Varus Shatterstar
Finding Purpose

Corellia
The Wayward Wampa Cantina
There was a place that he could go for solitude on Ossus, of course. That wasn't why Varus Shatterstar was sitting in a dusty, dim lit bar on a Saturday night on a planet he wasn't even entirely sure he was safe on. In fact, it would have been a better idea to find a nice, quiet little spot on Ossus somewhere in it's vast wilderness so that he could meditate. Perhaps it might have even done more good if he'd have chosen to work it all out in the gym so that he could put too much weight on his shoulders or put himself through some ridiculous workout, too strenuous for practically anyone to undergo. It might have even done him some good to just get some sleep, but none of this interested Varus that night. In fact, nothing about his new life appealed to him while his mind was so heavily set in his past, unable to let go of things he aught to have, regardless of his new path as a Jedi.
In the Wayward Wampa there was a table set off to a far corner in the back of the big, single roomed Cantina with a bar laid out in the middle. At that table sat Varus, the tall young man looming over a drink that sat half consumed, icy eyes staring down into the dark mug of beer. He'd slipped away at night about 12 hours prior to that very moment, though he was well aware that despite his practiced guile, someone on Ossus was always watching. Someone knew he was gone, for certain, and perhaps they'd even made sure to see where he was going, though he couldn't say for sure. Whether or not they knew where he was, he did know that unless someone approached him, he'd never be the wiser.
That sounded just fine to him, however, as he sat there staring at the beer below him. It wasn't until he felt a pair of eyes on him that he moved again, turning and glancing from beneath the hood of his leather flight jacket at a young waitress who'd arrived with a fresh drink to hand him. She hesitated when she saw that he was only half through his drink and apologized, starting to pull back the new beverage, but Varus reached out a gentle hand and stopped her. He then reached up with his free hand and pulled the mug up from the table, turning it up to take a couple of large gulps from it before he reached over and sat it on the young woman's tray. "Thank you.", Varus said as he took the beer the woman had been holding, smiled at her and then glanced away as if to dismiss her.
Left to his own devices, Varus was in some ways self destructive, which was something he wouldn't readily admit despite knowing it to be true. That's why, as he sat quietly in his booth, he sipped from the mug he clasped in his right hand staring daggers into the empty seat in the booth across from him with cobalt eyes. He was quiet, but in his heart he was feeling pain he knew he should not feel. That pain that every heart felt, regardless of the walk of life that had been chosen. Though Varus was not a fearful man, or even one to truly know the intricacies of love or hate, he was very much a man who felt pain. Pain wrought from loss and a life alone. For Varus had been forgotten by all but one, and he longed to see that man's face in the booth across from him. He'd have given anything to see Jarrek's smirk as he stared back at him with a cold beer in his hand, a wise crack here and there laced with assurance and reinforcement. The Father he needed, though not the one he'd been awarded.