Water hissed out of an ancient brass fixture, nearly bleached a kind of titanium from impassioned calcium rinsing and steel wool brushing. The stall was only accommodating for a single body, echoing the temples utilitarian and somewhat celibate aesthetic. Water skipped and pooled in a corner of the tiled basin, tilting through the mortar gaps, into a dented plumbing drain emptying into distant collection cisterns, for filtration, recirculated into the temple system.
They dressed down in hushed stillness. Seydon could smell the cake of insectoid ichor clinging pungently to their trousers. Rosa insisted he leave his boots in the hall, and he’d obliged. Vest, undershirt, long reinforced pants and belt, hung in a careful row along a slide of wooden rungs jutting from the wall opposite. Warm light tinted the fading tile work, from old tungsten-filament bulbs installed to hanging wire fixtures overhead. He glanced at the single mirror framed in tarnished metal above the only bathroom sink; saw his wife looking over her shoulder as he undressed.
Counting out his scars, he knew. His backbone, shoulder blades, the slab of his muscled backside was discoloured and corded from knotted scar tissue and the repaired musculature beneath. Faded blows were withdrawn, silvertine, inset a little more deeply. Fresher markings were angrily pink, looking tender to touch. Every excursion, he came home to Rosa increasingly unrecognizable. Seydon shot a stare back into the mirror, at himself, pale cats-eyes coloured ailing yellow. The face was haggard. Thin, cutting lines across his eye, nose, lips, dozens of nicks along his jaw line. Near constant whisker shadow. His youth was lost behind albinism and wear and tear.
At times, loathing drew up his gorge, making him unable to stand his own reflection. His palm smacked the mirror, drawing back and staring across the small bathroom at Rosa. ...Suddenly aware of how unclad she was in turn. She bore flaws and brandings too. It enhanced her elegance, he always thought. Accenting lines of exciting femininity, taking all the wrongs and hurts she had bore and transmogrifying their presence into a beauty of their own.
Stop hiding from me. Her lilac eyes shattered him. I can’t help you, if you hide.
...You don’t know. Seydon crossed the bathroom, standing against her, hip to hip. It’s hard. I keep it together. You don’t know how sick I am of being ‘alright’. If I falter, I do not come home. And you do not get this chance to upbraid me. Everyone’s allowed to walk away. ‘Cept us. I want you. Badly. I want this. More of it. All my pieces are falling aside, I can’t keep them from tumbling through my fingers. Don’t you feel it? How stretched it feels, when you touch me through our bond? I have to hide. You need to see me strong. The alternative is just far too dangerous.
“I want you...” Came out. His voice was a rasp, hoarse, choked up. Something was blurring his vision. Their emphatic bond through the Force was widening from a low trickle to the roar of a coursing river rapid. He couldn’t keep years spent on the Path of Embers, their tolls, black thoughts, inklings of desperation and a vicious, adamant will to overcome, sleeping and waking alone, and sheer guilt. Before, when they came together, their emotional unity was careful, measured. They’d never made love so raw. His arms swept her up, clutched her into a hot, angry, needy kiss. Stop hiding. Stop hiding. Help you.
Help me now... He thought, and fell into her body and soul, wholly.
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