Location: The Silver Rest, Kashyyyk.
Subject: To be a Jedi.
Master Naetre and I spoke about a lot today, and she had Caedyn with her this time, for a while at least. He seemed a bit strange though, sitting back most of the time just listening to us while Amaly asked me how I was doing and all the usual stuff we've talked about.
It was nice to see him again, but it almost felt like I had done something wrong like he was there to see if I was being good or not...He ended up leaving though when we had finished our self-reflection stage and after that Amaly seemed to want to talk about other their people and what they do for the Galaxy...
I've never really thought about other worlds and what they might be going through before recently, but Amaly asked me how it made me feel about thinking whether or not other people might have been treated the way I had, and how that might affect them and their lives.
Of course, it sucked being somebody else's slave, why on Kashyyyk would I want to think about it happening to others? I asked her that and she told me that Jedi go out to try and help people the way Caedyn and the girl had gotten me away from the Disciples on Arcadia. She also asked me if I wanted to be someone like that, someone who kept people safe from that kind of life. I thought she was joking at first...But she then told me that Caedyn had also thought it was a good idea.
To be honest I don't know if I would make a good Jedi. They sound like really talented people, and I'm not sure I'm good at anything really. Nothing I can really think of anyway. The sound of going out to other worlds and having to face down criminals and that kind of thing, I dunno how I'd be in front of someone like that. I can't even leave the room here without my mind racing and starting to stutter when I have to speak to someone!
The thing is, I also don't want to have to leave this place. I don't have anywhere else to go and I don't know what I'd do if they kicked me out of here. I don't have any credits and these clothes they gave me are all I own...-Apparently, I can keep the datapad which is awesome, but someone would probably try to steal it if I was out on my own. People aren't very nice out there, that's for sure.
So...In the end, I told Master Amaly I'd like to give it a shot. I'm not exactly sure what I'm getting myself into but apparently, I'm going to be sharing a room with another student so...-I hope they're nice.