Varus Shatterstar
Finding Purpose

Naboo - Roudy Rodian Bar
12:23 AM
Dark storm clouds were rolling overhead with vicious intent above the city of Naboo, but the storm hadn't broken and might not with that way things looks. At least, it didn't seem that it was going to break just yet, and the city might be clear of it by the time it had decided to. That, however, wasn't up to them. That was up to the force, or the gods, or mother nature herself. Either way, Varus wasn't sure what he believed, if anything at all. He didn't put much stake in anything except what he knew, and what he knew was technology, specifically engineering. It was his first love, but not his only.
He'd always known of the force. He'd always been able to feel it, but it wasn't until just recently that he realized just how profound his grasp on it actually was. A simple twinge of pain or the stress set on by an unruly customer at the shop was all it took to set his pulse to rise, and when he lost his patience or his resolve waned he realized how much things began to change. Items on a desk could shift or break. The ground might shake or a window might crack. Even the air pressure around him could grow so thick that even he couldn't breathe. As a matter of fact, he thought he'd almost killed a man who'd yelled at him when he stepped out in front of a speeder leaving his home that night.
He was almost hit by the fast moving vehicle, which was moving much to fast for that lane to begin with. He'd had to throw himself to the ground and out of the way, which was already enough to make him angry, but the driver had actually had the nerve to call back at him calling him a, "Blind fool!", to which he visibly shook with anger. Standing and glancing over his shoulder at the speeder that rushed away from him, Varus clenched his fists and yelled at the man, "COWARD!" He screamed it at the top of his lungs, anger flushing over him as he could think of more than just a few ways to get back at such an imbecile in that moment. It brought him momentary satisfaction, but when the man's speeder all of a sudden stalled and slammed into the ground below it before skidding into a nearby building, Varus drew in a sharp breath and hurried away.
What was happening to him? Why was he losing his patience so often, and most of all, why was the force so eager to cause chaos in his wake? He didn't want to be a monster and he didn't want to hurt people, but it seemed like it was all he could do. It was all he had done, and though he tried his best, he couldn't keep his anger bottled the way he knew he should. He knew it was dangerous, being force sensitive as he was, but he couldn't even seek help for such a thing. He was afraid of Jedi and Sith alike, hearing stories of how they fought and killed one another, living sad lives filled with nothing but heartache and loss. He would never be able to live that kind of life. He could never get close to someone just to lose them to others like him. Others more powerful than him. It was out of the question.
He'd almost lost track of his thoughts again as a drop of water plucked him on the nose as he walked. The cool orb splashed across his skin and forced his eyes to focus again, bringing his mind back from wherever it had been the past few minutes as he walked on. "No way.", he muttered under his breath as he turned up one of the sidewalks towards a bar not too far from his home called the Rowdy Rodian. It was appropriately owned by rather mean looking Rodian who used to be a professional boxer, and thought this was his destination, it was probably the last place he needed to be. He couldn't think of anything else to calm his nerves than a drink, however, and so his reservations had been pushed aside.
"It can't be.", he said as he pushed the door open to the bar and walked inside as he contemplated the possibility that his touch to the force coupled with his anger was actually pressuring the storm above the city to finally release. "It's impossible.", he said to himself silently as he took a seat at the bar as he sighed and asked for a drink. That's when a slight rippled formed on his brow as he sensed a disturbance around him. It only proved that he was right. This place was the last place he needed to be that night.
"Varus?", a young man's voice, about his age, called out. "Is that Varus I see over there?... Hah! It is!", the voice called again, the slight slur in the words being spoken telling Varus that he was being haled by someone who was drunk and had known him when he was younger. That's when he let out an even deeper sigh before taking a long, well deserved sip of his drink. He then gulped it down as he turned in his seat and cast a blue set of eyes across the bar at a young man who approached him with a pair of men at his heels. When the young man reached him, Varus looked him over and raised his head, as if he didn't already know that this man was the very same man he used to share a room with in the orphanage before he was chosen by a family and taken home to begin a new life. He knew exactly what he was, but he remained silent not wanting to push the tension of his mood.
"What's the matter?", the young man finally said as he reached him. "Not gonna say hi to your old friend?", he said as he reached out and slapped him on the back of the head with an open palm, something Varus wasn't expecting. Though he hadn't expected it, it hadn't been something he would ever put past the arrogant, brash human being that he was and had come to fully embody only a few years later. That realization that he was drunk and acting out, however, wasn't enough to keep Varus from getting angry in that moment. He gritted his teeth and set his drink down so hard that the metal handle on the mug bent ever so slightly.
"Don't do that again.", Varus finally said through gritted teeth, though he refused to brandish them like some rabid, growling dog. "I'm not in any mood for your games.", he said, finishing what he'd had to say before turning away from the young man only to be pushed further. "What's the matter, Varus?", the young man behind him asked, laughing and glancing back at his two friends standing next to him. "Mommy and Daddy never came back?", he said cruely. There was a lot Varus could take, but if the right buttons were pressed he wasn't a ticking time bomb or a short fuse. He simply exploded. This was one of those buttons, and as Varus was visibly disturbed, fists clenching the edge of the metal bar in front of him, he was pushed by a firm hand from the very same man who seemed to have a death wish that night. That's when it happened.
All of a sudden then entire bar shivered, glass shattering as a few of the bottles of alcohol slipped off the shelf behind the bartender. Above them the sky was rumbling, finally breaking and letting it's tears fall earlier than expected. Thunder cracked and the clouds flashed with excitement. The storm had come, and the startling scatter of rain hit the roof of the bar all at once. The next moment, Varus shot up from his seat, his head snapping back and popping the young man in the nose before he could even retract his hand from having pushed him. The next moment was filled with violence as Varus turned and tackled the man into the wall on the other side of the bar and began striking him in the face, to which his friends had reacted and attempted to peel him off of him, though they were thrown aside one after the other.