WolfMortum
OOC Account
Bastion of Ren,
Virgillia.
Recovering from the recent battle with death, Brennan Cabrol lay upon bloodied sheets, his body resisting the cybernetic modifications dealt to him in order to save his life in an attempt to further serve the First Order and the will of Seiger Ren. Back upon Bespin, he had sought to give his life for the cause when finding himself pitted against three foes who were proving his better. Their blades carved through his flesh like a hot knife did butter, his legs severed at the knees, his left arm taken from the shoulder and his hip cut through to the mid-section where his lower spine had been severed and in what he had thought were his last breaths, he had torn the place asunder with the ignition of two Incendiaries hoping to take them all down with him. He knew not the state of their lives to date, since the operation that now left him bed-ridden and rested upon his back, every inch of his torso rife in pain and fueling his frustrations picturing his enemy as vividly as he did that day, his aggression was beginning to take shape upon the faces of those who had been instructed to assist him. Already he had managed to get rid of the assistants the First Order had brought in, forcing them to opt for someone of greater experience in one of the Knights of Ren's own people, [member="Kayla Wylen"] of whom Brennan had been told was both incredibly gifted but so too a Disciple like himself, giving him far more confidence in their ability purely on that basis and being forced to temper his behavior as there would no doubt be further consequences should he seek to intimidate or betray the truth of his mood before her.
He had failed in his mission, he had killed one of their own due to the Jedi's manipulation of their movements and had been unsuccessful in taking down the enemy. Giving his life for the cause had been his redemption and yet that chance had been taken from him by the First Order when they kept him from the brink of death. Why, he didn't understand. He struggled to comprehend the social interactions and cognitive and emotional patterns of others, his path was paved by direction and purpose since the Sith had killed off the life he had first hoped to live. The Jedi Order had failed to protect him and all those he had come to love and in his years of captivity and torture, his path had finally led him to the First Order. When he had given all that he could give for them, ready and willing to die for them and trying, they had brought him back. They had done more for him than anyone else had, and most significantly was the reinforcement behind the fact that he had always found their methods, their dictatorship and imperialist ways to give them the ability to succeed where others failed; weakness spread from one corner of the Galaxy to the next yet here, even in his failure, the Knights of Ren stood firm in Order. The hand of the Supreme Leader upon their shoulders.
It was to become another chapter in Brennan's life, the final death of his former self and the reintegration and rediscovery of who he was to become in the shadow of the Ren. It was going to be trialing, to come to terms with what had happened, to overcome the hatred that so threatened to consume him. His former Mentor within the Jedi now living upon Commenor was but a footnote of his frustrations at the time, pushed back in the darkest depths of his mind his intolerance for their kind redirected towards the Galactic Alliance, the real enemy of progress in the galaxy. As he awaited whatever company Kayla Wylen was to bring him, he vowed within himself that he would strike hard and fast against their aggressors to make up for his shortcomings. At this point, he was anything but worthy of standing amongst them, in his eyes.