WolfMortum
OOC Account
[member="Paige Argous"]
The vast emptiness of space surrounded the dormant durasteel hulk that was The Baccara, the modified YT-1300 Corellian Freighter baring the Inquisition Industries insignia upon it's hull; the only sign of it's affiliation to any one reputable group. Seated at the helm, the cockpit viewing port arcing over him, Zarack Zorathi sat in the pilots seat, his shoulders slumped and his forehead being supported by his right hand, fingers pinching the bridge of his nose as he remained motionless; save for the rise and fall of his upper half, taking slow intentional breathes as he tried to unwind from the situation that had developed back on Demonsgate at the behest of his Master.
He did not feel much like the boy that he had been back on Eriadu anymore, it seemed difficult to find his reflection resembling anything of the youth mixed up in the poverty stricken district fighting to support his brother in the absence of family security and structured livings. No longer did he have the reason to battle for anyone but himself, that niche for supporting the younger Karrus, having kept him in-line and able to see a light at the end of the tunnel so to speak.
Here, there was no light. Here there was only himself and the memorable screams of the people that he had chosen to kill. The decision made of his own right mind, knowing that consequences would await his return had he failed to deliver in some way, a result that might please Shinju Ayashi, the woman that seemingly had him on a leash despite all that he despised her and her methods for controlling others.
His entrance into the discovery of the Force and his potential to wield it felt like anything but what he'd have expected had he seen it coming. He was now armed, a blaster and two lightsabers though he rarely made use of the second; a freighter that he'd named after the Black Rose itself more so because there was little else that came to mind that he could consider his own. The ability to travel throughout the galaxy that had once only been a pipe dream as he lay awake during the polluted nights of the lower levels back home listening to the neighborhood that rarely sounded of anything but criminal activity and hostilities. In hind sight, perhaps it was no wonder why he had wound up where he had but living with himself was another struggle entirely.
What he had done on Demonsgate was an entirely other level of injustice, he had trespassed and killed under the pretense that if he did not, his master would kill him in turn for his failures. One wrong to excuse another, yet didn't take away from the fact that he had done so in cold blood and for little more but selfish and desperate earnings. Having powered down the bulky freighter, he had been seated for a time he could not recall, his eyes away from the visible present, closed and flickering as he tried not to relive every death over and over through visual recollection. Zarack was not well trained in the Force, he had little to no experience in using it and his survival thus far had been based purely on his instincts and a stroke of luck, in his mind than what mysterious power he'd seen guided by the hand of his Master. The lights had not dimmed yet in all his angst, he'd failed to notice that the room had dimmed into a steady depression, a shadow of an aura that was his own, casting a gloom upon all that surrounded him, his expression broken and eyes giving birth to tears, tormented by his guilt and furious at himself and the life that he'd been forced walk through; knowing that his pride would not allow him an end without fighting, clinging to some hope, independence and the strength to shape his own future.
The vast emptiness of space surrounded the dormant durasteel hulk that was The Baccara, the modified YT-1300 Corellian Freighter baring the Inquisition Industries insignia upon it's hull; the only sign of it's affiliation to any one reputable group. Seated at the helm, the cockpit viewing port arcing over him, Zarack Zorathi sat in the pilots seat, his shoulders slumped and his forehead being supported by his right hand, fingers pinching the bridge of his nose as he remained motionless; save for the rise and fall of his upper half, taking slow intentional breathes as he tried to unwind from the situation that had developed back on Demonsgate at the behest of his Master.
He did not feel much like the boy that he had been back on Eriadu anymore, it seemed difficult to find his reflection resembling anything of the youth mixed up in the poverty stricken district fighting to support his brother in the absence of family security and structured livings. No longer did he have the reason to battle for anyone but himself, that niche for supporting the younger Karrus, having kept him in-line and able to see a light at the end of the tunnel so to speak.
Here, there was no light. Here there was only himself and the memorable screams of the people that he had chosen to kill. The decision made of his own right mind, knowing that consequences would await his return had he failed to deliver in some way, a result that might please Shinju Ayashi, the woman that seemingly had him on a leash despite all that he despised her and her methods for controlling others.
His entrance into the discovery of the Force and his potential to wield it felt like anything but what he'd have expected had he seen it coming. He was now armed, a blaster and two lightsabers though he rarely made use of the second; a freighter that he'd named after the Black Rose itself more so because there was little else that came to mind that he could consider his own. The ability to travel throughout the galaxy that had once only been a pipe dream as he lay awake during the polluted nights of the lower levels back home listening to the neighborhood that rarely sounded of anything but criminal activity and hostilities. In hind sight, perhaps it was no wonder why he had wound up where he had but living with himself was another struggle entirely.
What he had done on Demonsgate was an entirely other level of injustice, he had trespassed and killed under the pretense that if he did not, his master would kill him in turn for his failures. One wrong to excuse another, yet didn't take away from the fact that he had done so in cold blood and for little more but selfish and desperate earnings. Having powered down the bulky freighter, he had been seated for a time he could not recall, his eyes away from the visible present, closed and flickering as he tried not to relive every death over and over through visual recollection. Zarack was not well trained in the Force, he had little to no experience in using it and his survival thus far had been based purely on his instincts and a stroke of luck, in his mind than what mysterious power he'd seen guided by the hand of his Master. The lights had not dimmed yet in all his angst, he'd failed to notice that the room had dimmed into a steady depression, a shadow of an aura that was his own, casting a gloom upon all that surrounded him, his expression broken and eyes giving birth to tears, tormented by his guilt and furious at himself and the life that he'd been forced walk through; knowing that his pride would not allow him an end without fighting, clinging to some hope, independence and the strength to shape his own future.