"Empty."
If being awake without the love of her life by her side was painful, then every moment she spent asleep with no control over what dreams might spring up from the abyss of her heart was torture. The moment darkness clouded her vision and the silent hum of silence was muted by the slip into slumber was the moment the horror began. A blank canvas, bland, beige, with a single figure at the center. Braith. The fabric of the great expanse was endless, no borders in sight, and the figure in the center - her - was colorless and small. The dream began to roll, like a cinema out of some bygone era - an era before her own, at that - in which everything slowly ticked into motion, like a series of photographs that were held together and flipped through at impressive - but noticeable - speed.
The figure turned, remaining still a vague, nondescript, image on a blank canvas, and then the ground - a long, black, sketched line like ink - was brushed into existence beneath it. At once the imagery sprang into life, the backdrop filled with a dark blue that splattered and splotched until it was Braith standing on a black hill against the cusp of night. A dull yellow moon slowly dropped into sight, to which the figure looked up to and began to walk towards. Each step her caricature made was an uphill trek, stars zooming by like smudges of white on a screen, and the figure began to shift and change, grow and age. Time.
Each step the figure took elicited a brief, but clear, memory of the past, a snapshot of her first lesson in reading, an image of her first moonlight stroll, and the scorching heat of the sun when it had burned her daring hand the day she had refused to stay within her childhood cavern. Innocent, a child, she had been, but life and the people of her time and home had raised her into something else. The figure grew horns, a tail, and it hunched over as it slowly began to transition from a slow trudge to a crawl.
The pain in her body and the chill of the night sucked away the will to wake up as she subconsciously realized what she had been - who she was now. Even if she had been innocent at some point, even if she had been naive and ignorant to the truth then, everyone had a choice. Everyone always does. She was fifteen when she killed the first tribal sacrifice, the champion of the neighboring village that had dared to challenge her own's representative. The soul of the man had been removed from his body before his heart had finished its final beat, and it was then that she resigned herself to the situation she had been born into. Goddess of the night? More like dejected witch in the dark. A monster, perhaps, and she blamed everyone but herself.
At last the figure, fully bestial in appearance now, reached the top of the hill and stood on its hind legs, defiant in the face of the moon - the moon it had chased for so long. Acceptance. The moon faded, but as it did she fell. Down the slope the beast went, each thud as it rolled and bounced removing a piece of its horrifying and perverse body until she was again as she had been. Braith the woken, partner to the Jedi Grandmaster, to Corvus Raaf. The figure was human-like again, no horns or tail or claw to signify her evil. Instead there was a cloud that loomed over head, a storm cloud perhaps, and on the canvas another figured came into being - painted in like her, only bright and angelic. Perfection.
The other figure was everything she was not, everything she knew she could never be. Corvus was the opposite of Braith, the polar shift that she always wanted to be. Kind, gentle, wise and patient. The woman was passive, knew defense more than her strengths, and could provide warmth when in pain - even cast out the temptation to kill the defenseless Braith, cast down from her lofty hilltop. Rather than carve out her heart like the thoughts that reverberated in the Jedi's tempted mind screamed to do, the woman had pulled her out of her crypt, out of her hell, and dragged her onto her feet. Taught her to walk again.
Each day, each step - symbolized by the hand-held walking of the two figures as one grew ever brighter and the other faded more and more - Braith knew her new-found friend better, became closer, until the two were connected by more than just a kiss on the cheek. The Alua'an didn't care about pleasure, she didn't care about sex, she cared about the feeling of being connected by bonds - and Corvus was her rock, her anchor, in the wild sea of life. Silara had been her ship to fight the chains that fate had bound her with, to find someone to show her freedom, to cast off death's grip, but Corvus had become the acceptance of it all. Desperation had marred her trapped life and her actions, but as the two figures moved across the flat ink ground those issues began to disappear.
But as she approached another hill, Corvus's hand in hers, she found the painter had another cruel change to make. Life had been perfect, Corvus had been more than that, and everything was simply beyond wonderful - the arrival to the base of that hill, however, had stripped the color from her world again as that light vanished.
Corvus's glowing, beautiful, figure faded from view, and with it went her sanity. The canvas shook, it tore, and from each tear spouted blood as it pulsated and beat. Her body, in the real world, shook in pain, as a sharp pinch shot through her heart. Her heart. When her love had disappeared, so went the source of her life - Corvus had been the heart, and Braith her pulse, or so the Jedi had told her - and the torn canvas that bled freely showed that. The woman that had picked her off the ground and stood her up, shown her the galaxy, flew with her among the stars, and given her a love that she never could have hoped or dreamed for, was gone. Simply vanished, and with it her world began to break, her perspective shattering.
Sanity had left the woman, she became vindictive, angry. Scared. She was dying, slowly but surely, and Corvus knew she had been the hand to hold until she couldn't squeeze in fear any longer. As powerful as she had always been, as mighty as she believed herself to be, she was nothing in the face of death. Arrogance had wrought her ruin, and so had blind faith in another. The figure, writhing in pain like her slumbering body began to in the real world, began to twist and alter from its shape into a deranged creature resembling none of the others before. A fight, a struggle, and then the realization that she was alone sank in.
Stars, moons, comets and worlds passed by as the canvas was smothered by black paint, covering and filling the rips and tears, the blood pushed out and away by the eternal darkness that consumed the painting.
But, as she thought the artwork was coming to an end - and consequentially her life - the stars began to appear in the sky, separated from the "ground" by a white line, and her figure rose out from the black. Now she was alone, back where she started, but with no light to chase after. There wasn't a moon in the sky, not a single reason to keep on breathing, and now Braith welcomed what she had once struggled to avoid. It had become more than inevitable, it was impending - a doom that was unavoidable and coming faster than she hoped to know. The figure lay down, as she did now, and appeared to sleep to pass the time for the end.
As the artwork began to fade, and with it her dream, another figure slipped into the edge of perspective. A downtrodden [member="Kaileann Vera"] would stumble upon the sleeping, cold, and likely dying Alunrovaan on the freezing sands of Sabarene at night. Each frame that ticked by while her dream began to fade drained away something else in her, along with a will that had never really been there to begin with.