Well, where do I begin? I've never tried my hand at a blog before, but I suppose this is as good a time as any. I guess I'll start off by saying that I'm thankful to be part of such a diverse community of role-players and people. There have surely been some ups and downs, but I don't let that discourage me from going forward into the future. I've met everything ranging from rude and hostile, to accepting and uplifting. But one thing I can say for sure is that Chaos holds its own merit for a wonderful blend of fantastic writers and unique thinkers. Now, personally, I come from the world of virtual landscapes and fantasy otherwise known as MMOs which was a huge throw off when I first came here.
I was actually really scared to post anything around here at first for the fear that I wouldn't be able to be held up to the standard most writers here seem to have in doing their stories or just typing up a dev thread for something simple. Basically, I didn't think I had it in me to be part of this community. I felt I would always be an outsider looking in to a place that was so much more refined than merely putting out one-liners or a short paragraph of action and intent, even though I've realized now that isn't entirely true for Chaos. One thing that bothers me from time to time is my lack of interest in the tech savvy part of this community and how I seem to lack in such knowledge. Like, I have no idea what goes into making a ship or even anything to do with corporate and the technicality of companies. Perhaps it's my own lack of professionalism? Maybe I'm just afraid of being seen as inferior or dumb.
There really is much I wish to delve into and explore on Chaos, even if I'm not particularly well-versed when it comes to the intricacies of what goes into the Force or perhaps the mentality of Jedi and Sith. As far as I'm concerned, I know practically nothing aside from what I've taught myself and make myself believe as necessary or practical. I strive to be better, as it is in my competitive nature to stand among the powerful and fight against any whom I feel intimidated by. Perhaps that's my reasoning for always wanting be Sith-aligned or my excuse to be swayed by the Dark Side of the Force. I've always found something interesting in the Empire and all of its incarnations, something more beneath the surface other than rage and selfish desire. Perhaps I use it as a personal reflection and a comfort to know that I'll always be able to come up with ideas for a self-reliant character as opposed to someone who calls for the aid of alliance and peace.
Eh, I feel like I'm dragging this on. I'm probably gonna grab some lunch.
I was actually really scared to post anything around here at first for the fear that I wouldn't be able to be held up to the standard most writers here seem to have in doing their stories or just typing up a dev thread for something simple. Basically, I didn't think I had it in me to be part of this community. I felt I would always be an outsider looking in to a place that was so much more refined than merely putting out one-liners or a short paragraph of action and intent, even though I've realized now that isn't entirely true for Chaos. One thing that bothers me from time to time is my lack of interest in the tech savvy part of this community and how I seem to lack in such knowledge. Like, I have no idea what goes into making a ship or even anything to do with corporate and the technicality of companies. Perhaps it's my own lack of professionalism? Maybe I'm just afraid of being seen as inferior or dumb.
There really is much I wish to delve into and explore on Chaos, even if I'm not particularly well-versed when it comes to the intricacies of what goes into the Force or perhaps the mentality of Jedi and Sith. As far as I'm concerned, I know practically nothing aside from what I've taught myself and make myself believe as necessary or practical. I strive to be better, as it is in my competitive nature to stand among the powerful and fight against any whom I feel intimidated by. Perhaps that's my reasoning for always wanting be Sith-aligned or my excuse to be swayed by the Dark Side of the Force. I've always found something interesting in the Empire and all of its incarnations, something more beneath the surface other than rage and selfish desire. Perhaps I use it as a personal reflection and a comfort to know that I'll always be able to come up with ideas for a self-reliant character as opposed to someone who calls for the aid of alliance and peace.
Eh, I feel like I'm dragging this on. I'm probably gonna grab some lunch.
