Dyllaefi Cridu
Fugitive Flyboy
Stealth was not a mechanical art; unlike in combat, you couldn't fall back on patterns you'd drilled over and over again. There was no autopilot; every movement, every sound and patch of light and shadow, had to be carefully calculated in order to remain undetected. And so Dyll couldn't afford to go on without thinking, dulling his mind against the things he'd seen. He had to be awake, alert, and fully conscious of his surroundings, or dozens of madmen would descend on him and pull him apart. He almost wanted them to end it. He wanted to want that. But survival was the core of his being now. He was incapable of surrender.
Thus, as he took cover behind the blood-spattered refreshment carts, Dyll was fully aware of the screams coming from the haunted house. He was fully aware that the other contestants were being taken there to be tortured into madness, then death. And he really, really didn't want to care. His number one rule was to look out for himself and his own; if he could help without it getting in the way of that rule, fine, he would. Helping the people in that haunted house would cross that line. He would be putting himself in unnecessary danger. He would probably lose the money, the whole reason for his being here.
It was stupid to even consider it. The people being tortured in there would've killed him in a heartbeat to get at the reward; they were less than nothing to him. Letting them rot would solve all of his problems forever. Besides, he already had a reputation as a criminal with too much of a conscience, the smuggler who was too good for slavers; if he turned down hundreds of millions on account of some misguided sense of decency, what crime boss in his right mind would hire him? With the money he wouldn't have to work for slime like them ever again. He could save his family, get married, live a quiet life, forget all this.
So why the kriffing druk was he still sitting there, screams echoing in the tattered remains of his soul?
Because he knew he wouldn't forget. Enough credits to bury himself in couldn't wash him clean of the things he'd seen and done that day. He wondered if he'd even make it as far as his parents' hospital beds before he shoved the barrel of his blaster in his mouth and pulled the trigger. No matter what paradise world he found for himself, no matter what loving company he surrounded himself with, he knew in his heart that he would never scour away these sights and sounds. If he took the money he would be letting himself be a part of this madness. He would be condoning what had happened in this maze.
The galaxy was an ugly place, and Dyll had done plenty to keep it that way. He'd killed and cheated and lied and robbed, and he didn't allow himself a moment's regret. I did what I had to, he told himself. Only this time, he would know that wasn't true. His greed, his desperate desire to find a quick fix for all of his problems, had landed him in the midst of an evil so deep and dark he shone like a star in comparison. He couldn't let himself become that tarnished inside. He might save his family, but how could he look them in the eye? "Kriff the galaxy and kriff me," he whispered, voice hoarse, eyes red.
And then he made for the doors of the haunted house, his back to the money, scattergun in hand. The die was cast.
@[member=Rexus Drath]
Thus, as he took cover behind the blood-spattered refreshment carts, Dyll was fully aware of the screams coming from the haunted house. He was fully aware that the other contestants were being taken there to be tortured into madness, then death. And he really, really didn't want to care. His number one rule was to look out for himself and his own; if he could help without it getting in the way of that rule, fine, he would. Helping the people in that haunted house would cross that line. He would be putting himself in unnecessary danger. He would probably lose the money, the whole reason for his being here.
It was stupid to even consider it. The people being tortured in there would've killed him in a heartbeat to get at the reward; they were less than nothing to him. Letting them rot would solve all of his problems forever. Besides, he already had a reputation as a criminal with too much of a conscience, the smuggler who was too good for slavers; if he turned down hundreds of millions on account of some misguided sense of decency, what crime boss in his right mind would hire him? With the money he wouldn't have to work for slime like them ever again. He could save his family, get married, live a quiet life, forget all this.
So why the kriffing druk was he still sitting there, screams echoing in the tattered remains of his soul?
Because he knew he wouldn't forget. Enough credits to bury himself in couldn't wash him clean of the things he'd seen and done that day. He wondered if he'd even make it as far as his parents' hospital beds before he shoved the barrel of his blaster in his mouth and pulled the trigger. No matter what paradise world he found for himself, no matter what loving company he surrounded himself with, he knew in his heart that he would never scour away these sights and sounds. If he took the money he would be letting himself be a part of this madness. He would be condoning what had happened in this maze.
The galaxy was an ugly place, and Dyll had done plenty to keep it that way. He'd killed and cheated and lied and robbed, and he didn't allow himself a moment's regret. I did what I had to, he told himself. Only this time, he would know that wasn't true. His greed, his desperate desire to find a quick fix for all of his problems, had landed him in the midst of an evil so deep and dark he shone like a star in comparison. He couldn't let himself become that tarnished inside. He might save his family, but how could he look them in the eye? "Kriff the galaxy and kriff me," he whispered, voice hoarse, eyes red.
And then he made for the doors of the haunted house, his back to the money, scattergun in hand. The die was cast.
@[member=Rexus Drath]