Quinn listened, her body continuing to tense. She wasn't a fan of feeling attacked on all sides. Lily, at least, was here, but the woman couldn't defend her, nor did she expect her to. At the end of the day, Quinn had to stand on her two feet. This was something she should have expected, prepared for — but the Jedi had left her alone up until this point.
Also, to her understanding, she was to be left alone — until she stepped out of line.
Lies.
It was all lies.
Quinn pressed her back into her seat, still avoiding as much eye contact as she could with the two men. There was no escape from their questions or their accusations. Even as she told the truth, they weren't going to believe her. They had come with an intention: to eradicate her existence on their worlds.
The Jedi never change; they continue to persecute, assuming
they know what is best.
It bothered her. They sat here, figuring they were in the right, that they were above their own atrocities. Being of the light didn't mean they were above everyone else. Like them, she had people to protect, a government to fight for.
"Thank you for finally answering my initial question." She spoke softly. It had been an annoying back-and-forth trying to get to the
real reason they were here.
"Like I said. Wherever I go, I am always the Queen of Eshan, I was always a Princess of Eshan, and the Daughter of the Empress of the Sith Order." She did her best to relax, to keep the fear from bleeding into her voice as she continued.
There was
no right answer, but she tried.
"That would make me a Princess of the Sith Empire… would it not?" Her eye remained locked onto the desk, the small dent in the wood from the craftsmanship of a Mandalorian. Quinn thought quietly, weighing her words. Even if she didn't value herself as a Sith Lord or felt she fit the bill of one, it would be the assumption just for being who she was.
But she
never chose this alignment or lifestyle. If she could, she'd find another way… but deep down she knew there wasn't. Even if she didn't want to be what she was, that choice was made already for her. There was no alternative.
"War, Master Lorn, as you would understand, is not clean. It fractures things, blurs them, and forces decisions. When war reaches the doorstep of a throne, it doesn't wait for diplomacy." She shook her head, another chance to keep her gaze averted and allow her to collapse into herself.
"I reiterate, I am the daughter of Srina Talon, a citizen of the Sith Empire… It's my home, it's what I've known all my life. How am I supposed to not fight for my home?"
Her words, she figured, would damn her at this moment. But she hoped that there was some semblance of understanding of the difficult position she had been placed in. She could have stayed home, but as a warrior, as an Echani, as the daughter of a woman so great — how would that be justified?
"I would ask that you consider the amount of time that has passed since Woostri. It was before the planets shifted as they did. The Alliance is not the innocent party in this, nor is the Sith Order." She felt her fist clench as her jaw tightened at the mention of
good people being lost on Woostri.
"Both sides lost people, Master Tekka. As a Jedi, don't you value all life? Just because one is viewed as your enemy doesn't disregard their right to live."
How blasphemous and hypocritical the Jedi were… at least a true Sith Lord was able to look one in the eye and claim what they are.
Another reason Quinn felt being labeled as such was unfair to those who
had accomplished much. Zark's mention of her Master only made her withdraw further. She was an embarrassment to the woman, to the power she held in the Empire. There was never an easy day for her, and the piled-on attacks by the Jedi weren't making it any easier.
"That being said, you have accounts of what happened. I do not dispute that I was there." Another uncomfortable shift in her seat. They were still too close to her, if they wanted... within an arm's reach.
"But they are still just accounts, assumptions that it was me."
Her mind wandered briefly to Bastila. It was almost as if she had predicted this moment. Quinn remembered the dance, the almost carefree moments that led to it. But as they drew closer, the padawan had warned her… at first, Quinn assumed it was a general denial of what she had felt, what they shared. Yet, in this moment, Quinn realized it was to truly protect the Echani.
“It’s risky you being here though Quinn.”
“They will circle you like vultures, I don’t want that to happen…”
Remembering the words sullied the bittersweet memory. Her eyes welled momentarily as she exhaled softly. She needed to keep talking, try to get the Jedi to understand, even if it was impossible.
"I would hope…" her voice suddenly small,
"that we are not so unkind as to assume a person is incapable of growth…"
A hand gently guided its way under the desk, fingertips feeling their way blindly, trying to find the lifeline that was installed after the encounter with the Jedi just outside of the Embassy. Her safety was of the utmost importance to the Mandalorians and the Echani.
"To take a moment from my past and hold it as something fixed… as something I am bound to be judged by indefinitely —" she paused her hand, stopping as she was unable to remember where the button was. Her voice shook as she continued.
"— that feels less like the Jedi being cautious, and more like a refusal to acknowledge change."
She did her best to steady herself, to find something that could ground her, to bring everything inward.
"Your concerns are that I'm a Sith Lord…" she acknowledged.
"What I am," Quinn returned to trying to find the panic button,
"is someone who has again… honored every accord, every law, since stepping into High Republic space. I have not strayed nor have I threatened your people."
Fear continued to creep along the edge of her consciousness.
"So I would ask you all…" a slight tilt of her head as she tried to understand everything that was happening…
"Are we judging what I am —" Quinn felt her finger caress the duraplast of the button. She didn't press it, but held steady, ready if her words elicited a reaction that would cause harm.
The last thing anyone in this room wanted was more
war.
"— or what you fear I could be?"