So I'll start this off by saying I apologize, and that I'd like to be as transparent as I possibly can; and by being as real as I can right now, I'll reveal myself to be a liar. I'm not a new face on the block, in fact I've been on Chaos for quite some time. I can't really give a good excuse for why I'm doing this or why I've tried so hard to cover up who I am - perhaps it's because I never felt truly welcome, or that I've been ashamed by my behavior and mistakes in the past. There are those in this community that I'm fully aware will talk among themselves and pass along judgement and preconceived sentiments, but I don't care anymore.
I'm aware of just how much negative memories stand out here, and how bias has a lot of sway in the way people form opinions when considering things like: "I don't wanna write with this person because of my reputation/their reputation." Or what essentially comes down to someone's ego being too grandiose to come down off of their high-horse. But I don't blame a single soul if they chose not to write with someone whom isn't trustworthy or tries to hide behind "masks" just to feel something close to acceptance or being able to feel like they belong. That in itself is pathetic and cowardly, and the right thing to do is to just own up and face the music. A great many of you probably won't even care about this, and at the end of the day, this is an RP community where things shouldn't be taken too seriously since we're all here for the same thing more or less.
To the people/groups I'm apologizing to: TSE, GA, SJO, NIO, and everyone else who treated me with any shred of respect. I've equally lied to you all and it's time it ends.
And most of all, I'm sorry to you, Chaos. If this all happens to warrant a complete ban from the website, I accept. Once again, I'm very sorry.
I'm aware of just how much negative memories stand out here, and how bias has a lot of sway in the way people form opinions when considering things like: "I don't wanna write with this person because of my reputation/their reputation." Or what essentially comes down to someone's ego being too grandiose to come down off of their high-horse. But I don't blame a single soul if they chose not to write with someone whom isn't trustworthy or tries to hide behind "masks" just to feel something close to acceptance or being able to feel like they belong. That in itself is pathetic and cowardly, and the right thing to do is to just own up and face the music. A great many of you probably won't even care about this, and at the end of the day, this is an RP community where things shouldn't be taken too seriously since we're all here for the same thing more or less.
To the people/groups I'm apologizing to: TSE, GA, SJO, NIO, and everyone else who treated me with any shred of respect. I've equally lied to you all and it's time it ends.
And most of all, I'm sorry to you, Chaos. If this all happens to warrant a complete ban from the website, I accept. Once again, I'm very sorry.
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