Account: Mi'la Undari
Entries:
Entry: #1
27-1-861 ABY
Day: 1
0:30 am
Today is my first day on Gazian. The first day of the rest of my life really, maybe. I didn't tell Master Sakadi where I was going, or what my intentions were. In fact, I made an effort not to tell anyone. It's probably better that way, for everyone involved. Something is wrong with me, my connection to the Force isn't what it used to be. It's changed, it's different, like...listening to your favorite song and knowing it's out of key. I read that long term social isolation isn't good for the mind so, I'm making this journal. Just in case I don't come back. It'll let me think about these things, processing and all that. So, here I go. May the Force be with me, right?
Entry: #2
02-2-861 ABY
Day: 5
7:15 am
I lost track of time. I went in for what I thought was a few hours, and it's been almost a week. I can't even begin to process what this is like. The planet itself is...a force entity. At first I thought I was dead, I just fell down in this sea of trees and, well I woke up on Tython. I found a woman there, she didn't tell me her name though. She just talked circles around me, about connections, and links, and frankly I didn't understand most of it. I asked her what she was going on about, and she just looked at me sternly, then next thing I know, I woke up back on the platform.
I'm going to get some sleep and eat, then I'm going right back in. Maybe in a day or two.
Entry: #3
9-2-861 ABY
Day: 12
21:30 pm
I feel like I'm getting somewhere now. Before, I thought something was wrong with my force connection, but after talking with...whoever the heck that was, I realize that my understanding is merely changing. I didn't lose the force, but my interaction with it is changing, and if I'm not careful, it could destroy me. I think I'm finally understanding this whole connection thing now. I'm a part of the force, and my understanding and nature can affect and change others, I think? I'm not sure. I talked to some man named Lor today, he kept telling me he wasn't a jedi, that no one I talked to here is, but I don't know what that means. Anyways, he told me that there's someone I need to speak with to get what I need. I need some rest, these trips are draining me.
Entry: #4
9-3-861 ABY
Day: 38
01:30 am
This is getting out of hand. Every time I go into the Living Sea, more and more time passes, but I feel like I'm close to making a break through. I spoke to someone that reminded me about that Yenna, I think his name was Vandar. Did the whole backwards talking thing too. He brought up my force connection, and my jedi commitments, and I realized as we spoke that I have been keeping myself from accepting my place in the galaxy. I didn't realize that at first. I know my connection was weak, but-
I'm tired. I'll write more tomorrow. Everything is becoming clear now.
Entry: #5
3-6-861 ABY
Day: 98
14:05 pm
This is starting to drive me crazy. I'm starting to get concerned if I keep this up I'll end up being stuck here for years, but I'm learning so much. I spoke with Master Draay, I think she was the same one I spoke with on my first day. Anyways, she stressed that my connection to the force now, prevents me from drawing on the force as now jedi do. Instead, my connection will become stronger with connecting with others. I remember this being a 'force bond', things that padawans and masters develop. Anyways, I need to get back out there and work on remaking connections, but I've learned all of these masters I've talked to were from eons ago. Like, ancient times. I have to wonder, is there any more knowledge they might have? Even if it's not the real them, there has to be something more I can learn right? But, I really should be going. I don't have supplies to stay here forever.
Entry: #6
10-3-862 ABY
Day: 403
18:30 pm
I really over did it this time.
I need to get back out there, eventually. First, I need to restock my ship, and take a shower. Ugh. I wonder what's been going on?
Entries:
Entry: #1
27-1-861 ABY
Day: 1
0:30 am
Today is my first day on Gazian. The first day of the rest of my life really, maybe. I didn't tell Master Sakadi where I was going, or what my intentions were. In fact, I made an effort not to tell anyone. It's probably better that way, for everyone involved. Something is wrong with me, my connection to the Force isn't what it used to be. It's changed, it's different, like...listening to your favorite song and knowing it's out of key. I read that long term social isolation isn't good for the mind so, I'm making this journal. Just in case I don't come back. It'll let me think about these things, processing and all that. So, here I go. May the Force be with me, right?
Entry: #2
02-2-861 ABY
Day: 5
7:15 am
I lost track of time. I went in for what I thought was a few hours, and it's been almost a week. I can't even begin to process what this is like. The planet itself is...a force entity. At first I thought I was dead, I just fell down in this sea of trees and, well I woke up on Tython. I found a woman there, she didn't tell me her name though. She just talked circles around me, about connections, and links, and frankly I didn't understand most of it. I asked her what she was going on about, and she just looked at me sternly, then next thing I know, I woke up back on the platform.
I'm going to get some sleep and eat, then I'm going right back in. Maybe in a day or two.
Entry: #3
9-2-861 ABY
Day: 12
21:30 pm
I feel like I'm getting somewhere now. Before, I thought something was wrong with my force connection, but after talking with...whoever the heck that was, I realize that my understanding is merely changing. I didn't lose the force, but my interaction with it is changing, and if I'm not careful, it could destroy me. I think I'm finally understanding this whole connection thing now. I'm a part of the force, and my understanding and nature can affect and change others, I think? I'm not sure. I talked to some man named Lor today, he kept telling me he wasn't a jedi, that no one I talked to here is, but I don't know what that means. Anyways, he told me that there's someone I need to speak with to get what I need. I need some rest, these trips are draining me.
Entry: #4
9-3-861 ABY
Day: 38
01:30 am
This is getting out of hand. Every time I go into the Living Sea, more and more time passes, but I feel like I'm close to making a break through. I spoke to someone that reminded me about that Yenna, I think his name was Vandar. Did the whole backwards talking thing too. He brought up my force connection, and my jedi commitments, and I realized as we spoke that I have been keeping myself from accepting my place in the galaxy. I didn't realize that at first. I know my connection was weak, but-
I'm tired. I'll write more tomorrow. Everything is becoming clear now.
Entry: #5
3-6-861 ABY
Day: 98
14:05 pm
This is starting to drive me crazy. I'm starting to get concerned if I keep this up I'll end up being stuck here for years, but I'm learning so much. I spoke with Master Draay, I think she was the same one I spoke with on my first day. Anyways, she stressed that my connection to the force now, prevents me from drawing on the force as now jedi do. Instead, my connection will become stronger with connecting with others. I remember this being a 'force bond', things that padawans and masters develop. Anyways, I need to get back out there and work on remaking connections, but I've learned all of these masters I've talked to were from eons ago. Like, ancient times. I have to wonder, is there any more knowledge they might have? Even if it's not the real them, there has to be something more I can learn right? But, I really should be going. I don't have supplies to stay here forever.
Entry: #6
10-3-862 ABY
Day: 403
18:30 pm
I really over did it this time.
I need to get back out there, eventually. First, I need to restock my ship, and take a shower. Ugh. I wonder what's been going on?
