me mystery brews to test out her concoctions.”
His body shifted slightly so he could get a clearer view of Haro.
“She turned me invisible once. The first hour was absolutely fun, but then after that it just….people tended to walk right by you like a ghost…”
His eyes stared off beyond Haro and the ship.
“My father had me do a month of fasting to prepare for some harsh training. Fast, meditate, pray and sleep. But I would always lose focus by day five. He would reset the clock. Two months of this training prep went by. I had almost completed my prep. I just needed two more days.”
His jaw trembled slightly before he locked it in place.
“Nier came bursting into the room excitedly. She had accomplished something near impossible.”
“Varin, come here! Come quick, I finally did it!”
He slightly imitated her voice, his voice cracking. He took a deep breath as he pushed forward to tell his story.
“Not now Nier. I’m trying to do something really important. Is what I told her, but she wouldn’t take that as an answer. She practically begged me to witness this great marvel, not letting up, I tried to decline, and said I would look after my training is done. She then pulled my arm, breaking my concentration.”
He looked at the ceiling as tears welled in his eyes, slowly dropping down his cheek.
"I snapped at her. The frustration was too much. I couldn't fail again. Get away from me! I yelled at her. She flinched and recoiled back, she was terrified of me, Haro. Why? Why should she be terrified of me?"
He sighed softly remembering to breathe.
“I looked at her in her eyes and said training would be so much easier….if you weren’t around…”
His fist clenched tightly.
“Her achievement was that she made a one to one recreation of a long extinct creature that was deeply important to our culture. A Lava Wyrm. Children of The Eater of Suns.”
He was quiet for a long moment.
“I didn’t think that, within the next week, she would be bleeding out in my arms. A jedi brought a rogue military during a celebration of my father granting me the title of squire, apprentice in your terms. It was a surprise attack. This Jedi, I will never forget that white blade he wielded, the venom that spewed from his lips as he chased children through our halls, slaughtering servants and my parents. Our beautiful mass garden was set ablaze. Carcosa had fallen. I brought Nier with me on the ship and during our escape we were hit. A piece of shrapnel had dug into her ribs and straight to her heart. I couldn’t even protect my sister. The first order I was given. And I failed my blood line.”
Varin’s voice broke. Silence fell upon him, the only evidence he had, to know, that he was still here was his harsh breathing.
“Keep the ones you love close, Haro. Protect them with everything you have.”