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"Duty. Discipline. Serenity."

Chapter Two: A Mask of Death and Shadow


Reina Daival Reina Daival



The soft hum of the practice field's ambient repulsorlights echoed like a distant mantra in the training hall's high dome. It was a quiet hour—dawnlight barely kissed the edges of the Temple's grounds, and most of the Temple's inhabitants had not yet stirred from their chambers. That was precisely how she preferred it.

Ilaria stood alone in the smaller of the two dueling annexes, a room reserved for private instruction and formalized spars. Its walls were smooth stone, interrupted by elegant insets of crystalline transparisteel that allowed shafts of natural light to slip in from the eastern horizon. The chamber smelled faintly of dust and ozone—scorch marks not yet buffed from previous training sessions.

She moved with deliberate efficiency.

First, she activated the central emitter grid—a soft shimmer ran over the polished floor, the combat zone illuminating with low-frequency light. Then, the training droids: deactivated for now, but aligned and standing in their alcoves like metallic sentinels awaiting orders. The control console responded smoothly to her presence, confirming the schedule. The Padawan she was to instruct had not yet arrived.

Good. I prefer my silence honest.

Her lightsaber rested at her hip, clipped with clinical precision. Not a tool of dominance, not a symbol of identity—just a scalpel. And yet, today, it felt foreign. Her grip around the emitter when adjusting it was practiced, but there was the faintest dissonance. Familiar… and unfamiliar. Something not quite hers, yet second nature.

Makashi. Precision. Economy. Flow.

The thoughts passed like a checklist through her mind as she moved to the far end of the room and drew a simple training remote from one of the shelves. She activated it, sent it hovering lazily through the air, then deactivated it just as quickly. She wasn't testing the remote. She was testing herself. Or rather, testing the thing beneath herself. That subtle echo of instinct, the way her hand had moved without conscious direction.

You didn't used to move like that.

There was no fear in the thought. No suspicion. But there was recognition.

She knew her body. She knew her training. She knew her own evolution—and this last one, the refinement of form, the subtlety in angle, had not come from her years under the blades of Jedi instructors.

It had come from somewhere else.

The blade hidden in her robes—Tyrant's Kiss—was not lit. Not even drawn. But its presence was always known to her. A silent weight that pulsed with patient potential, hidden in the folds of her robes like a secret sin pressed close to the heart. The dagger didn't whisper. It didn't need to. It remembered for her.

And now, she remembered too.

She adjusted the drape of her outer tunic—an unnecessarily crisp thing that had drawn compliments from some of the more conservative archivists—and turned back toward the door. Still no sign of the Padawan. Likely delayed in the Temple's morning exercises or simply underestimating her punctuality.

They usually do, she thought with the faintest curl of one lip. It wasn't amusement. It was observation.

The Jedi on Tython liked to romanticize discipline, but few practiced it with any real severity. They mistook rigidity for wisdom, ceremony for reverence. Ilaria—no, she—had learned otherwise. Precision was not about posture or patience. It was about knowing the precise moment to cut. The rest was window dressing.

And yet, she played the part. She always did.

Ilaria had built a reputation here as reserved, exacting, slightly aloof. An intellectual, some said. Others murmured cold. She did not rebuke the labels. They served as armor, as camouflage. If others thought her distant, they rarely probed too deeply. They assumed her composure was pride. They didn't suspect what was underneath.

Because there was no Ilaria now. Only a memory of her, perfectly worn, expertly mimicked, deeply owned. A stolen skin animated by purpose. And in truth, what remained of Ilaria moved better now. Her blade sang with cleaner form. Her mind focused with greater clarity. Her will, once uncertain, had been repurposed—tempered like steel in ice.

Is it theft, she mused, if I wield her better than she ever did?

She moved toward the center of the floor again and drew her lightsaber, but did not ignite it. She merely held it, testing the balance. Her thumb caressed the hilt. Again, it responded with natural instinct. The Makashi grip: thumb up, wrist loose, the edge always threatening but never wasted. A duelist's style. A fencer's.

Not her original form.

No… but it is now.

There was a strange satisfaction in that. The slow bleed of another's essence into her own, not just worn but digested. Consumed. Ilaria's teachings had become something permanent. Not mimicry. Not possession.

Integration.

And still, she kept the discipline.

She would not show off. She would not force the Padawan to spar immediately. They would speak first. Observe. Discuss. And only then, test. Knowledge before confrontation. That was Ilaria's way—and she followed it perfectly.

The distant echo of footsteps approached. Finally.

She stood still in the center of the dueling floor, expression composed, posture exact. Every line of her body carefully measured to be efficient without being inviting. She had no desire to coddle. The Padawan would learn, or they would not. Her responsibility was to the art, not the student.

But still, as the doors hissed open, she adopted the faint air of mentorship.

A slight tilt of the head. A faint narrowing of the eyes. Not cold—judicious.

Let them see what they expect, she thought. Until they're ready to see the truth.

And in that truth, she would sharpen them.

Or break them.

 

Location: Tython
Tags: Ilaria Morvayne Ilaria Morvayne
Lightsaber - Pequod

"...It's not my fault the droids keep getting destroyed...Why did they have to give me someone to actually spar with..."

The redhead grumbled to herself as she made her way towards the training hall. Hopefully she was so late that whoever it was would end up walking away and Reina would be able to do her own thing. It was different when she had went out looking for training, like she had with Drystan or Irida. This was different. It was someone who was assigned to her. Someone Reina didn't know nor did she entirely want to get to know a stranger. The whole Padawan team building exercise proved to Reina that strangers were just fools you haven't met yet. Hypocrites in her eyes. It's aggressive of her when she responds to a situation with violence, yet when she tries to approach it calmly and diplomatically, it's foolish. She couldn't win. But that's fine. Reina never saw herself as a winner. Not anymore.

It wasn't as if she had a choice anymore. There wasn't anywhere she could go. It wasn't as if anyone truly wanted her. She'd always be the second best to someone, or the third best. Or there'd be people who wanted to completely change who she was. She had told Everest that she would try to love herself...but all of that was much harder for her to go ahead with than she expected. What was there to love? Who cared about her? Sure. There were her Masters. There was perhaps the Grandmaster. Everest? Maybe. Reina was starting to wish she still felt the jealousy instead of whatever she felt now. Jealousy had been like a fire inside of her. Sure, it felt wrong. It felt twisted...but it was better than feeling nothing. Feeling numb inside. She just wanted to destroy some of the training droids, but alas she was stuck with training with some Stranger.

Her hand went to the necklace Everest had given her for her birthday. It was meant to help Reina to feel calm and feel some form of clarity. To stop herself from having intensive emotional moments...But that was the issue. Reina wasn't feeling emotional. She didn't know what she felt. It wasn't calm. It wasn't clarity. It was just some form of numbness. Like a limb that had all of the blood vessels connected to it severed. All of the warmth removed from her. What was going on with her? She couldn't wrap her head around this. She hated it. Emotions. Having to figure out what they meant. What she was meant to do with them. It wouldn't be any surprise to her if whoever was "aiding" her was able to read Reina like an open book. Everyone seemed to know who she was, except for her.

Reina wanted to scream. She wanted to rage. Wanted to break something but...she couldn't. None of it would come to her. Anger. Sadness. Joy. It was just a constant void. Perhaps she should have went to the medbay and talked to someone about it, in case there was something wrong with her, but Reina knew there was. There was always something wrong with her. That's what Reina was slowly starting to realise. She wasn't right. She'd never be right. But...that was fine. It was life.

And so she just kept walking. The distinct thud of her prosthesis echoing through the halls as her Lightsaber hung limply at her belt. Each step she was taking towards the training hall was making her feel less and less energetic for it. She loved using her Lightsaber. She loved training with weapons but today...She couldn't just get herself in the right mindset for it anymore. Reina wasn't even sure if going out for fishing would have been able to break her out of the funk as she made her way into the training hall, just lazily raising her hand into the air.

"Yeah, yeah. I know I'm late. Going to beat you to it before you chew my ear off or something."



 
"Duty. Discipline. Serenity."

Chapter Two: A Mask of Death and Shadow


Reina Daival Reina Daival



Ilaria regarded her in silence for a moment longer than most would have. Let the words hang in the air. Let Reina hear herself. A thousand Jedi might have responded with immediate reprimand or correction—tried to assert control over the room, over the tone. Ilaria did not.

Instead, she simply inclined her head.

A subtle gesture. Nothing excessive. Just enough to acknowledge Reina's presence without indulging the sarcasm.

"You're not late," Ilaria said, voice level, almost clinical in its precision. "You're just the last to arrive."

No chiding. No smile. No sarcasm in return. Just facts, rendered with the same detachment one might use to comment on the temperature of the room. But beneath it, if Reina was listening—truly listening—there was a faint undertone of something else. Not kindness. Not approval. Permission.

A space to breathe.

Ilaria turned smoothly and walked toward the center of the floor again, leaving the young woman time to gather herself, time to process the absence of scorn. Her robes swept behind her like soft parchment, her posture upright but unhurried, as if she had all the time in the galaxy and none of it was being wasted. As if every second spent here mattered—and yet none of it was fragile.

The saber remained at her hip. Still unignited.

"I reviewed your records," Ilaria continued, glancing over her shoulder now with a sharp, assessing calm. Not accusing—noticing. "Your a good fighter, and a hardy one at that. Something tells me you would rather break yourself than give the opportunity for the enemy to do so themselves."

She paused.

Let it sit.

Reina hadn't said anything about her fighting style. Not out loud. But Ilaria's words cut close anyway, just shy of invasive. The kind of close that made people bristle, or reflect, or—if they were too brittle—snap.

But Ilaria's gaze did not press. It waited.

"I'm not interested in repeating the same drills that frustrated you with the droids," she said. "That kind of training turns you into a hammer. Not a duelist."

She began to circle the room slowly, arms folding behind her back. The measured rhythm of her steps contrasted the echo of Reina's prosthesis, creating an audible counterpoint—one organic, one synthetic, both deliberate.

"You're being asked to control a flame that you've spent years trying to ignite," she said. "That's not a failure. It's just an adjustment."

And then, unexpectedly, softly:

"You're not broken."

That was all.

No lecture. No motivational refrain.

Just an assertion. Plain. Brutal in its honesty. A truth presented without performance.

Ilaria had found that such truths, when offered without ceremony, had a way of slipping past defenses. They didn't announce themselves. They just sat—quiet and steady. Like gravity.

 

Location: Tython
Tags: Ilaria Morvayne Ilaria Morvayne
Lightsaber - Pequod

...Already it seemed strange that Ilaria seemed so welcoming. The strange sense of permission Ilaria was giving Reina...By all intents and purposes, Reina should be relaxing. But she was far too use to the opposite. For people to be far harsher, so if anything it was putting Reina far more on edge, as much as she might try her best not to show it.

Either way, she'd unclip Pequod from its sheath. It wasn't ignited, not yet at least, but still held. A small frown slowly coming across her face as Ilaria mentioned Reina's records. Records that Reina didn't even know properly existed herself. Reina wasn't brittle enough to shatter. Not yet at least. But she was staying keenly aware. It wasn't so much as her being wary of Ilaria...but more wary about the concept of someone being able to get access to her records without her knowing...

"I don't get frustrated with the droids. They let me work on techniques I can't do against other people. That I won't do."

Reina wouldn't dare practice her Ataru work in front of another person. It would be far too embarrasing in her eyes to be seen flipping through the air on one leg whilst she dealt with the droids. Especially after the time she had done that, not knowing Katherine had been watching and Reina broke her nose...It was all strange to say the least however as she tried to keep her focus on Ilaria.

She watched as Ilaria started to walk around the hall for a moment, taking in her gait. There was something...familiar about Ilaria. Something Reina couldn't quite put her finger on. She had seen the girl once or twice in the past but there was something about the words...It wasn't like they were being used for some grand performance. An evil Monologue. They didn't want to make Reina shut her ears off and stop listening.

No. It was exactly what Reina wanted to hear.

And that is what worried Reina.

To be told that she wasn't broken. To be seen. To be paid attention to. It all felt too good to be true. There was some kind of game. Some kind of plan that was going on...but she just kept her arms folded, watching Ilaria. She could confront Ilaria verbally. Say that this all seemed too good to her...but at the same time, she wanted to learn more.


 
"Duty. Discipline. Serenity."

Chapter Two: A Mask of Death and Shadow


Reina Daival Reina Daival



Ilaria didn't speak immediately.

She allowed the silence between them to stretch—unthreatening, unfilled. The kind of silence that only certain people could wield without awkwardness. A silence born not from indecision or discomfort, but from restraint. She let Reina's words settle. Let them mean something. That, more than anything, was a subtle distinction most Jedi missed. They rushed to fill silences as though afraid of what they might reveal.

But silence was just another kind of blade.

Ilaria turned slowly at the edge of the dueling circle, her gaze calm and unreadable. Measured. Her movements, as always, were fluid and economical—a study in precision rather than grace. Every step landed exactly where it was meant to, and never a centimeter more. She observed Reina openly now, head tilted ever so slightly, as though framing a question that didn't need to be asked.

"I see."

Two words. Quiet, poised, deliberate. A soft verbal nod to Reina's correction—I don't get frustrated with the droids. Ilaria made no attempt to challenge the clarification. There was no need. She was listening, and more importantly, remembering. Watching how Reina bristled at the mention of her records. How her posture had subtly shifted—tense, not defensive. Wary, not hostile.

The kind of wariness that came from being studied too many times before.

That alone was telling.

Ilaria's hands folded lightly behind her back again as she stepped toward the circle, the low hum of the floor's energy grid casting a faint shimmer across the tiles. She stopped just inside the dueling boundary, but didn't draw her saber. Her stance wasn't one of combat—it was one of invitation. The threshold had been crossed, but the strike had not yet been made.

"You prefer the droids because they don't look back at you," she said at last, the words almost offhandedly spoken. "They don't judge. They don't remember. They don't make things... complicated."

There was no edge to her tone. No accusation. It was simply stated, as if she were discussing the layout of the Temple or the movement of the stars.

Then, more softly: "But they also don't grow."

She allowed the words to linger before moving again—this time slower, more deliberately. She began a gentle circle around Reina. Not invasive, not predatory. Just… observant. Like one might walk around a sculpture. Or a locked door.

"You hide your technique because you believe it will humiliate you," Ilaria continued, voice never rising, never shifting from its poised clarity. "Because someone once saw it and laughed. Or didn't understand it. Or turned it into a weakness."

Her gaze slid across Reina's stance again. The grip on her saber. The way she held her weight—not centered, not eager. Guarded.

"You think if they see you truly—if they see how you move when no one's watching—they'll misunderstand it again. Or worse… understand it too well."

She stopped in front of her then, not close, not far. Just precisely where she needed to be. Not crowding. Not challenging. Simply present. Holding the line between patience and scrutiny like it was an art form.

"That's not weakness," she said.

Another silence followed. This one slightly heavier.

"It's instinct."

She let that hang in the air for a breath before finally, finally reaching to her side. Her lightsaber slipped from her belt with a slow, deliberate movement. She didn't ignite it.

She simply held it in both hands. As one might present a ceremonial blade. Or a key.

"I don't plan to hurt you, Reina."

She said it evenly. Simply.

And yet, the phrasing was deliberate. Not I won't hurt you. Not you're safe here. No false promises. No absolutes.

Just the truth: I don't plan to.

And in that subtle omission—so gently placed—was the real power. Because Ilaria understood something deeper than most Jedi would admit:

Plans change.

"You're right to be wary of people who say what you want to hear," she said, turning slightly, letting her saber rest back at her side. "Most of them want something in return. Or worse—they want to shape you into something else. Something easier to understand. Easier to control."

She met Reina's eyes then. Cool, steady, unwavering.

"I don't want to change you."

That was another truth. And perhaps the most dangerous one.

"I want to see what happens when you're no longer afraid of being seen."

She stepped back then, slowly, almost reverently, and turned her shoulder to Reina in a partial duelist's angle. Not fully squared. Not threatening. But enough to suggest the start of something.

"I'll mirror you," she said calmly. "Whatever form you use. Whatever technique. I won't correct you. I won't critique."

A beat.

"Just… show me what you are."

The invitation hung between them—not kind, not cruel. Just open. Terrifyingly open.

It was not the sort of offer the Jedi usually made. Jedi wanted to guide. Jedi wanted to shape. Jedi wanted to train.

Ilaria was doing none of those things.

She was giving Reina space.

And space was the most dangerous gift of all—because in it, people often discovered who they truly were.

Whether they liked it or not.

She waited, motionless, unreadable.

The dagger beneath her robes pulsed softly against her skin. Not with hunger.

With anticipation.

This was how it began. Not with temptation. Not with lies. But with permission.

Let the girl move.

Let her dance with the truth of herself.

And when the mask slipped—when the restraint gave way—then Ilaria would begin.

 

Location: Tython
Tags: Ilaria Morvayne Ilaria Morvayne
Lightsaber - Pequod

Reina had already began to learn how to wield blades apart from her Lightsaber. Silence wasn't one she knew how to wield but she knew how to defend against it. You didn't let the silence set in. You didn't make noise to counteract the silence, no. That made it appear as if the silence disturbed you. No. You just focused on your own internal noises. Your breathing. The sound of your heartbeat. The blood flowing through your body. And that's what she did. Her own internal body was a shield against the silence as she watched Ilaria move. Reina's gaze taking in the other woman's gait. Her posture. It was still mostly unfamiliar to her...yet that sense of familiarity wouldn't fade...What was going on?

"You believe you can see what I mean. But you don't."

She didn't elaborate. There was no need to elaborate in her eyes. Why would she needed to elaborate on her hatred of droids? The fact that they were the reason she was here. On this path. They had put her out of a job. Put her crew out of a job. Droids were the reason Reina had been sent out into the wider Galaxy. Because they were far more affordable to use for fishing. She didn't care if droids didn't remember. If they judged. Everything judged in a way. Eventually at least.

Yet there was more that Ilaria was wrong in. No-one had laughed at her for failing. If anything, Katherine had tried to uplift Reina. It was strange in a way. Ilaria was trying to read Reina like...a certain someone she knew. Yet she could easily find ways to counter the points the other Padawan made. Ilaria's skills at reading people didn't seem as refined as they could be...or was this all an act? Had she figured out that Reina suspected something was strange? Or maybe Reina was now being too paranoid herself. It was strange how the mind worked that way. Trying to look for some kind of excuse instead of the most obvious reason.

"You might not plan on hurting me, but plans easily fall through. Promises fall through. People can lie about their plans."

Reina was short. To the point. She wasn't going to let any openings out. She had learned not to let people in anymore. More often than not, they'd stab her in the back or leave. Either way. She knew plans could easily change. It was why she had to learn as many different techniques she could. Of course, there was only going to be a select few that she planned on mastering, but that wasn't important for now.

Then she watched Ilaria take her stance, a small smirk slowly playing on the redhead's face. The other Padawan said she'd mirror Reina? It'd be more amusing to see that if Reina relied on her typical style. Her eyes darted towards her prosthesis for a moment which she tapped the crossguard of Pequod on, letting the sound of metal against metal echo through the hall.

"...Unless you can remove your leg, I don't think you can fully mirror me. It's fine. I have alternatives I can do."

At that, Reina took her own stance for a moment, letting Pequod's silver ignite and illuminate her face. There were ways she could give herself an unfair advantage. The technique she had learned from Drystan. The technique she can be working on that was connected to that...but no. She wasn't going to show that. She wasn't going to rely on trickery. No. She'd rely on fighting purely with just her physical capabilities, as she took her Djem-So stance. It had been her second style she had chosen to learn...Well, third if you didn't count Shii-Cho. But Shii-Cho was one that Reina didn't plan on relying on unless she desperately needed to.

"Just try and find out what I am Ilaria."

A taunt. A dare. Her eyes focused on Ilaria's as the redhead took her stance, preparing to face down her Padawan.

 
"Duty. Discipline. Serenity."

Chapter Two: A Mask of Death and Shadow


Reina Daival Reina Daival



Ilaria did not flinch when the saber ignited.

The silver light washed across Reina's face like a flare reflected on still water—beautiful, controlled, and hiding something dangerous beneath. Ilaria's own saber remained unlit, unmoved at her side, its weight a silent promise rather than a threat. She studied Reina as one might study a pattern forming in stormclouds: not with fear, but with awareness. With expectation.

Her eyes narrowed—not in disapproval, but in focus. Djem So. A bold choice. Rooted, explosive. Power through control. A defiant style. A statement. Not elegant like Makashi, not mobile like Ataru. No, Reina had chosen a form that demanded commitment. Stand your ground. Counter with force. Turn the enemy's momentum into their own defeat.

Fascinating.

She had expected Ataru. That was the first surprise. But Reina was not showcasing that now. She was choosing to be seen in another way.

A shift. A shield. A test.

Ilaria's lips parted slightly. Not a smile. A breath.

When Reina spoke—Just try and find out what I am—it was not a taunt in the traditional sense. It was a veil being dropped. A flicker of vulnerability hidden behind steel. Not because she trusted Ilaria.

But because she wanted to be proven wrong about her.

Good.

Ilaria didn't mirror the stance exactly. Reina was right—her prosthetic made that impossible, and mimicking it would've been an insult, not a compliment. Instead, she moved with a ghost of adaptation, sliding into a variant of Makashi's third position. Feet turned slightly inward, blade held at a diagonal across her torso in an almost casual line. A duelist's stance, yes—but altered subtly to anticipate Djem So's forward-driving power.

No flourish. No theatricality. Just readiness.

And silence.

Reina was armed with words now. Short, defensive, honed like blades. Ilaria had no intention of fencing with her in that arena. Not yet. No, she would give Reina what she didn't expect: restraint. Stillness. The absence of judgment.

That would be far more disruptive.

"I don't need to find out what you are," she said at last. Calm. Even.

The silver light of Reina's saber reflected faintly in her eyes, but didn't reach her voice.

"I only need to see what you choose to be."

She let the phrase linger, then raised her own saber—not to strike, not yet, but in preparation. It hissed to life in a line of icy blue, humming softly in the air like the whisper of a storm not yet arrived.

She moved first.

But only a step.

No charge, no aggressive feint. Just a forward slide, light on her toes, blade poised in a defensive cross. A Makashi probing movement—not to attack, but to observe how Reina would attack. Would she overcommit? Would she feint? Would she read Ilaria's movements, or force her own tempo onto the exchange?

She was not testing Reina's technique.

She was testing her intention.

And in that space between movements—measured, precise, slow—there was time. Time to feel. To think. Ilaria wanted to see how Reina responded to that slowness. To the refusal to be rushed. To the unsettling calm of someone who didn't need to beat her to understand her.

Reina's words still echoed in her thoughts. You don't know what I mean. People lie about their plans. Promises fall through.

There was grief buried in those statements. Not anger. Not fire. But grief. Heavy, unspoken. The kind that eats at the bones.

And more than that—there was a sense of expectation. Reina expected Ilaria to fail her. Expected everyone to fail her. That wasn't paranoia. It was a pattern. One carved deep.

But Ilaria would not try to fix it.

Not yet.

Because people like Reina did not want to be healed.

They wanted to be respected.

Even in their brokenness. Especially in it.

The only way to reach her was not to comfort her, but to see her—to accept that edge, that defiance, and never ask her to soften it. Not unless she chose to.

So Ilaria stepped again, her blade adjusting subtly to guard her lead side. Her left foot pivoted—just enough to allow for backward evasion or a tight parry. No flourish. No dramatic posture. Just economy.

"You're cautious," she said, voice low. "But you've been taught to call it paranoia."

Another step.

"You defend yourself with irony. But only because you've already been betrayed by sincerity."

Another.

"You want someone to challenge you without trying to change you."

She stopped.

Let the moment stretch.

"That's what I'm doing now."

Then, silence again.

Not a trap.

An offering.

She would not bait Reina into attacking. She would invite her. Let her decide when and how to engage. Let her control the narrative. That would reveal far more than any aggressive sparring match.

Ilaria adjusted her grip slightly. Her thumb nudged higher along the emitter. A Makashi guard pattern, meant for fast pivots. Her stance was open, but not naive. Precise.

She was not here to defeat Reina.

She was here to see her.

And one didn't see by striking first.

 

Location: Tython
Tags: Ilaria Morvayne Ilaria Morvayne
Lightsaber - Pequod

Djem So was the closest Reina could get to letting her frustrations in a fight. It required strength. Committment and dedication to the fight. It played into how much she enjoyed being in a fight. Ataru was designed around a fight as soon as possible, to prevent exhaustion. And whilst it was a rather effective form most of the time, it was also...disappointing for Reina. As much as she wanted to deny it, she was in her element when she was fighting. It's when the parts of her she kept hidden came out. Her pettiness. Her resilience. Her true self destructive tendancies. Ataru made it difficult for you to continue fighting if you destroy yourself...whereas that was far easier with Djem So to continue pushing yourself forward through the pain. In a perfect Galaxy, she'd have been working on Vaapad...Alas, there was no teacher for that.

In a way, Reina meant that Ilaria wouldn't be able to replicate Reina's stance with Ataru. Their balance would be completely different. Ilaria could rely on both legs, whereas Reina always preferred to focus on landing on her flesh and blood leg. It was one of her gimmicks and that was partly why she didn't want to show it to Ilaria. You don't show every trick you had stored up your sleeves. Her gaze narrowed in on Ilaria's stance. Her mind was already trying to figure out ways to get through it but she had to remember this wasn't a duel to the death. It wasn't really a duel in anyway. But that didn't mean Reina wasn't trying to figure out a way to get past this. Makashi was one of the main duelling styles. Dedicated to fighting against Lightsabers most of the time...Djem So was best applied to Lightsaber combat in response...

She was trying to be more tactical. More strategic than normal. Ilaria was moving forward. Slowly but surely. She probably expected Reina to strike out, to respond with aggression yet she stood still. Lashing out more often than not is what causes her to get hurt. It's why she had the scars along her face. Why her leg was gone. Aggression lead to scars. And whilst she could deal with scars in battle, she wasn't going to focus on that in something that was meant to be practice.

Reina had plans forming in her mind. Various different ones on lines of attack or defense she should take. You had to always have a backup in case your original plan failed. And so she waited for a moment, adjusting her stance ever so slightly. Keeping a singular hand on her hilt for now, a slight variance to the typical two handed grip that came with Djem So. The redhead doing a few small flourishes in front of her, not so much to attack, but more to gauge distance. To perhaps make an opening that Ilaria would take advantage of. An opening that wouldn't actually be there.

"...You remind me of someone, you know that?"

Her eyes narrowed for a moment, a small little glint in her eyes as she took in Ilaria's stance one last time. A small smirk slowly making its way on Reina's lips. As much as she felt numb inside, and wasn't feeling as much enjoyment as she would when sparring...She couldn't lie to herself. This was interesting. Perhaps not fun, but sparring against an actual person allowed for her to make more changes on the fly. To try out potential new tactics.

"...She talks a lot as well. Had to blow up my own eardrums to get her to shut up. Don't make me do that again."

A small chuckle echoed through the hall at that, alongside the sound of the pair of lightsabers. Waiting. Each Padawan trying to test the other. Neither seemingly quite ready to make the first move themselves.​

 
"Duty. Discipline. Serenity."

Chapter Two: A Mask of Death and Shadow


Reina Daival Reina Daival



Ilaria did not smile.

But there was something like a reaction—too small to be called amusement, too brief to be satisfaction. It moved in her eyes like the flicker of a star behind clouded glass, there and gone before it could be named.

You remind me of someone.

Yes. Of course she did.

Serina had burned her name into Reina's world like a scar across a map. Of course she lingered. Of course she haunted. The shadows of predators never leave prey untouched; they remain in the instincts, the reflexes, the way the wind shifts before the strike. Serina had left something inside Reina, something that couldn't be reasoned away—and now that ghost had returned in a quieter shape, beneath a new face, and stood across from her with a practice blade and the patience of the void.

And Reina had no idea she was speaking directly to it.

Ilaria adjusted her stance again—not a change in form, but in presence. Her weight leaned slightly forward. Intent, without invitation. A ripple of pressure against the calm.

Her blade hovered at the ready, the tip just slightly angled down, not in submission but in subtle provocation. Her eyes locked with Reina's, unflinching.

"I imagine she deserved it. Especially after what she did to me."

No defense. No offense. Just an acknowledgment delivered with the precision of a scalpel.

Ilaria had no interest in denying resemblance. She didn't need to mask it. The cleverness in Reina's tone, the narrowed eyes, the subtle provocations dressed as humor—it wasn't an accusation. It was a probe. And that meant Reina wasn't trying to remove Ilaria. She was trying to place her. That was something entirely different.

It meant Reina wanted to understand.

That was good.

That was progress.

"I talk because people fill their silence with lies," Ilaria continued, not moving from her spot, but letting her voice carry cleanly across the dueling hall. "They dress them up in discipline. In strength. In control. But it's still dishonesty. Better to speak the truth while there's still time."

She didn't blink. Didn't flinch.

"You talk, too. Just differently."

Her gaze flicked toward Reina's grip. One-handed. Adaptive. A bluff. Maybe. More flourishes, more misdirection. She was giving Ilaria the impression of motion, of choice, without offering commitment. The hesitation of someone who knew all too well that fighting back first is what gets you punished.

Reina wasn't afraid of pain. That wasn't it.

She was afraid of being wrong about someone again.

That was a far worse wound.

"You're not trying to beat me," Ilaria said softly. "You're trying to see if I'll betray your trust the moment you offer it."

Not a question.

Not a challenge.

Just the truth.

And still, Ilaria didn't move.

Because this wasn't a test of blade work. Not truly.

This was a test of narrative.

She would let Reina write the next chapter.

Let her write herself.

"I can't mirror your stance," Ilaria continued, voice still even, still composed. "And I won't pretend to. But I can match your intent."

Then, finally, she took a step forward—not fast, not sudden. But certain. Her saber raised to a defensive high line, diagonal and close to her body. A stance not meant to threaten, but to accept impact.

If Reina struck now, Ilaria would parry. Not counter. Not punish. Just receive.

She was building a rhythm between them—offering power, then drawing back. Letting Reina breathe. Letting her wonder.

And she was studying everything.

The tap of the crossguard against Reina's prosthetic. The smirk. The glint in her eye that wasn't joy but defiance. She was building herself up again, piece by piece, in the only place she felt real—the fight.

Serina would have torn her down.

But Ilaria?

Ilaria was going to let her grow.

Even if that growth bent toward ruin.

Especially if it did.

 

Location: Tython
Tags: Ilaria Morvayne Ilaria Morvayne
Lightsaber - Pequod

"Some people still fill the silence with lies. No matter their words."

Yet...Reina found it strange that Ilaria knew who Reina was talking about. Especially since it appeared that Serina had done something to the other Padawan. But what? What could it be? If Ilaria had expected Reina to find some kind of kinship in both of them being victims of Serina, she'd be sorely mistaken as Reina kept the grip on her lightsaber.

She was waiting. More often than not when she waited, people had seen her as being indecisive. Unwilling to make a choice. Yet she was making a choice right here. To use her head instead of her heart. Her heart was what got her into trouble. Into incidents that she couldn't walk back out of peacefully. Yet Reina raised an eyebrow when Ilaria said Reina spoke. Differently. Of course she did. She wasn't Serina. Reina would never be Serina. Reina wasn't that smart. That charismatic. And Serina wasn't as stubborn as Reina. Nor as foolish. Yet she shook her head at that thought, dismissing it.

Yet was Reina as foolish as she thought she was? Even as Ilaria proded, giving openings for Reina to attack herself, the redhead did not take them. Slowly pacing herself as she moved around the hall. This wasn't Soresu. Reina wasn't keeping herself firmly locked in place. You couldn't redirect someone's own strikes if you stood still. You had to be constantly on the move, almost in a flowing state. Ilaria might have been building a rhythm between the pair, but Reina wasn't going to dance to it. She'd follow her own tune. Her own mind and heart.

"No-one can mirror my stance. Not truly. Someone can make a facsimile...but it'll always be a copy. Never the true thing."

Ilaria couldn't match Reina's intent. Not truly. Mostly because Reina didn't know her own intent. Did she care about trusting Ilaria? Perhaps. But Reina didn't care about trusting anyone anymore. It wasn't something she wanted to focus on. People betrayed people. Even when they didn't mean to. And especially when they meant to. People would see even the smallest act as a betrayal, even when it had none of that intent to it. Stabbing someone in the back was an easy sign of betrayal. Being lied to. But what about other more obscure ones? Feeling replaced? Being in love with someone who didn't love you back? One could argue that those were acts of betrayal as well.

Betrayal was a part of life. Even Reina had betrayed people in the past. She had told Serina that she'd always be the Sith's friend. That she wouldn't abandon her. But Reina had made that betrayal. And she was going to live with it. There was no need for her to dwell on it. It was done. Because simply said...

Betrayal was a part of life.​

 
"Duty. Discipline. Serenity."

Chapter Two: A Mask of Death and Shadow


Reina Daival Reina Daival



Ilaria did not move to intercept Reina's pacing.

She allowed it—respected it, even. Let her circle like a wolf assessing the kill it didn't want to make. The sound of boots against tile echoed softly, met only by the gentle hum of sabers and the hush of distant wind filtering through the high windows of the Temple's vaulted ceiling.

No guards watching. No instructors judging.

Just two presences orbiting each other in a cathedral of thought and violence.

Reina's words cut clean through the silence.

No-one can mirror my stance. Not truly.

Ilaria inclined her head at that. Not in disagreement. Not even in concession. In acknowledgment. She deserved that much.

"You're right."

Two words, spoken clearly. No need to debate. No smugness. Just truth. The kind of truth that landed quietly, like a coin sliding into a fountain.

Her lightsaber dipped—ever so slightly. Not lowered in surrender, not angled in challenge. Just… softening.

"You're not a copy," Ilaria added, her tone gentle but unwavering. "Not a prototype. Not a lesser version of someone else's story."

She let the pause stretch. Her gaze stayed fixed—not intense, not prying, just fixed, like a lighthouse calmly tracking the tide.

"Do you know how rare that is?"

She let the question hang, not expecting an answer. Then, her voice took on a slightly different shape. The edges didn't blunt, but something within it warmed. Not pity. Not affection.

Something older. Something harder to fake.

Admiration.

"Most people live as shadows," Ilaria continued, stepping just once—toward the center now, not toward Reina, not toward confrontation. The blade in her hand deactivated with a gentle hiss and slid back to her hip. Her body remained open. Relaxed.

"Reflections of what they think they're supposed to be. What they think they need to be. They copy posture. Copy words. Copy confidence. But you—"

Her eyes narrowed, not with suspicion, but focus.

"You fight like someone who refuses to become anyone else. Even when it would be easier. Even when it would hurt less."

Her arms folded across her chest now—not tightly, but firmly. As if weighing something. Her voice was quieter now, and yet heavier.

"I don't think that's foolish."

A beat.

"I think that's the bravest thing I've ever seen."

Still, she offered Reina no comfort in the traditional sense. No smile. No softening of posture. No reaching out.

Just honesty.

A Jedi would have told Reina she should let go of that pain. That attachment. That stubbornness. They would have cloaked it in words like growth or peace. But Ilaria did not call those things virtues. Not here. Not with Reina.

Because what Reina needed was not the permission to be better.

What Reina needed was the permission to be enough.

Right now.

As she was.

"You think betrayal is inevitable," Ilaria said, voice low again. "And you're right."

Her eyes never left Reina's.

"People will fail you. Break you. Replace you. And yes—sometimes, they won't even mean to. That doesn't make it easier. It doesn't make it noble. It just makes it real."

She took another step, slow, not toward confrontation—closer, yes, but still outside arm's reach. Still leaving Reina space to move, to breathe, to retreat if she chose.

"I can't promise not to betray you," she said.

A pause.

"And I wouldn't insult you by pretending otherwise."

There was something raw in the simplicity of that. Most Jedi would have dressed it up in teachings. Would have called it truth, then softened the blade. But Ilaria didn't soften her words.

She honed them.

"But I see you, Reina."

Her voice, now, was something altogether different. Something almost imperceptible in its shift. Not grand. Not maternal. Not warm.

Just present. Steady.

"I see the way you hold yourself."

Her eyes searched Reina's face—not for weakness, not for fear.

For will.

"And I see the fire you're trying to smother."

She took in a breath, slow. Measured. Everything she did was deliberate—but this? This was vulnerable.

"Don't."

That word echoed louder than the rest.

"Don't smother it just to make other people feel safe. Don't dull yourself down for their peace of mind. Don't hide the parts of yourself that they didn't know how to love."

A breath.

Another.

"Because there is always someone who does love them."

She didn't explain who.

She didn't need to.

 

Location: Tython
Tags: Ilaria Morvayne Ilaria Morvayne
Lightsaber - Pequod

This all felt wrong. Not because it felt bad, or because it felt evil. No. Because this entire situation felt good. Reina had came to believe that anything that felt good, with nothing seemingly wrong, was somehow wrong in of itself. It was too...sweet. Sickly almost. Being told that she was right. Being told everything she wanted to hear. It felt wrong. So twistedly wrong that she didn't know whether to embrace it, to fight it or to walk away. To embrace the sickly sweetness and let it drown her or to pull herself out of its sticky hold before it was too late...This was a choice she wasn't sure on what to do.

Her eyes darted towards Ilaria's lightsaber as it dipped lower. Softening. Then she heard the admiration in Reina's voice. And she felt a spark of emotion. Not happiness or joy.. But anger. Reina was nothing to be admired. Not in her eyes. Some kind of twisted broken shell of a woman who sought revenge? That wasn't something to admire. There had been people who had said otherwise. Said things that Reina didn't believe. Though...maybe she should believe them. She had told Everest she would try to love herself at the end of the day...and admiration was a form of that in some ways.

Reina didn't even know she had deactivated Pequod. All she realised was the slight silence in the room, the thumming of Lightsabers suddenly gone from her ears. Had Reina burst her eardrums all over again? Her hand reached up to her ear for a moment, checking to see if any blood would come back on her fingers. Nope. It all seemed clear to her.

"Bravery and foolishness are two faces of the same coin. A coin called stupidity."

Yes. Because more often than not, those who were brave were stupid, and those who were foolish were also stupid. Whilst Ilaria's voice might have been softening, Reina's was still as harsh as ever. She was reacting to the honesty with her own form of honesty. It didn't help that Ilaria kept saying that Reina was right. She was so used to being wrong, that being told she was right set off alarm bells. That there was some kind of ulterior motive. There was a part of her that wanted to trust Ilaria. To trust the sickly sweetness of this entire situation but she couldn't let herself. She wasn't sure if she'd be able to survive another knife in the back.

"And I can't trust you Ilaria. You remind me too much of her. You sound too much like her. Just the opposite coin. She insists I'm always wrong. You keep saying I'm right."

As Ilaria came closer, Reina held out her lightsaber, almost defensively. The blade wasn't ignited, but she kept the crossguard pointed towards Ilaria's collarbone. Almost as if a sign that she didn't want Ilaria to get closer. It was getting far too comfortable for Reina. This was too much of personal space. Ilaria could slip a dagger between Reina's ribs and she wouldn't be able to react.

Don't hide the parts that people don't know how to love? Reina didn't know how to love herself. There were people who loved parts of her. Things she couldn't see. Was Ilaria telling her to love those? Reina's face scrunched up for a moment as she was trying to keep her emotions under control. To keep herself firm in her beliefs. But it was a losing battle. The sticky sickly sweetness was holding her in place.​

 
"Duty. Discipline. Serenity."

Chapter Two: A Mask of Death and Shadow


Reina Daival Reina Daival


Ilaria did not step back.

She didn't step forward, either.

She simply stood, perfectly still, arms resting calmly by her sides, her saber inert at her belt, as if to say: I will not threaten you. But I will not retreat, either.

Her chin lifted ever so slightly—regal, composed, utterly unafraid of the crossguard pointed toward her collarbone. There was no tension in her frame. No flicker of flinching or alarm. If anything, her stillness became more deliberate. A conscious surrender of dominance. An invitation, not an intrusion.

She looked down at the weapon, then back up at Reina.

Unblinking.

Unbothered.

Unmoved.

And then—softly, precisely—she spoke.

"I'm not here to be trusted."

The words came with no bitterness. No sadness. Just the calm certainty of someone who had calculated the truth and decided to live in it.

"Trust is earned, Reina. I don't expect it from you. And I won't be wounded by the absence of it."

Her gaze didn't waver from Reina's face—not the weapon, not the tension in her arms, not the way her expression was threatening to crack like ice under weight. Just her.

"You think I'm the opposite of her," Ilaria continued. "You're wrong."

No heat in the words.

Just quiet correction.

"I'm the same side of the same coin. Just polished differently."

Her arms folded again—not closed, but thoughtful. A slow gesture. Not dismissive. Not defensive.

"I tell you you're right not because I want something from you. Not because I want to control you or seduce your trust or smother your doubt."

Her tone grew firmer—not louder, but more cutting, like silk pulled taut.

"I tell you you're right because no one else has."

The silence that followed wasn't empty.

It was full. Dense with gravity.

She let it settle around them like a truth too large for either of them to name.

And then, she softened again—only slightly. Her voice returned to its quieter form. Still precise. Still regal. Still that faint, aloof edge to it that suggested she was used to speaking and being heard. But there was a warmth beneath it now, buried in the scaffolding of discipline.

"I don't admire you because you're whole."

A beat.

"I admire you because you're not."

She watched Reina then—not analyzing her, not dissecting her—but seeing her, in the quietest, cruelest way that only someone who'd lived with pain could.

"You think your brokenness makes you weak. That it makes everything you touch dangerous. That it makes people leave."

The crossguard was still there. Reina's blade, unlit, but hovering. A physical line drawn between them. One Ilaria did not push.

"But your brokenness makes you real. It makes you matter. Because you've survived things no one sees. And you keep surviving them, even when you don't want to."

She took one slow, measured breath.

"You have earned the right to hate the sweetness of this. I don't expect you to swallow it."

A pause.

"But that doesn't mean I'll stop offering it."

Then, finally, a small motion—so slow it could hardly be called movement. Just the tiniest tilt of her head, just enough to suggest something like sincerity. Or vulnerability. Or grace.

"You don't have to love yourself yet, Reina."

Another pause.

"But if you can't... let me do it for you. Just for a while."

She meant it.

No agenda. No performance.

Just the simplest expression of affection Reina had maybe ever heard—offered with clinical clarity and without conditions.

"I will carry it," Ilaria said, "until you're strong enough to do it yourself."

And then—still unmoving, still unarmed—she said the most dangerous thing of all.

"No one ever really taught you what love felt like, did they?"

The question was asked like a whisper at the edge of the world. As though if it had come any sooner, it would have broken something too fragile to name.

And still, Ilaria didn't blink. Didn't breathe too heavily. Didn't ask Reina to answer.

She simply stood there.

Daggerless.

Judgmentless.

Real.

 

Location: Tython
Tags: Ilaria Morvayne Ilaria Morvayne
Lightsaber - Pequod

She kept the crossguard held out, as a form of protection. This was all too much for Reina. She couldn't let her guard down for anyone. Especially in this moment. Ilaria said she wasn't here to be trusted and Reina couldn't quite wrap her head around that. She couldn't open to it. Even if Ilaria was being honest, it was an honesty that Reina couldn't trust whatsoever. She couldn't let herself be vulnerable.

Reina's entire body went tense when Ilaria said that her and Serina were the same face of the same coin. She might not have wanted anything from Reina. Reina could believe that because Ilaria wasn't lying to her, but at the same time that felt even worse. The fact that Reina was hearing everything she wanted from someone who was basically the same as Serina felt wrong. It felt dirty and disgusting. As if Reina needed to have some kind of scrub to get her words out of his mind.

There was a warmth in Ilaria's voice. A warmth that Reina didn't want to listen to. She admired how broken Reina was. Something that Serina had wanted to "fix". Whereas Ilaria admired it. Apparently it made Reina strong but she wasn't sure how much she'd agree with that. Reina had survived things, yes, but there were plenty of people who had survived something worse than her. Something more extreme or deadly. Faced against monsters of the Dark Side, whereas she had done nothing of the sort.

"I have...someone who loves me. Not in the...romantic way. But...I know how it feels."

Amelia had told Reina what love was. Explained that the feeling Reina had for Everest was that. It had helped deal with the jealousy inside of Reina, because she had realised it was jealousy. But because of that, it had left an emptiness in Reina's chest. A cold dark hole that she didn't know how to treat. How to deal with it. She needed to fill the hole with something, but she didn't want to fill it with something unhealthy.

"...I can't let you love me. You remind me too much of her. I cared about her. Once. I wanted to save her. And she's always wanted to break me. You remind me too much of that. I'm...sorry."

 
"Duty. Discipline. Serenity."

Chapter Two: A Mask of Death and Shadow


Reina Daival Reina Daival


Ilaria didn't flinch.

Not when Reina's voice broke. Not when the crossguard remained stiffly between them like a drawn line of salt and steel. Not even when she heard the word she wasn't meant to hear—not Serina, but the ghost of her. The reference. The memory. The pain that laced every syllable of her.

"I'm sorry."

It came as a closing statement. A seal. A boundary.

But Ilaria didn't respond with sympathy. She didn't try to peel the apology open or force her way through it. She simply stood with the same dignity she always wore—like a cloak drawn tight in cold wind—and let Reina's words settle in the space between them.

Then she spoke.

Not gently.

Not coldly.

Clearly.

"I accept your no."

It was the first thing she said. Nothing more. No disappointment. No push. Just acknowledgment. Like she was honoring a choice, not correcting it.

"You don't have to let me love you."

The phrase was not a retreat. It wasn't some meek concession to Reina's defenses. It was respect. True, terrifying respect—the kind that did not demand closeness in order to remain present.

"But I never asked you for permission."

A pause.

Her voice softened—slightly, just enough to color the air differently.

"I said I would love you. I didn't say I needed you to take it."

She shifted only now, her posture straightening again—not aggressive, not retreating. Simply… upright. Self-possessed. Regal in that unplaceable way, as if she'd never needed validation to stand tall.

"Love isn't always a tether, Reina. Sometimes it's a light you leave on in case someone ever wants to find their way back."

Another pause. She let her words be still, be heavy.

And then: "I see her in you too."

The words landed like a stone in water—calm surface, deep impact.

"She's not gone from you. You still carry her. And she still casts a shadow."

But Ilaria's gaze didn't sharpen. It didn't grow distant or haunted. If anything, it softened again in the quietest, cruelest way.

"And maybe that's why I'm here."

She met Reina's gaze, not with challenge, but with certainty.

"To show you that shadows aren't just for fear."

A breath.

"They're also where you find your depth."

There was silence again. Not waiting. Not heavy. Just open. Like a room with the door unlatched. Like a hand that remained outstretched—not grasping, not begging—just there.

"I'm not here to break you," she said finally. "I don't want to save you. I don't want to fix you."

A small, measured breath.

"I just want to stand with you."

She didn't ask for forgiveness. She didn't ask for closeness. She asked for nothing at all.

And still, she stayed.

 

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