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Private Gratitude and a Secret

You need not worry about me, Iris. I’m not so far along that merely being on my feet exhausts me.” She said, taking a seat. “Atleast, not yet anyway.” Kara chuckled as she got comfortable.

The Padawan sighed, she had forgotten that Iris wasn’t one to express things verbally. It was the art, the frequent painting that was what allowed her to express herself. Unfortunately Kara didn’t have an easel on hand.

I’ll give an example then, not necessarily current, but something I’ve come to learn about myself since becoming a Jedi.

Kara leaned back into her chair, hands clasped together as she thought. It didn’t take long before her mind settled on the training with Valery Noble Valery Noble .

I was a smuggler, before all this.” She said, waving a hand to their surroundings. “Part of a group even, I was a pilot, gunslinger, slicer, whatever was needed. Suffice to say, I was quite gung-ho in jumping into action.” There was a small smile on Kara’s face, the memories were fond, but there was a degree of sadness underneath the surface. “I struggled at first, at being a Jedi. It wasn’t until I was under Valery’s mentorship for a time, that I discovered what I wanted to be.

The blonde Padawan looked straight at Iris.

I want to be a protector, a Guardian. Someone who only raises their lightsaber in the defence of others. For those that I love and care for, and those that cannot defend themselves.

 

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"Right. .. sorry." It was one of those things Iris knew she needed to work on, but really didn't know how. Eventually, maybe.

Eventually.

"Right. Um. I don't know what I want. I can be.. So many things. A healer, a Guardian, a Sentinel. Even a Shadow, if I wanted to be."

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I mean having multiple options in mind is better than none.” Kara chuckled, knowing what place she had been in not too long ago. Before the Jedi, she had just been floating around the galaxy without a real purpose. And sure, getting thrown into the deep end of the Force wasn’t exactly something she anticipated. It was in hindsight something she was glad that had happened.

She knew what she wanted to do, what she had to do.

Kara looked at Iris and thought about the options she had listed. There was no doubt she’d make an excellent healer. Force knows she worries enough for everyone as is, sometimes against her own health. Guardian, Sentinel, she had seen Iris train and fight, there wasn’t any doubt there either.

The last one caught Kara’s interest.

A Shadow, huh? That’s what Valery was, wasn’t she?” The blonde smiled knowingly. “Wanting to follow in your Master’s footsteps?

 

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"Maybe. It just makes me feel.. Spread out. Pulled in too many directions." Too many options just meant too many variables to think about. Pick one path, sacrifice what she could do with the others. But continuing with all of the paths wasn't going to get her.. Anywhere. She needed focus, that was sure.

"Mm. Master Noble was a Shadow for a while. That's not the reason, though. I want to protect people. Kill the big threats before padawan's end up having to fight them."

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Perhaps, but limiting yourself from the get-go will do no good. The fact you’re exploring multiple paths is good. You just need to find the one that interests you most, and shift the focus to that.” At least, that’s what Kara always got told by the orphanage’s teachers. Far too many times she dipped a toe in any subject that caught her interest.

But never sticking to one or two and focusing on them. And look how that had shaped her life until this past year.

Hmm, sounds like you want to strike at the enemy with a scalpel, rather than with a hammer. Take them out before they can rise up to be a greater threat?

 

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"They all interest me. If the wars weren't still ongoing, I'd be focused on learning all of it." There'd be so much she could still be doing if not for the wars. She frowned at the thought. College seemed to far away now. The dream of being a doctor lost in the flames of battle and death.

"Yeah. I guess. There are some foes no one should have to face on. The things I've seen, I don't want anyone to have to face that."

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