Location: Naboo
Ace's eyes followed every movement: the sharp pivot, the sweep of the gold blade, the deliberate way Lorn's shoulders rolled through each motion. Every strike carried intent, not ego. It was clean, measured, unhurried, control that came from someone who'd already burned out the recklessness years ago.
Ace realized, watching him, that there was no anger in it. No push for dominance. Just precision, guided by conviction. It was the same kind of focus he'd seen in the few Jedi he'd respected... the quiet killers of chaos.
When Lorn spoke about instinct and technique, he felt the words more than he understood them. You don't chase the blow; you become the counter. His grip tightened. He'd spent years chasing everything; ghosts, enemies, answers. Maybe that was the problem. Even in combat, he chased: he pursued catharsis, closure, validation.
But then, what Lorn said next cut deeper than he expected: You lost because he'd already made peace with what he was willing to do to win.
His chest tightened. Dathomir. The smoking flesh. The faces. He had made peace once, or... he surrendered, and it had cost him his humanity. The thought left a bitter taste.
"Last time I had that willingness..." He said at last, sorrow in his voice "I went too far."
The admission hung in the air as he stepped forward, meeting Lorn's gaze before mirroring his stance. Then, he moved, echoing Lorn's demonstratio. He was rougher at the edges, but deliberate. Actually moving the blade with his new prosthetic was... odd.
It shifted Ace's center of balance, Before, his weapon hand was an extension of his instinct. Now every movement felt mechanical, like there was a lag between his thoughts and action. For a moment, he wondered if this is what it was like for those that couldn't feel the Force. It was awful.
His first swing came too hard, too fast. But he recovered quickly, redirecting the follow-through into a tight, controlled strike, closer to Lorn's rhythm. Ace studied the older man's footing, then his own, and adjusted.
"I hear what you're saying, Lorn. 'Bout making peace." He added, voice steadier now. "But there's a line. You cross it enough times, and you stop knowing where it is." His brow furrowed, eyes fixed on Lorn's center. "I want to fight like I still know."
Ace repeated the movements a few more times, but everything still felt off. He lowered his lightsaber, sighing in resignation, although his left the blade alive. Shifting the hilt into his right hand, the teen took a moment to look at his empty prosthetic hand.
"Not used to swinging with the new arm, I guess." Frustration layered in his tone. "Reflex and instinct was my bread 'n butter. I know this arm's optimized to the fullest, but... I can feel the wrongness. The delay."
His mechanical fingers curled into a fist, he squeezed hard but it didn't shake. Not like a real arm would. "I'm scared I won't be able to fight good again."
Fighting was how he'd always known himself. The possibility that he couldn't do that anymore terrified. If he couldn't he was worthless.