He considered her question seriously. Truth be told, Jarven didn't know why he would charge in even if it was a trap. Jarven was just an open book like that. "Well..." he started. "...I usually hope it's not a trap. I try to stay optimistic. Sure, it hurts sometimes, but I'm used to...the pain...." These last words presented themselves as a sobering thought, bringing all sorts of memories, emotions, and meanings to Jarven's mind. "I would want someone to help me when I'm in distress, so I try to lead by example. If you had shot me...well, it would have been lose-lose in that case, so it's not like I'd be taken advantage of."
He took the drink and sipped it. It started out somewhat delicious, but then it turned into something BAD. "Mmm---Blech!" Said Jarven as he sipped and spewed the drink away from Ren. His pupils started to quiver and narrow as a reaction.
As he listened to her speak, he couldn't help but become seized by emotion. He tried to ignore it, but it continued to grow. He chuckled weakly as he said, "I understand, Ren. I know it's just a joke..." His voice trailed away. He tried to change the subject, but his voice caught and tears started to spring to his eyes. He quickly tried to wipe and hold his eyes for a second before looking down at the ground and addressing Ren.
"Ren...What I said about being an only child was true, but not while growing up. I lived in a small mercenary community of Ganks. I had plenty of "brothers and sisters". But...uh..." The memories were flooding in now, and he didn't want to her to see the tears continue to collect and run down his face, so he ashamedly looked at the ground. "They're dead...now....They were killed...and I couldn't save them...."
He didn't...He didn't want to start sobbing right in front of his friend. He REALLY didn't. There's no telling how much she would be disgusted by his display of weakness, or so he thought. He really didn't know what to expect, but in this case, his mind prepared for the worst case scenario: Rejection. Instead, his face grimaced in emotional retention, still looking directly down at the ground to minimize her line of sight on his face. He held his jaw with his right hand and his left hand accidentally crushed the wooden cup.
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