Ben Watts
I Am No One
Coruscant
Two Months Ago
Breaking and entering was not something he was quite used to, especially on his homeworld, oh how the times were 'a changin. He once walked the streets of Coruscant openly, smile on his face, meeting with anyone and everyone who would stop and hear him out. Now he found himself skulking around, avoiding people like the plague, and only traveling at night. Of course his being on Coruscant would be headline news. He could read the article in his head already, exiled former Jedi Grandmaster caught breaking into an apartment. He smirked at the thought of his worn out face being on the cover of all the social media. They would have a field day with that.
Now, though, he sat in the darkness of the house that had once belonged to his mother and father before he had been born. He looked around the room and he envisioned himself as a child running around, his mother in the kitchen, his father in the living room. These were things he was never allowed to experience, gifts that had never been given to him, taken for granted by most children. He had always wondered what it would have been like had his mother lived through the childbirth. Would he have still been a Jedi or would he have been with her? Maybe he wouldn't have worried about everything he was forced to worry about now, he would be ignorant, and ignorance was bliss.
For the first time in a very long time, tears streamed down his face, splashing against the pendant he now held in his hand. It was his fathers, the only relic of the man who gave birth to him, he had nothing of his mother. Not even a picture, for that matter, he did not even know what she looked like. He fought the urge to sling the thing against the wall, but years of practice made it very easy for him to calm his emotions, not matter how angry he got it never last for more than a second.
None the less, the pain was real, he was alone and he had no one to go to. No one to talk to about his problems, he was sure there were people who would listen, but who could understand his burden? He had tried, before, but even some of the more experienced minds could not grasp the inner turmoils he struggled with. His failings had been catching up to him, it was the only thing that ever crossed his mind, where normal stress did not bother him.... failing the only thing he held dear was beginning to catch up. Holding onto the image he had harbored for so long was no longer an easy affair, no, it was the hardest thing he could do.
He was done with this Galaxy, he was ready to master death, he wanted to become one with the force. Holding onto the pendant deeply he pushed open the window and he stepped onto the ledge, overlooking the city, he stared down below into the darkness of the streets. It was so peaceful, and for a moment, his mind was clear and he knew what he had to do.
"What are you doing up there?"
*********
Spires of Hell
Present Day
The ease at which he slipped passed the guards was almost laughable. He was getting too good at sneaking around, breaching others minds, and making it seem as if he was nothing more than a shadow in the corner of their eye. Even if they did get a good look at him, he distorted his face with the force, making him seem familiar in a way that they just could not quite put their finger on it. He was like a word that was just right on the tip of the tongue, so close, but just unable to remember what it is. A thought that just shimmers away into the vastness of the mind. The last person who had seen his face was Kiskla Grayson, and that had been months ago, so far there was no word that he was alive so she must have kept his presence a secret.
He had always heard of this place, the Spires of Hell, an imposing name that made sense for such an imposing woman. He had met Ashin on one occasion so far, she was very sick, and she had told him that she was a sleeper agent for the Jedi. The shock he felt that day was comical now. He wondered if she would be shocked when her eyes found him, many thought him to be dead, others thought that he was some hermit who would never be seen again. Both were pretty much the same to him.
Something had not been sitting well with him, how did she do it, how did she venture into the depths of the enemy and become their leader all while in the name of the Jedi. Well, not really the name, but she was a member of the Jedi Order in secret. He had never considered the prospect and he had thought it reckless at one point in his life, why the Jedi would ever send one of their own to the enemy seemed foolish to him but it was beginning to make sense. It was for the greater good, such a broad term, but he understood it now.
Sneaking throughout the halls, he snaked his way towards her presence, avoiding anyone who came into his path. It was somewhat of a game to him, see someone, hide. Someone was guarding an entrance? They need a memory cleansing. He was using the powers he had learned over the years rather liberally now, something he would have never done when he was in the spotlight, but now he needed to use them. He had to speak with her without his presence being found out. This was the only way to move on, the only way to save the Jedi.
Light footsteps approached the woman, Ashin, a sight to see in its own right. She was much less sickly this time, much more imposing, and he felt naked without the overflowing light of the force pouring off of him. That was how he imposed, how people recognized him, but that was not something he had done for many months now.
"So is your security terrible," He pulled his hood back, revealing his face, and leaning forward against the railing she stood in front of. He acted as if this was something they did daily, a trait he had learned from his father, never show fear to anyone. Fear was all in the mind and he did not fear anyone. He feared for nothing but the Jedi, but not in the same sense that most felt fear, it had a much deeper meaning to it. "Or were you expecting me?"
"I have a few questions I want to ask you, if you'll allow me?"
@[member="Ashin Varanin"]
Two Months Ago
Breaking and entering was not something he was quite used to, especially on his homeworld, oh how the times were 'a changin. He once walked the streets of Coruscant openly, smile on his face, meeting with anyone and everyone who would stop and hear him out. Now he found himself skulking around, avoiding people like the plague, and only traveling at night. Of course his being on Coruscant would be headline news. He could read the article in his head already, exiled former Jedi Grandmaster caught breaking into an apartment. He smirked at the thought of his worn out face being on the cover of all the social media. They would have a field day with that.
Now, though, he sat in the darkness of the house that had once belonged to his mother and father before he had been born. He looked around the room and he envisioned himself as a child running around, his mother in the kitchen, his father in the living room. These were things he was never allowed to experience, gifts that had never been given to him, taken for granted by most children. He had always wondered what it would have been like had his mother lived through the childbirth. Would he have still been a Jedi or would he have been with her? Maybe he wouldn't have worried about everything he was forced to worry about now, he would be ignorant, and ignorance was bliss.
For the first time in a very long time, tears streamed down his face, splashing against the pendant he now held in his hand. It was his fathers, the only relic of the man who gave birth to him, he had nothing of his mother. Not even a picture, for that matter, he did not even know what she looked like. He fought the urge to sling the thing against the wall, but years of practice made it very easy for him to calm his emotions, not matter how angry he got it never last for more than a second.
None the less, the pain was real, he was alone and he had no one to go to. No one to talk to about his problems, he was sure there were people who would listen, but who could understand his burden? He had tried, before, but even some of the more experienced minds could not grasp the inner turmoils he struggled with. His failings had been catching up to him, it was the only thing that ever crossed his mind, where normal stress did not bother him.... failing the only thing he held dear was beginning to catch up. Holding onto the image he had harbored for so long was no longer an easy affair, no, it was the hardest thing he could do.
He was done with this Galaxy, he was ready to master death, he wanted to become one with the force. Holding onto the pendant deeply he pushed open the window and he stepped onto the ledge, overlooking the city, he stared down below into the darkness of the streets. It was so peaceful, and for a moment, his mind was clear and he knew what he had to do.
"What are you doing up there?"
*********
Spires of Hell
Present Day
The ease at which he slipped passed the guards was almost laughable. He was getting too good at sneaking around, breaching others minds, and making it seem as if he was nothing more than a shadow in the corner of their eye. Even if they did get a good look at him, he distorted his face with the force, making him seem familiar in a way that they just could not quite put their finger on it. He was like a word that was just right on the tip of the tongue, so close, but just unable to remember what it is. A thought that just shimmers away into the vastness of the mind. The last person who had seen his face was Kiskla Grayson, and that had been months ago, so far there was no word that he was alive so she must have kept his presence a secret.
He had always heard of this place, the Spires of Hell, an imposing name that made sense for such an imposing woman. He had met Ashin on one occasion so far, she was very sick, and she had told him that she was a sleeper agent for the Jedi. The shock he felt that day was comical now. He wondered if she would be shocked when her eyes found him, many thought him to be dead, others thought that he was some hermit who would never be seen again. Both were pretty much the same to him.
Something had not been sitting well with him, how did she do it, how did she venture into the depths of the enemy and become their leader all while in the name of the Jedi. Well, not really the name, but she was a member of the Jedi Order in secret. He had never considered the prospect and he had thought it reckless at one point in his life, why the Jedi would ever send one of their own to the enemy seemed foolish to him but it was beginning to make sense. It was for the greater good, such a broad term, but he understood it now.
Sneaking throughout the halls, he snaked his way towards her presence, avoiding anyone who came into his path. It was somewhat of a game to him, see someone, hide. Someone was guarding an entrance? They need a memory cleansing. He was using the powers he had learned over the years rather liberally now, something he would have never done when he was in the spotlight, but now he needed to use them. He had to speak with her without his presence being found out. This was the only way to move on, the only way to save the Jedi.
Light footsteps approached the woman, Ashin, a sight to see in its own right. She was much less sickly this time, much more imposing, and he felt naked without the overflowing light of the force pouring off of him. That was how he imposed, how people recognized him, but that was not something he had done for many months now.
"So is your security terrible," He pulled his hood back, revealing his face, and leaning forward against the railing she stood in front of. He acted as if this was something they did daily, a trait he had learned from his father, never show fear to anyone. Fear was all in the mind and he did not fear anyone. He feared for nothing but the Jedi, but not in the same sense that most felt fear, it had a much deeper meaning to it. "Or were you expecting me?"
"I have a few questions I want to ask you, if you'll allow me?"
@[member="Ashin Varanin"]