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Private Locked Rooms and Old Fires

The holding wing of Republic Intelligence was quiet in a way that had nothing to do with peace.

No shouting. No clatter of boots. No raised voices or slammed doors. Only the steady hum of power conduits in the walls and the soft, regulated rhythm of a facility designed to contain things that were never meant to be free again.

Shade moved through it without hesitation.

Her credentials cleared each checkpoint before the guards even finished reading them. Doors slid open in silence. Barriers lowered. Eyes followed her and then quickly looked away. Everyone here knew who she was. Everyone here knew why she had access.

And no one questioned it.

The final corridor was narrower than the others, reinforced with layered transparisteel and durasteel panels threaded with suppression arrays. The air felt heavier here, subtly resistant, like walking through water you could not see. Every step reminded her that this was not a place meant for comfort. It was a place meant for control.

She stopped in front of the last cell.

"Agent Tal'voss," one of the handlers said quietly from behind the console. "Subject is compliant. No incidents. Nutrition and hydration on schedule. Restraints unchanged."

Shade inclined her head slightly. "Thank you."

With a soft authorization tone, the inner door unlocked. It slid open. The cell beyond was spare to the point of austerity.

No decoration. No personal effects. No furniture beyond what was required for basic survival. A reinforced bench was built into the wall. A recessed sanitation unit sat in one corner. The lighting was muted and constant, carefully calibrated to prevent disorientation without offering comfort.

And at the center of it all sat Varin.

He was secured to the bench with suppression cuffs at his wrists and ankles, dark alloy bands threaded with faintly glowing restraint fields. A broad, reinforced blindfold wrapped around his eyes and upper face, layered with sensory dampeners and energy diffusing mesh. It was not cruel. It was thorough.

He had been cleaned with clinical, detached efficiency. He had been fed just enough to maintain his strength. He had been kept alive by a system that valued his pulse more than his spirit. Yet for all the care given to his physical form, he had not been allowed to be himself for a single moment since his capture.

His armor, once both his skin and his shield, was gone. His weapons and specialized gear had been stripped away and replaced with simple regulation clothing that hung more loosely on his frame than it once would have, revealing the subtle weight he had lost under the strain of confinement. The fabric was clean but worn soft by repeated wash cycles, utilitarian and impersonal, offering no comfort, only the cold reality of his status as a prisoner.

Even his appearance had begun to fray. His hair had grown out just enough to lose its battle-ready sharpness, no longer styled with the precision he once maintained. Dark stubble shadowed his jaw and throat in a rough, uneven five o'clock shadow, a quiet testament to days spent without the dignity of grooming tools or a mirror.

To an outside observer, he looked…smaller. Not physically. Not truly.

He appeared diminished because he had been stripped of spectacle and myth. Without the armor and the bravado, he was just a man sitting in restraints, vulnerable and dangerously human.

Despite the isolation, he was upright when she entered.

He was not slumped in defeat. He was not unconscious. He was not pretending to sleep. He was fully aware, his senses sharpened by confinement, occupying the silence and listening for the world beyond his cell.

His head shifted a fraction at the metallic sound of the door sliding open. A subtle change rippled through the rhythm of his breathing. He did not need to see her to know that someone had arrived. He could feel the pressure in the room change long before any other confirmation.

Shade stepped inside. The door sealed behind her with a muted, final hiss. For a long moment, she did not speak, allowing the silence to settle between them like a physical weight.

She took him in slowly, her gaze traveling over the steady rise and fall of his breathing and the faint tension in his shoulders that refused to fully dissipate. She noted the way his hands curled slightly against the cuffs, not in futile struggle, but in the quiet language of someone who never truly relaxed, even in stillness.

He was alive. He was contained. He was here. Good.

She moved closer, her boots making almost no sound against the polished floor, until she stopped just a few feet in front of him. Close enough that he could hear her breathing. Close enough that he could feel her presence pressing into the small space, even through the dampening fields.

Only then did she finally speak.

Her voice was low. Calm. Perfectly controlled.

"Varin."

No title. No designation. No file number. Just his name.

It was the first word he had heard from her since the street had burned and the world had collapsed around them. And in the quiet of the cell, it marked the true beginning of whatever came next.

Varin Mortifer Varin Mortifer
 


THEME

Days Prior to Present

He awoken not long after being placed in his cell after the battle that left a section of the city in rubble and ash. Though his eyes were open he couldn't see. He tried to use his hands to pull off the blinder on his face, but his hands were bound behind his back. He flexed and grunted under strain, trying to call upon the force to shatter his bindings.

But the force did not come…

His head was silent. No trace of Ignati.

He breathed in and out to control himself, his breathing harsh and violent. He whispered loudly to himself.

“Ignati?...”

No answer.

“Speak to me…..”

Silence.

His voice broke to a whisper.

"Where did you go?"

He pulled against his restraints again, growling in frustration before a yell ripped from his throat from the strain.

The bonds held…

He took a few quick breaths and tried again, yelling as his voice barely echoed to the walls in his containment cell.

Once again…they held…

He could not see, but he could hear. He stood from his bed, then knelt onto the floor concentrating, listening for any sign of where he was.

Then he heard it.

“Subject is conscious but erratic. Calling for anesthesia to calm the subject.”

His fists clenched until blood drew from his palms.

“...release…me…”

Present day.

He was a prisoner. Shackled by the enemy, caged like a beast, blinded like an erratic creature. Ignati was still silent to him, not speaking once, and his very presence felt…far.

Varin was for the first time in his life, truly alone.

He had been fed, though he tried to refuse food several times, they were persistent, sometimes even injecting him with vitamins and nourishment needed to stay well.

It was not cruel, but it was necessary, in their eyes.

What they had truly done to him on the inside fractured him. He was not broken, but he was silent. Biding his time. He was not trapped prey, he refused to be.

He was a patient predator, waiting for the right moment to leap.

His ear twitched to the sound of doors opening and a familiar voice.

Shade…

Varin's head tilted as to her direction and he slowly stood after she said his name.

“...Where am I?”

He spoke quietly, a stain of aggression brushed into his words, malice that dripped from his mouth like venom from a fang.

“...does this sight please you Shade? Even the Covenant gave you more liberties than this.”

He stood looking in her direction, though she could not see his eyes, she would feel them piercing into her.


 
Shade did not flinch at the edge in his voice, remaining exactly where she stood with her hands relaxed at her sides and her posture composed; she was a statue of neutrality, neither looming over him in a display of power nor retreating from the heat of his anger. There was no flicker of satisfaction in her expression and no trace of vindication to be found in the set of her shoulders, for she offered only the steady, grounding presence of someone who had come here because it was a necessity, rather than a task she found gratifying.

When she finally spoke, her voice was quiet and unhurried as she began to lay out the cold reality of his situation. "You are currently in the custody of Republic Intelligence," she said, her calm tone acting as a sharp contrast to the high-security containment wing designed specifically for Force-sensitive detainees that now served as his world. She took a single step closer—a movement slow and deliberate enough that he could track her position by sound alone—before continuing in a tone that remained factual rather than accusing. "You are restrained because you have already demonstrated the capacity to level a city block, and you are blindfolded because your eyes have proven themselves capable of killing."

Her voice remained even, devoid of the jagged edges of malice. "There is no cruelty in these measures, Varin, and there is no satisfaction to be found in them. This is not punishment; it is containment."

At his comparison to her own past captivity, something faint shifted in her expression. Not the flare of anger or the sting of hurt, but the distant shadow of memory. "Lysander afforded me certain liberties because he believed that control was ultimately more useful than breaking me," Shade explained evenly, her gaze fixed steadily on him even though he could not return it. "He wanted my loyalty, not my silence. But you must understand that is not what is happening here."

She folded her hands loosely in front of her, the picture of controlled stillness. "No one in this facility is trying to rewrite who you are, nor is anyone trying to strip you down just to rebuild you into something else." A brief, deliberate pause followed, allowing the weight of the cell to settle before she added softly, "And no, this does not give me any pleasure. Watching someone destroy themselves never does."

She drew in a slow, controlled breath, the sound of it echoing slightly in the quiet of the wing. "You are alive. You are being fed, you are being treated for your injuries, and you are not being tortured. Those were deliberate choices, Varin, not accidents of protocol."

Finally, she gave him the truth he had been circling, the words settling between them with a weight that was heavy but undeniably fair. "What happens next will be determined entirely by whether you can remain in control of yourself from this point forward. Not by your anger, and not by whatever voice you were listening to before this began. It will be determined by you."

She held her ground, neither threatening nor pleading, serving only as a mirror to his current state. "You are here because you lost control of your power, not because anyone in this Republic wants to see you broken." For the first time since she had entered the cell, something almost gentle entered her tone, a final warning that carried the weight of her own history. "Do not mistake restraint for cruelty, Varin."

Varin Mortifer Varin Mortifer
 


His body tensed, like a full body flex after she mentioned being in custody by the Republic Intelligence. His head moved as if his eyes tried to trace the walls around him as she spoke. The motion seeming to look as if he were observing his surroundings, even while blinded. Using his other senses to get a feel for the environment. A practice he had implemented into his regiment while being imprisoned in this place, sharpening his senses from hearing, to touch, scent and even taste. Though he did not have access to the force he was still quite quick to adapt.

His head jerked to her direction when she mentioned this was not cruelty or punishment. It was containment. A small laugh left him.

“You would believe that neglecting one's senses and placing them into an unfamiliar space and taking away certain liberties is not cruelty?”

He stood up straight, his wrists pulling against his restraints, as if testing them, prodding. Always trying to find certain weak points.

“Containment and control rides a very fine line to the road to cruelty. You may not find satisfaction in it now, but eventually you may. When you find the amount of control you would have on your prisoners.”

His head tilted as she spoke of her imprisonment.

“No, you would not have me join you. Not only would I ever allow it to happen, your troop would also know I could never truly be controlled.”

He fell silent as she spoke of control. Control over himself. He slowly walked closer to the viewport of his cell, standing in front of her. His voice came quietly, but edged with the razor of aggression.

“I follow my very own choices to the letter. What you see, what you witness is something of your own assumptions.”

He leaned a bit closer, almost making contact with the viewport before him.

“You may have me restrained for now, Shade. You may have me here to prod me with your questions, but I am not one to truly be restrained for long.”

He slowly straightened up, the suppression shackles bound to his wrists clicking from the movement before he slowly turned around and walked back to his cot, sitting down. Silent.

After a moment he spoke again.

“Surely you are not just here to gawk at me. What is it that you seek?”


 
Shade did not react to the tension in his body, nor to the way he tested his restraints as though every motion were part of some long, patient calculation. She remained where she was, hands loosely folded in front of her, posture composed and unthreatening without ever becoming casual.

She watched him move, listened to the subtle changes in his breathing, the way his head tracked sound and space. She recognized the discipline in it. The adaptation. The refusal to surrender awareness even when deprived of sight.

When he finished and turned back toward his cot, she finally spoke.

"Not all of your senses are denied," Shade said quietly. "You can hear. You can feel. You can smell the air, the people who pass outside your cell, and the difference between day and night. You are not isolated. You are contained."

She took a slow step closer to the viewport, stopping well short of it.

"There is a difference," she continued evenly. "Cruelty is designed to erode a person. This is designed to prevent harm. To you and to everyone else."

Her gaze did not waver.

"You can have the same liberties I was granted," she went on. "Structured movement. Supervised training. Access to information within reason. Conditional autonomy."

A pause.

"If you demonstrate that you can handle it."

She shifted her weight slightly, the movement subtle but deliberate.

"And for the record," Shade added calmly, "you were the one who wanted me to join you."

There was no accusation in it. Just truth.

"I do not see that happening," she said simply.

Her voice lowered a fraction, not in threat, but in gravity.

"Know this, Varin Mortifer," Shade said, using his full name without ceremony. "I do not hate you. And I do not want you dead."

She held the space between them steadily.

"If I did," she continued, "we would not be having this conversation."

Silence stretched for a moment before she went on.

"I also do not expect you to remain confined here forever," Shade admitted. "That will depend on your choices, not on mine."

Her eyes softened just slightly, not with pity, but with honesty.

"You are correct about one thing," she said. "Control walks a narrow line. Which is why it matters who is holding it."

She straightened, hands returning to her sides.

"I am not here to gawk at you," Shade finished quietly. "And I am not here to break you."

Her gaze remained fixed on him.

"I am here to see whether the man who stood in that street still exists beneath everything you wrapped around yourself. And whether he is willing to choose something other than destruction."

Varin Mortifer Varin Mortifer
 


He sat in silence as she spoke, his chest rising with a rhythmic beat of normality. Calm shallowed breaths. Though he gave a vibrato of strength, the truth that he refused to look at was, he was weakened. Stuck within some trap like a hunted animal waiting for the hunter to make the final cut at his throat to end his life.

But that didn’t come.

Instead, what came was far worse in his eyes. He was brought under heel, he was contained, he was controlled. That thought brought a sharp rise to his chest as a huff left his nostrils. He would not, could not accept that.

He spoke with a hint of disgust in his voice.

“Why would you care if harm came to me?”

He paused for a moment, a shake to his breathing slowly rearing it ugly head, his breathing only intensified as she stated she was not here to gawk at him, nor to break him, that she was only here to see if he could do something else other than destroy.

“You would have me believe that?”

His words spat venom towards her as he stood up and paced side to side in front of his cot.

“What kind of prison is not built to pick apart its prisoners?”

He stopped as he faced the wall by him, his shoulders rising and falling with each breath.

“The answer to your question is simple. Wherever my enemies are, destruction follows in my wake. I make no exceptions.”

He spoke between breaths as frustration built into his voice.

“You can hide behind your words of what you think you see, but I have seen what Jedi are truly capable of. And they are no different to Sith. Two sides of the same coin.”

His posture slowly straightened, not for intimidation, but as a reset for his body to process that he was regaining control once again as his spine popped in a few places, echoing off the walls. He rolled his shoulders a bit, to ease the muscle tension that had been building for a while now, the tingling in his fingers slowly started to die down leaving feelings of pin pricks along his fingertips.

“If you think they are different because of dogma or delusions of morals, then you are truly foolish. They both want nothing more than control.”


 
Shade did not interrupt him, choosing instead to remain exactly where she was with her hands relaxed at her sides and her posture completely unchanged. She watched him with a steady, clinical focus, listening to every jagged word without a hint of flinching or the slightest urge to retreat. She allowed him the space to pace the confines of the room and let him vent the pressurized frustration he'd been carrying, waiting patiently for the initial fire of his anger and suspicion to burn itself down into something far more manageable. There was no trace of judgment etched into her expression, nor did she make any attempt to correct his assumptions or defend herself before he had fully finished speaking his mind.

When he finally fell silent, and the coiled tension in his shoulders eased just enough to signal that he had reached the end of that particular emotional spiral, she took a single, slow step forward.

She did not move so close as to threaten his personal space, nor did she remain so far away as to feel emotionally distant or detached from the moment. She stopped just close enough to ensure that her presence carried the weight it needed to.

Her voice, when she finally spoke, was characterized by a quiet, unwavering steadiness that filled the small gap between them.

"I do this because I am an honorable woman," Shade said simply, "and because I do not believe in deciding who deserves to live or die based on personal convenience, fleeting rage, or conflicting ideologies."

She held her gaze directly in his direction, maintaining the connection even though she knew his physical eyes could not yet perceive her.

"I care about this outcome because you are a living being," she continued with a gravity that demanded his attention. "I care because you are still entirely capable of choosing a path other than one of pure destruction, and quite frankly, because I am not the type of person who discards people the moment they become difficult to handle."

There was no trace of comforting softness to be found in her tone, nor was there any hint of unearned sentimentality behind her words. She offered him nothing but the blunt, unvarnished truth of her position.

"And no, to satisfy your earlier suspicion," she added evenly, "I do not work for the Jedi, nor do I serve their interests."

A faint, sharp edge entered her voice then. Not born of anger, but of a sudden, piercing precision.

"I am an agent of Republic Intelligence," Shade said, defining the boundary clearly between them. "Plain and simple. I do not answer to the councils of temples, I do not follow the dictates of ancient doctrine, and I certainly do not kneel to the concepts of prophecy or the hope of spiritual absolution."

"I deal exclusively in the realm of hard facts, the weight of consequences, and the preservation of stability."


She paused for a long heartbeat, giving her words enough time to settle and take root in his mind.

"On that specific point," she went on quietly, her eyes never leaving him, "I will admit that you are not entirely wrong in your assessment."

"Jedi and Sith both suffer from the same fundamental flaw; they both believe they know what is best for everyone else in the galaxy, and they both believe their specific version of absolute control is entirely justified."

"I do not share that belief, and I never will."


She folded her hands loosely in front of her, her demeanor remaining calm despite the lethal potential of the man standing before her.

"The fact that I do not subscribe to their narrow views is the reason you are still breathing," she said pointedly. "It is the reason why we are standing here having this conversation instead of me overseeing an autopsy."

She studied the lines of his face for a moment, then asked with a calm that bordered on the surreal,

"Will you give me your word and agree not to attack me?"

She let the question hang in the air for a beat before adding the second half of the requirement.

"Or anyone else currently stationed in this facility."

It was not delivered as a threat or a provocation, but rather as a clearly defined line that could not be crossed.

"If you find that you cannot make that promise," she added with a finality that brooked no argument, "then this entire endeavor ends right here."

Another long pause stretched between them, thick with the weight of his impending decision.

"However, if you can," Shade said, her voice dropping an octave, "then I will proceed to remove your cuffs."

The silence that followed was long and heavy, but she did not move to fill it with further explanations or reassurances.

When his grudging agreement finally came, and she felt the tension in him shift from a posture of active defiance to one of reluctant, simmering restraint, she inclined her head once in silent acknowledgment of his choice.

"Good," she murmured, the word barely more than a breath.

She turned slightly, keeping him in her peripheral vision as she keyed the sequence into the control panel mounted beside the viewport.

With a soft, rhythmic mechanical hiss, the suppression cuffs disengaged one by one, releasing their hold with a series of metallic clicks. First, his wrists were freed, and then his ankles followed suit as the shimmering energy fields faded away, leaving only a faint, residual warmth on his skin where the restraints had been.

She did not retreat to a safer distance once he was free, nor did she make any move to draw a weapon or prepare a defense. She chose, quite deliberately, to trust him to keep his word.

For several long seconds, nothing happened as the silence returned to the room. Then, the Force began to return to him.

It did not come back in a violent, overwhelming flood, nor did it return in a sudden blaze of light that blinded his senses. Instead, it seeped back into his consciousness like the first deep breath of air after a near-drowning, refreshing and vital.

As he reached outward. Cautiously at first, and then with an instinctive hunger for connection, what he found waiting for him in the presence of the woman in front of him was not a web of deception.

There was no hidden manipulation to be found, nor any trace of buried malice or ulterior motives.

Instead, he felt the resonance of a profound and ironclad discipline. He felt a sense of control that was nearly absolute, an exhaustion that she carried without a single word of complaint, and layers of old grief buried deep beneath a resolve that refused to break. He felt a spine of unyielding integrity that would not bend for convenience or comfort.

And beneath it all, he felt honesty. A relentless, uncompromising honesty that was almost painful to encounter.

Shade felt the shift in the air as his awareness expanded, and she spoke quietly into the newly returned connection.

"You may look at me now," she said, her presence opening up to him. "I am not hiding anything from you."

She took one more final step closer, placing herself fully within his reach.

"I am not your enemy, regardless of what you have been taught to believe," Shade finished, her voice steady and sure. "And I am certainly not your jailer."

"I am simply the person standing here, choosing of my own free will not to give up on you."


Then, in a voice that was softer than any she had used before, she added a single request.

"Please, do not make me regret that choice."

She stayed exactly where she was, refusing to move an inch.

She remained open, unarmed, and completely unflinching as she waited to see what he would choose to do next.

Varin Mortifer Varin Mortifer
 


Varin remained silent as he listened, not interrupting, allowing her to say her piece. He was a Sith, but he was honorable. When she mentioned that she did not work with the Jedi a curious tilt of his head turned. Listened to her speech of not following their ideals for either Sith or Jedi. His hands relaxed some. Then she asked if he promised not to attack her.

He was silent for a moment.

Conflicted.

Everything within the fiber of his being wished to refuse, but he was in unfamiliar territory, in unfamiliar grounds surrounded by unknown amounts of troops and their armories. It would be foolish to lash out.

He slowly nodded his head.

“You have my word on the blood of my family, I will not attack you, or anyone else.”

He heard her key in a sequence then the tightness of the cuffs turned to slack, detaching from his wrists and ankles.

A sharp inhale pulled into his lungs for a moment as he hungrily drank down the slow trickle of returning force energy around him, falling on one knee, catching himself with his hands. It was like weight was lifted from him, the veil of drowsiness was pulled off his mind, and the silence…

Replaced by a slow breath from Ignati.

...Boy…Are you alright?

Varin took another breath as a familiar warmth flowed back into his body.

He let out a grunt of agreement to Ignati, nodding his head in response, the blindfold stayed on his head, barring him from his sight, but he could still see wisps of shapes produced from the Force, like thin dust trailing in the wind and around surfaces. He looked towards shade, feeling through her with the force. She would feel an intrusion into her mind, but not through forceful entry of searching for information.

He was searching for truth, honorable cold hard truth.

An answer he found after a moment.

He wiped his forearm over his nose and mouth as he slowly stood up, he spoke softly to her, confused.

“Why? Why would you not put down a being of pure destruction?”

He slowly sat back down on his cot, as he caught his breath, waiting for her answer.


 
Shade did not recoil when she felt him reach for her through the Force, recognizing the texture of his presence immediately. It wasn't a probe or a violation. There were no hooks, no prying pressure, and no attempt to unearth secrets that hadn't been offered. Instead, it was a search for alignment, for fractures, and for the lies he clearly expected to find. She simply stood her ground, letting him find nothing but the reality of her internal landscape: a steady resolve, controlled restraint, and a complete absence of hidden malice or intent to betray him.

When he finally spoke, his voice carrying the weight of confusion rather than the heat of rage, she regarded him for several long seconds in silence. She wasn't seeking to intimidate him; she was merely taking the time to truly consider the man before her before she offered an answer.

"Because I do not believe destruction is a sin," Shade said quietly, her voice remaining calm even as the Force continued to stir in the room and his presence brushed against her awareness. "It is merely part of the cycle. Stars collapse, empires fall, and worlds burn, only to be rebuilt later; the truth is that nothing in this galaxy survives untouched. You are not unique in that regard, Varin, you are simply honest about it."

She shifted her weight slightly and folded her hands behind her back, maintaining a composed rather than guarded posture. "You destroy because sometimes you are driven by anger, sometimes by conviction, and sometimes because it is the only language left available to you. I, in turn, contain. I intercept and dismantle threats before they become catastrophes, deciding who lives long enough to face consequences and who does not."

There was no pride in her admission, only the flat delivery of a perceived truth. "In the end, we both shape outcomes and leave scars in our wake. We both decide, in our own ways, who pays the price when ideals collapse. The difference between us is not what we do, but rather when we choose to stop."

She took a slow, deliberate breath as her gaze grew more thoughtful, though it did not necessarily soften. "I am not here to remake you, Varin. I am not here to cleanse you, redeem you, or convince you to kneel to anyone's philosophy. I am here because, for all your destruction, you still understand the value of restraint, and that means you are not finished yet. That," she finished quietly, holding his gaze through the blindfold as she felt him mirroring her focus, "is why I did not put you down."

Varin Mortifer Varin Mortifer
 
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Varin stood in silence as he digested her words. His jaw set and flexed, stiffening into a set position as he thought of his next words carefully.

“You’re wrong.”

He spoke quietly. Not condescending or degrading her, but simply revealing something to her that she had not witnessed from him.

“You, have only seen me cause destruction, and pursue with aggression. It’s all you know from me. But that is not all I am capable of.”

He slowly stood up, walking towards her and lowered himself to her level, inches from her face, though he could not see, he could feel she was in front of him.

“I have built warriors up from broken pasts. Helped them pick up the pieces. I have given them reasons to live, to go on…and to serve.”

His head glanced to the side, looking towards the floor, as if tilting his head to hear something.

“If I only knew and spoke destruction with a few exceptions of restraint, then that is something I would never be capable of. To lead a successful squadron with minimal casualties, effectively getting the mission done.”

He took a breath.

“You, the Jedi and people of your allegiances, when they look at me, they want to simplify it to a monster of destruction. For the Jedi they simplify it to make it easier to kill with clear conscience. For you, it is simply misinformation. Something you did not quite see yet. So now we are here. So now I’m telling you, there is so much more to me then I have been letting on.”

His finger pointed towards her loosely as his hand rested on his knee, before it slowly relaxed back to his palm.

“The Galaxy is a very…complicated place. There is no such thing as simplicity, and there is no room for it.”

He fell quiet as he stayed at her level, his head slowly picking back up as if he were looking right into her eyes.


 
When Varin closed the distance, Shade did not move. She didn't lean back out of apprehension, nor did she lean forward to challenge his space. She simply held her ground, a fixed point in the shifting gravity of the cell. Even without his sight, even with the blindfold muting the physical world, she made sure her presence was a steady, grounded frequency he could find.

She let him speak his piece, listening with the kind of absolute attention that didn't require interruptions. When the last echo of his words settled, she answered without heat, her voice carrying a calm weight that was meant to meet him as a peer, not a subordinate.

"I never said you were simple, Varin," she said, her voice low and even, devoid of any patronizing edge. "And I certainly did not call you a monster. I don't deal in labels like that; they're too easy, and they stop people from actually looking at what's in front of them."

There was no defensiveness in her tone, only the quiet precision of a report. "I said you destroy. That is what I witnessed on that street, and as an agent of the Republic, that is what I had to respond to. My role isn't to judge your soul; it's to manage the wake you leave behind."

She shifted slightly, just enough that the air between them would stir, acknowledging his proximity without trying to break it. "If you have spent your life building warriors from broken pasts, then you understand the weight of reconstruction as well as you do demolition. You know better than anyone that one does not negate the other. It simply...complicates it."

She let that word hang in the air, not as a riddle, but as an invitation to look at the full picture. "You're right about the galaxy. It isn't simple. Neither are people. In my experience, people only start simplifying others when they want an excuse to stop caring or a justification for killing them. I'm not doing that here."


There was the faintest tightening at the corner of her eyes. Not in a spark of anger, but a sign of sincere acknowledgment. "I don't work for the Jedi. I don't follow their doctrine, and I don't care for their absolutes. I work for Republic Intelligence. My concerns are stability, containment, and consequence. I look at the math of a situation."

She remained inches from him, unflinching. "If I believed you were only capable of destruction, I wouldn't be standing here wasting my breath on this conversation. I'd process the threat and move on. And if you were only the leader and builder you claim to be, we wouldn't be standing in this cell right now. We'd be elsewhere."

It wasn't an accusation; it was a balance sheet. Her tone softened by a fraction, losing its professional distance to reveal a flicker of something more personal—a shared understanding of what it meant to carry power.

"You don't have to prove to me that you're capable of more. I can see the potential in your discipline. But in the field, in the heat of it, you have to decide which part of you is in the lead. Complexity isn't the issue here, Varin. We're both complex."

She took one final, steady breath, her gaze fixed on the blindfold as if she could see right through it to the man beneath.

"Control is."

Varin Mortifer Varin Mortifer
 


He stood up straight, towering over her. His posture straight and unbent, to the best of his capabilities.

“Control.”

The word rumbled from his chest in a breath of contemplation, falling silent for a long moment.

“It’s not the first time I have been told about that damned word.”

His hand lowered to his wait, as if trying to grab something small into his hand, something he always had with him. A small item that always brought him clarity.

When his fingers grasped at nothing, they froze. His fist clenched slightly.

The Rosary, taken from him.

“There are many different levels to control. Those who can hold it all within until the right time.”

His eyes gestured to her.

“And then those who hold it all in until the time of battle. We let go.”

He slowly picked his hand back up, looking into his empty palm.

“Both are effective in their own ways, you and I both demonstrated that in our last fight.”

He took a slow breath.

“But I believe that is where my control ends.”

He thought of the time on Brosi when he nearly tried to slaughter his own men, only stopping because a close friend intervened before his body gave out.

“But it has come a long way.”

He whispered.

“But not far enough. It never will be.”


 
Shade did not miss the motion of his hand when it reached instinctively for something that was no longer there. She did not ask about it, but she understood the gesture for what it was. Everyone who walked the edge of violence carried something small that reminded them who they were when the noise grew too loud. When it was taken away, the silence felt different.

She let him finish speaking before she answered, giving his words the weight they deserved rather than interrupting them with correction.

"Control is not a destination you arrive at and keep," she said quietly. "It is something you maintain every day, sometimes every hour, whether you want to or not."

Her tone was not sharp, nor was it soft. It was steady.

"You are right that there are different forms of it. There are those who compress everything into stillness and release only what is necessary, and there are those who hold the storm until the moment of battle and then let it surge forward with precision. Both methods can work. Both can win."

She shifted her weight slightly, grounding herself rather than closing the distance.

"But what happened in that street was not measured release. It was an escalation beyond the objective."

There was no accusation in the statement. Only clarity.

"Strength is not defined by how much power you can unleash. It is defined by whether you can call it back once it has been set loose."

Her eyes remained on him, unwavering.

"When you say it will never be far enough, you are giving yourself permission to stop demanding more from it. That belief makes the burden easier to carry, because it means you do not have to test its limits again."

She let that settle between them before continuing.

"You stopped yourself on Brosi. That alone proves there is a boundary within you. It may not be where you want it yet, and it may not hold under every circumstance, but it exists."

Her voice lowered slightly, not in intensity but in depth.

"The goal is not to eliminate what you are. It is not to extinguish the storm or deny that it has a purpose. The goal is to understand exactly where it breaks, and to decide, before it does, whether the cost is acceptable."

A brief pause.

"You have come a long way. That is not a weakness. It is evidence of effort."

She did not reach for him. She did not soften the truth with comfort.

"Do not convince yourself that it will never be enough simply because the work is difficult. Difficulty is not proof of failure. It is proof that the struggle matters."

She held his presence steadily, not as a jailer, not as an adversary.

"Control is not about suppressing what you are, Varin. It is about choosing when and how it manifests."

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VARIN MORTIFER


“It’s not because the work is difficult.”

He growled to himself as his fists clenched.

“I don’t run away from things because they are difficult, I don’t quit or say I can do no more because it gets difficult”

He turned his back to her and walked to the cell wall, leaning towards the wall with his body and resting his head on his forearms, breathing for a moment.

“Have you ever…heard of the story of the man who pushes the boulder up a hill in the afterlife?”

His voice was quiet, no vibrato, no embellishment, just his raw vocal chords fighting to voice what he is trying to convey.

“Legend has it he is being punished eternally to push a boulder up a large hill, if he reaches the top he is free. The problem is, just before the boulder crests it forces itself back down, causing him to start over once again.”

He breathed.

“I know it takes work and constant vigilance to gain and maintain control, but it seems that I can’t.”

He remained quiet for a moment.

“I make progress then it regresses further. There is just something I’m missing and I don’t know what it is.”


 
Shade did not move when he turned his back to her, choosing instead to remain a silent fixture in the shadows of the cell.

She let the silence stretch, allowing enough time for the ragged edge of his breathing to settle against the cold durasteel wall and for the weight of his admission to sink in properly. There was no mockery in her expression as she listened to his description of the boulder and the hill, nor was there any dismissal of the exhaustion he carried. She understood the toll of a task that felt like a circle rather than a path.

She did not approach him immediately, keeping a respectful distance that acknowledged his current vulnerability. Instead, she folded her hands loosely behind her back, her posture grounded and patient.

"The Chiss have a similar story," she said quietly. Her voice remained calm, but the tone shifted, losing its clinical edge and becoming something more personal, perhaps even a reflection of her own history.

"There is an old Ascendancy tale of a navigator tasked with charting a shifting nebula. Every time he believed he had fully mapped its currents, the gases would churn and undo months of careful calculation. For a long time, he believed the nebula itself was his enemy, resisting his will with a conscious and calculated malice."

She let that image linger in the quiet air of the cell, the metaphor of the navigator mirroring the man leaning against the wall.

"Eventually, he realized the nebula was not fighting him. It was simply alive, behaving according to a nature he had refused to see. His mistake was believing that the universe should be conquered instead of understood."

Only then did she take a step closer, though she stopped well before she could be perceived as crowding him. She watched the light play across his form, searching for the man beneath the prisoner.

"What is it that pushes your boulder back down the hill, Varin?"

Her question was direct, stripped of accusation but heavy with a desire for the truth.

"Is it a flare of rage? A stubborn sense of pride? Is it the simple fear of losing control, or perhaps something deeper—a fear of who you might become if you actually succeeded in changing?"

The cell remained quiet, the only sound the hum of the facility's power grid. Shade watched him, her gaze steady and oddly supportive for someone holding the key to his cage.

"Do you truly want to change?"

It was not a demand for his submission, nor was it a test of his resolve. It was a genuine question, an opening of a door he had perhaps kept locked even from himself. She exhaled slowly, her shoulders losing a fraction of their rigid military bearing.

"It was never my intention to become the force that pushes you backward," she admitted, a faint softening finally coloring her words. "But if you truly wish to understand the pieces of yourself that remain missing, I will try to help you find them."

She studied the lingering tension in his shoulders, noting the way he braced himself against the world.

"That does not mean I intend to reshape you into something you are not. It means we must examine the exact point where you lose yourself to the dark. We must learn how to set an anchor before that threshold is crossed, so you are no longer at the mercy of the slide."

A measured beat passed as she weighed his silence.

"If you believe you can maintain your composure, I will remove the blindfold."

Her voice did not waver; it held the steady resonance of a promise.

"I do not offer this as a reward for good behavior. I offer it as trust."

She remained exactly where she was, refusing to press him, giving him the sanctuary of space to make his own decision.

"But the choice must be yours, Varin. I cannot force you to see."

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VARIN MORTIFER


Equipment: Durum Mantle | Black Blade of Chandrila | Eye of The Dragon | Heavy Sith Mace​

Varin remained silent as she asked her questions, the questions did not matter to him. He shook his head and spoke quietly.

“It does not matter what I do to try and curve it.”

He threw his forehead into the wall with a loud crack. A singular his out of frustration as he breathed deep.

When she offered to remove the blindfold he slowly picked up his head, his gaze turning towards her.

“I…”

He spoke quietly, then nodded as he waited for the blindfold to come off.

When the cover was removed his eyes squinted from the sudden influx of light, his hand placed over his eyes as his fingers rubbed his eyelids. His vision was blurry from lack of light, a slight grimace escaped him from the sudden discomfort.

He slowly lowered his hand and his eyes found her, standing composed.

He took another deep breath.

“I don’t know what tips me over the edge. It could be rage, it could be the rush of the fight, it could be many things. But it feels as if it feeds off of it all.”

He looked her in the eye as he answered to the best of his capabilities, without giving too much information.


 
Shade did not move when the sound of his forehead striking the wall cracked through the sterile quiet of the cell, for she had seen far worse reactions from men who believed that frustration could simply be punished out of existence. When he finally offered his nod of agreement, she stepped forward without any hint of drama to unfasten the blindfold in a single, deliberate motion that carried no hesitation.

She watched his reaction to the returning light with a clinical steadiness, noting the squint of discomfort and the instinctive way he shielded his eyes as a necessary recalibration rather than a sign of weakness. Giving him the necessary space to adjust, she waited until his gaze finally settled on her and the haze began to clear before she held his eyes with a presence that was neither defiant nor soft.

The fact that he did not know exactly what tipped him into that state mattered more to her than anything else he had said, and she exhaled slowly as she prepared her response.

"Then we will start exactly there," she said, her voice remaining calm and grounded as she addressed him. "You say that this force feeds off of your rage, the rush of the moment, and the heat of escalation, which means that the process itself is entirely reactive."

She did not accuse him or attempt to label his struggle as corruption or a dark destiny, but instead offered a small pause to let the mechanical reality of his situation sink in.

"Something deep within you is answering external stimuli instead of directing it, which suggests you do not fall because you are weak, but because you are inadvertently amplifying what is already present in your mind."

Her crimson eyes remained steady on his as she shifted her weight slightly, her hands folding behind her back in a posture of disciplined focus.

"True control is not the absence of intensity, but rather the conscious decision of when to let that intensity move through you and when to let it pass by without offering a response."

She took a slow step closer, not to invade his physical space but to close the emotional distance between them, and her tone softened a fraction while maintaining its firm structure.

"If this hunger feeds on everything it touches, then trying to starve it or suppress it will never work, and you already know this because you have tried both of those paths to no avail."

A subtle tilt of her head accompanied her next observation as she leaned into the lesson.

"You need to learn how to recognize the very first shift or the tiniest flicker of that heat long before you find yourself standing in the middle of the inferno."

She held his gaze with unwavering precision, stripping away the narrative of his actions to get to the core of his internal experience.

"What is it that you feel first?" she asked, making it clear she was not asking what he did or what he destroyed, but was searching for the raw sensation that preceded the storm. There was no judgment in her question, only the sharp precision of a teacher looking for the source of a leak.

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Time: One week ago. The day of Varin's capture.

Allan sat within his meditation chambers. A cold silence not of peace but of dead sound warped and twisted upon the dark walls around him. The chamber was black and lightness, save for one gray ray of light that illuminated his presence like a beacon from a torch that heralded the end.

He meditated on his will, the plan and the soon to be success of bringing oblivion and peace, true peace to the galaxy.

There would be no more screams, no more pain, no more suffering upon the stars. There would only be silence and eternal night.

For the sound of peace truly stirs within the dark.

His eyes opened, a flare of violet, as the doors behind him opened. Heavy stone upon stone slowly swinging open as a breathless but hurried breathing servant approached him at a hurried pace.

Upon reaching Allan he fell upon his knees hands and face, impacting the ground with a hollow smack, he did not wince nor did he cry out in pain. The servant simply stayed kneeled before Allan.

“Lord Alhune, the Master has requested your presence. It's urgent.”

He spoke hurriedly, almost rushed as Allan slowly turned his head to face him, some of his dreads falling off his shoulder to his back.

His voice was quiet, slow yet cold.

“Very well. I will meet with him now then.”

The servant shakily passed him a slap, upon it was a holoprojector that sprung to life as the servants pushed himself back on his hands and knees, blood trailing with him as his head slid along the floor, not daring to look upon the projection as he made his leave.

Within the projection sat a silhouetted figure upon a massive stone throne. Lanky and thin, wrapped in heavy robes, hood up darkening his face, save for his glowing eyes.

“The boy has been captured, Allan. Now would be the perfect time to retrieve him since he is away from allies.”

Allan glared, he hated the child. His metallic arm flexed as he remembered how the boy took his arm, wounding him.

“Perhaps, Master, we let the boy stay in their hands. They may be rid of him once and for all.”

The figures eyes darted to Allan, causing him to wince dropping the projector as he grasped his temples, yelling in pain. His eyes began to bleed.

“You dare question my orders Allan? Perhaps you have forgotten who gave you the secrets to live many lives.”

Allan grunted as he fell to his side, blood dripping from his nose now and onto the stone floor as he breathed and struggled to speak.

“No…my Master…it will be done.”

The projector cut as the figure nodded and Allan stood up. He pulled up his bracer and a projector feed of an officer appeared.

“Ready my ship.”

The officer saluted and nodded

“Post haste, Sir.”

Time: Present Day

The shuttle landed on the landing bay, clearance cleared. Security approached the vehicle under protocol to inspect the visitor as Allan stepped off the ramp.

“State your business.”

Allan slowly waved his hand.

“I represent The High Republic. You have a prisoner present that is on hold for us, I am here for his retrieval.”

The security looked at one another.

“Whats the name?”

Allan Smiled.

“Varin, Varin Mortifer.”


 



VARIN MORTIFER


Equipment: Durum Mantle | Black Blade of Chandrila | Eye of The Dragon | Heavy Sith Mace

Varin listened in silence as she spoke of intensity, of its relation to strength and lack thereof. He stood there, eyes on her unblonking and unmoving looking into hers to show that she had his undivided attention.

He already knew what was within him that answered to the chaos and the bloodlust. But it was something he would not willingly vocalize with someone he still viewed as an enemy. Though she had shown proof that she was not here to harm or change him, he still reserved most information about him.

No amount of suppression or starvation would control it. It would only relapse, and she knew it, Varin did as well.

Then her question came. What did he feel before the sensation of chaos and bloodlust took over?

He took a deep breath.

“We call it the drums of war.”

He spoke quietly and deeply as he sat on his cot.

“Warriors from my home planet all felt it before battle. Our chests would pound, not from anxiety, but from excitement.”

He kept his eyes on her as he breathed again, in and out from his nose. Slow and deepen breaths.

“It was how we won battles. Our lust for victory burned brighter than our deaths, some even surviving killing blows just to finish the mission before passing.”

His fingers gripped the cloth over his knee, but he fell silent.

He could say more, but for now he held information in.


 
Shade did not interrupt him, maintaining a respectful silence that allowed his words to settle in the space between them. When he spoke of the drums of war and described that visceral surge that precedes a battle. The sharp anticipation and the undeniable hunger for victory. She listened with the same meticulous, careful attention she had afforded his earlier thoughts. Her expression did not harden into the cold mask of an officer; if anything, it seemed to settle into a state of profound focus. She stepped a little closer, not quite intruding into his personal space, but closing the distance enough to ensure he felt the weight of her presence rather than the distance of a wall.

"Yes," she answered quietly, her voice steady. "I have heard many warriors describe the sensation in those exact terms."

She folded her hands loosely behind her back, her posture remaining composed yet accessible. "The Chiss do not refer to it as the drums of war, but we certainly recognize the same pivotal moment. In the military doctrine of the Ascendancy, we described it as the threshold of engagement. The precise instant when a soldier's mind shifts from the weight of anticipation to the clarity of action."

She inclined her head slightly, her tone remaining calm and almost analytical as she delved into the mechanics of his experience. "Our commanders taught us to recognize the signs early: the quickening pulse, the sharpening of focus, and that specific surge of confidence that whispers the outcome has already been decided. It is a useful state of being, certainly, but it is also one fraught with danger."

She gestured lightly toward him, a motion that wasn't accusatory but rather a simple acknowledgment of the truth he had shared. "For some warriors, that moment becomes the fuel that carries them through the impossible, yet for others, it becomes a fire that spreads rapidly beyond its intended purpose. I suspect that what you call the drums may not actually be the problem; rather, the risk lies in what happens after those drums begin to beat."

She studied him for a long moment, her crimson eyes searching his with a quiet intensity before she continued. "Chiss officers are trained to listen for that internal shift, and when they feel that tide rising within themselves, they are taught to anchor their focus firmly to the objective rather than the emotion. They prioritize mission parameters, unit safety, and the tactical outcome over everything else and most especially victory."

The distinction seemed to linger between them, heavy with meaning. "Victory is an emotional state, but objectives are structural. Your warriors survived fatal wounds because their purpose was crystal clear to them in the moment of crisis. The real question you must answer is whether those drums guide you toward your true purpose, or if they eventually grow loud enough to drown it out entirely."

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