A E T H E R
From her early teenage years until her final entry at age nineteen, the then-Sith Academy student Sylvia Virtos kept a diary. The entries were sporadic in nature, more often than not written when something out of the ordinary had taken place. Below are a number of entries from some of the most eventful days at the Sith Academy of Bastion.
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Apparently, writing down your experiences helps with processing them, so I might as well try it. Fingers crossed nobody ever sneaks into my dorm and steals this.
The academy sucks. I was hopeful at first, but everything went wrong right away. Someone joked about my height and being the idiot that I am, I got angry. He laughed, then others started laughing too. Now all of my classmates make fun of me. That's what I get for not having friends right away, I guess. Maybe it will get better if I try to fit in more. Being quiet is definitely a bad thing, I've noticed.
We also got our weekly schedule yesterday. None of the subjects have to do with tech though. I did find something in the library that looked interesting. The book called it 'mechu deru'. Apparently it's pretty advanced stuff, but I borrowed it anyway. I haven't read it yet, but maybe it will explain those things I can do. It's still weird to me that not everyone can handle tech like that.
I should've known things were only going to get worse. Everyone just calls me Rat now. Even the overseer hates me, probably because I don't like fighting back when they make fun of me. I know strength goes above all and that I always need to show that I'm better than my classmates, but I don't want to. Maybe I'm just weak. I guess I deserve what's been happening to me. I hate that I'm only realizing this while I'm writing it down. I really am worthless, huh?
I'm not good enough to be a Sith. I'll get kicked out eventually if I don't get better. I just don't know what to do.
There's one girl who didn't make fun of me today. I don't see her often, I'm pretty sure she's one of those talented students who get private lessons. Normally when other students pass by they'll join in on the bullying, but when she walked in when I was getting pushed around she just looked... sad? I don't know. Only when they stopped did I see her there. You'd think the teacher's pets would be the worst of them all.
I don't even know who she is, but by not picking on me she has been the nicest person I've met here.
I've been practicing some of the stuff from the mechu deru book. I think they messed up the complexity grade, because most of it was actually pretty easy. The stuff I could practice with the stuff I have, anyway. I won't explain exactly what I learned, but you might want to keep anything you want to keep a secret from me off your datapads :]
I've also seen that girl around a few times, now. She's probably really popular, because I constantly see a lot of students hanging around her. They even started leaving me alone when she is around. I guess they care more about being friends with her than picking on me. I'm not complaining.
I have no idea what just happened.
One of my classmates ran into me in the hallway. As always, he called me Rat and laughed at me as he walked by. Thankfully he was alone so he didn't do anything else. The girl was there as well, walking somewhere further behind me. She caught up to me after the boy left, and asked if I was okay. I'm still confused why she'd care, to be honest. She even offered to walk with me to my next class. I thought it was some kind of prank. It was pretty stupid of me to say yes, but she actually was really nice. Her name is Elle, and she entered the academy at the same time as me. Being the shy idiot that I am, I accidently said Ellie instead when she introduced herself, but she seemed to like it for some reason.
She also asked me what class I was heading to. I had a dueling class coming up, and she told me that was one of her favorites. The weirdest thing of all was that she actually offered to practice with me sometime. I said that I'd think about it, mostly because I'm still not sure if it's some elaborate set-up. She said she'd be around our group's training room after the final class tomorrow and wait for me there, in case I ended up feeling like it.
I think I'm going. It's not like things could get any worse at this point if it was some kind of prank.
I did end up going. And it wasn't a prank.
I think Elle might actually just be nice. She was super patient and showed me a ton of helpful tricks that helped me a lot. We were the only two there the entire time, and that was probably the first time I ever felt comfortable here. She was never put off by my frustration when I made a mistake and even cheered me on when I did do something well. I still don't get why she'd waste her time on someone like me, but I'm thankful. She'll probably stop doing that eventually once the others start taking up that time, so I better make the best of it.
I really hope we can be friends, though. It's probably too much to ask.
Apparently, writing down your experiences helps with processing them, so I might as well try it. Fingers crossed nobody ever sneaks into my dorm and steals this.
The academy sucks. I was hopeful at first, but everything went wrong right away. Someone joked about my height and being the idiot that I am, I got angry. He laughed, then others started laughing too. Now all of my classmates make fun of me. That's what I get for not having friends right away, I guess. Maybe it will get better if I try to fit in more. Being quiet is definitely a bad thing, I've noticed.
We also got our weekly schedule yesterday. None of the subjects have to do with tech though. I did find something in the library that looked interesting. The book called it 'mechu deru'. Apparently it's pretty advanced stuff, but I borrowed it anyway. I haven't read it yet, but maybe it will explain those things I can do. It's still weird to me that not everyone can handle tech like that.
I should've known things were only going to get worse. Everyone just calls me Rat now. Even the overseer hates me, probably because I don't like fighting back when they make fun of me. I know strength goes above all and that I always need to show that I'm better than my classmates, but I don't want to. Maybe I'm just weak. I guess I deserve what's been happening to me. I hate that I'm only realizing this while I'm writing it down. I really am worthless, huh?
I'm not good enough to be a Sith. I'll get kicked out eventually if I don't get better. I just don't know what to do.
There's one girl who didn't make fun of me today. I don't see her often, I'm pretty sure she's one of those talented students who get private lessons. Normally when other students pass by they'll join in on the bullying, but when she walked in when I was getting pushed around she just looked... sad? I don't know. Only when they stopped did I see her there. You'd think the teacher's pets would be the worst of them all.
I don't even know who she is, but by not picking on me she has been the nicest person I've met here.
I've been practicing some of the stuff from the mechu deru book. I think they messed up the complexity grade, because most of it was actually pretty easy. The stuff I could practice with the stuff I have, anyway. I won't explain exactly what I learned, but you might want to keep anything you want to keep a secret from me off your datapads :]
I've also seen that girl around a few times, now. She's probably really popular, because I constantly see a lot of students hanging around her. They even started leaving me alone when she is around. I guess they care more about being friends with her than picking on me. I'm not complaining.
I have no idea what just happened.
One of my classmates ran into me in the hallway. As always, he called me Rat and laughed at me as he walked by. Thankfully he was alone so he didn't do anything else. The girl was there as well, walking somewhere further behind me. She caught up to me after the boy left, and asked if I was okay. I'm still confused why she'd care, to be honest. She even offered to walk with me to my next class. I thought it was some kind of prank. It was pretty stupid of me to say yes, but she actually was really nice. Her name is Elle, and she entered the academy at the same time as me. Being the shy idiot that I am, I accidently said Ellie instead when she introduced herself, but she seemed to like it for some reason.
She also asked me what class I was heading to. I had a dueling class coming up, and she told me that was one of her favorites. The weirdest thing of all was that she actually offered to practice with me sometime. I said that I'd think about it, mostly because I'm still not sure if it's some elaborate set-up. She said she'd be around our group's training room after the final class tomorrow and wait for me there, in case I ended up feeling like it.
I think I'm going. It's not like things could get any worse at this point if it was some kind of prank.
I did end up going. And it wasn't a prank.
I think Elle might actually just be nice. She was super patient and showed me a ton of helpful tricks that helped me a lot. We were the only two there the entire time, and that was probably the first time I ever felt comfortable here. She was never put off by my frustration when I made a mistake and even cheered me on when I did do something well. I still don't get why she'd waste her time on someone like me, but I'm thankful. She'll probably stop doing that eventually once the others start taking up that time, so I better make the best of it.
I really hope we can be friends, though. It's probably too much to ask.
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