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First Reply No Place for Monsters

The garden was carved into the heart of the city like a wound that refused to close. Neon towers loomed above, their cold light bleeding through the canopy of engineered trees. The air smelled faintly of wet soil and ozone, the kind of sterile peace only wealth could buy. A stark contrast to the streets outside, where noise and smoke never slept.

Korda Veydran sat on a stone bench near the edge of a fountain. His helmet rested beside him, its scarred beskar catching the lamplight like a dull star. Heavy plating clung to his frame, blackened and battered, but for once he wasn't moving like a battering ram through some breach. His gauntleted hands rested loose on his knees, claws of scar tissue visible beneath the armor's edges.

His red eyes caught the reflection of lanterns rippling in the water. For most, it would've been a moment of quiet. For Korda, it was an interrogation.


Monster, the word echoed again, as it always did when silence pressed too long. They had branded him with it — his clan, his kin, his enemies. Perhaps it was true. He had torn down walls, reduced squads to ash, detonated charges close enough that even brothers-in-arms had recoiled. A warhead in human flesh.

And yet, looking at the flowerbeds — carefully arranged, blooming where nothing natural should thrive — the question coiled tighter. Could a man like him even exist in places like this? Or was he only a shadow cast by fire and ruin, out of place in a world that built instead of broke?

He muttered to the night, voice low and rough as gravel ground beneath a boot.
"Don't belong here."

A soft clack echoed along the path behind him — the scrape of boots on stone. Someone else was here. The garden wasn't as private as he'd hoped.

Korda didn't move for his blade, though his shoulders tightened like a storm waiting to break. His red gaze lifted, catching the flicker of another presence through the lantern-lit leaves.

"...Strange place to find company," he growled, words carrying more weariness than threat.
 

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"...Strange place to find company," he growled, words carrying more weariness than threat.

"...Sorry."

Phobos slowly stepped out of the brush, her hands folded awkwardly in front of her. She had come here to escape the harshness of the city, hoping to reconnect with the natural world. What she found was an armored man not looking to be disturbed. His tone was tired, sporting a bit of edge.

A large cloak covered her, the hood up to shroud her head. Cover the unnatural flames that made up her hair. A faint glow was slightly visible under the hood, but it veiled her strangeness well enough.

"I-I was just passing through," she assured. "I may depart if you wish for such."


 
Korda's eyes flicked to the figure, the faint glow under her hood catching the light of the lanterns. He studied her for a long moment, hands still resting on his knees, fingers loose but twitching slightly with old tension.

Then, almost imperceptibly, the corners of his mouth twitched. Not a grin, not a show of friendliness — just a shadow of acknowledgment. His voice came low, gravelly, but softer than usual.

"You're welcome… if you don't mind a monster sitting beside you," he said, letting the words hang in the quiet air. For a heartbeat, he didn't move, didn't reach for his weapons. A flicker passed through his red eyes — a trace of something he rarely allowed himself to feel. "But… I won't bite."



He shifted slightly on the bench, gesturing to the space beside him. "Sit, if you must. The garden's… more forgiving than the streets."

Phobos Phobos
 

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"You're welcome… if you don't mind a monster sitting beside you,"

"Monsters do not speak in gentle tones," Phobos mused, tilting her head under her hood. "If you... mean to express that you are flawed, I have found that most people are."

The young woman moved over to the bench, walking in a manner that made her appear as light as a feather on her feet. From certain angles it may even appear, if momentarily, that she was walking on air as opposed to the ground. Phobos sat herself down on the far edge of the bench and politely folded her hands in her lap. Her hands sported four digits, three fingers and a thumb. Her species was unclear at a glance.

The sound of a sigh escaped her lips, but it was almost artificial. As if no air had even escaped her.

"I do find cities to be... overwhelming," the young woman stated. "It's a bit to disconnected from life for my liking..."


 
Korda gave a short, humorless laugh at her words — more a rasp of breath than anything else. His gaze fell to his gauntlets, the scarred beskar plates blackened from a hundred blasts and etched with the worn Death Watch symbol across his knuckles. The crimson sigil seemed to glare back at him under the lanterns.

"Gentle tones don't wash the blood off," he rumbled. "These hands have done worse than most care to imagine. I've torn walls apart with charges still burning. Crushed men who never even raised a weapon."

His fingers flexed slowly, metal creaking against scar tissue beneath. "My own clan called me too brutal. Said I endangered honor itself. So they named me monster, and cast me out."

For a moment, his red eyes lifted from his fists to the flowerbed ahead — colors alive, untouched by ash or fire. The contrast lingered like a knife. His voice dropped lower, rough, almost reluctant.


"Maybe they were right. Maybe a monster is just someone who doesn't flinch when the flames spread to the innocent."

Korda's gaze shifted toward her at last, the glow beneath her hood reflected faintly in his feral irises. "Still want to share a bench with me, knowing that?"


Phobos Phobos
 

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"You seem capable of reflecting on this fact," Phobos stated. "A monster can only consume mindlessly. It does not look back on its actions with regret."

Phobos turned and offered a gentle smile. Her timidness had slipped away, revealing an obvious tender nature. In her travels, the young woman had seen the depths of darkness. The Bendu had told her such thing was the path of weakness. Perhaps it was. That did not change the fact that she wished to see others not abandon hope.


"I am not in danger," the Ashspawn said with certainty. "The past belongs to those who have moved on. I'm in the present. I am only beholden to what is chosen right now in this moment."

 
Korda studied her for a long time, the faint glow beneath her hood playing across his scarred features. Her words didn't wash over him — they hit, heavy, like charges set too close to the chest.

His jaw tightened, and he gave a slow exhale through his nose. "You speak as if choice is clean. As if the present isn't built on the bones of what came before." His red eyes dropped back to the sigil scarred into his gauntlets. The Death Watch mark looked older than he felt, carved deep enough to outlast any regret.

"Regret doesn't undo the things I've done," he muttered. "It doesn't bring back the children who burned because I lit the fuse too close. It doesn't wash the screams out of the beskar."


But then, almost against his will, the hard line of his mouth twitched. Not quite a smile — more the ghost of one. "Still… you're either brave, or foolish, to sit here and tell me I'm no monster. Either way…" he lifted his gaze back to her, eyes burning like coals in the lantern-light, "…I don't mind the company."

Phobos Phobos
 

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"It doesn't bring back the children who burned because I lit the fuse too close. It doesn't wash the screams out of the beskar."

"You're right," Phobos nodded. "And yet, you reflect anyways. What is your path forwards? Do you seek to continue to harm? Do you believe you have no choice in the matter?"

An airy chuckle escaped her chest as she leaned back on the bench, her feet kicking in a rhythmic way.


"I am not naive, just observant," she insisted. "The galaxy is quite vast, and you meet many people when you see it jumping from transport to transport. There are some who revel in the violence and let the blood wet their appetites. They do not allow themselves to come to the crossroads you sit at here."

Something strange had begun to happen. The grass at her feet had slowly, though at first not noticeably, begun to grow taller. Flowers seemed to spring up out of nowhere, at first not visible but now alive and present. Her own eyes were glassy and vibrant, a reflection of a world unseen by the naked eye. It was as though she could peer at the essence of his very spirit as it stood in the turmoil of his past actions.

"I have sat with many who have come to these same crossroads," the young woman noted. "I am happy to keep you company as well."


 
Korda's hands tightened over his knuckles, and for the first time in years, the weight of everything — the walls he'd breached, the lives he'd ended, the exile, the solitude — pressed him into something he couldn't armor against. His head dropped, shoulders shaking subtly beneath the heavy plating.

A strangled sound broke free, raw and uneven — more sob than grunt. Red eyes, usually so sharp and predatory, shimmered with unshed tears that reflected the lantern light like smoldering embers.

Her voice — soft, patient, unwavering — cut through the storm of memory. Something in the cadence, the gentle reassurance, stirred a ghost long buried: a face, a laugh, a touch he'd thought lost forever.

"I… I…" His voice cracked. "You sound like… like her."


A trembling breath escaped, and he let himself lean forward, elbows on knees, as more tears fell unheeded. For once, there was no mask, no feral bravado — just a man weighed down by the ghosts of love and violence alike, and the strange, unearned comfort of someone who did not flinch from seeing him break.

Phobos Phobos
 

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"I… I…" His voice cracked. "You sound like… like her."

"I'm sorry."

Phobos just sat there and allowed the man to cry. It was healthy to do so. Holding onto turmoil only left one unable to move on. That is what created Sith, after all. She had seen those who had been consumed by their feelings, unable to grow past everything.

And yet another thing was made clear to her: Love. Monsters couldn't feel love. They could only twist it to hurt others.

After a moment she spoke again.

"I... remember loving someone," she remarked with a mutter. "I do not recall what their face looks like anymore. It's... almost like I have something following me from a life I do not remember..."

Her gaze shifted back to the armored man.


"What was she like? The 'her' you remember?"

 
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Korda's breathing slowed, though the tears still traced raw lines down his scarred face. Phobos's question cut deeper than any blade. For a long moment, he said nothing, as though afraid speaking would shatter what fragments of memory he still carried.

"She was…" his voice wavered, gravel roughened by grief. "…my equal. No—my better. Strong. Fierce enough to take me down in a spar and laugh while doing it. She fought like fire itself, but… she was gentle when the armor came off."

His gaze unfocused, red eyes distant, as if staring at a ghost beside the bench. A faint, broken smile pulled at his lips. "Same height as me. Eyes that never looked away, even when I was at my worst. She carried scars too, but wore them like honor, not shame. To the clan, she was brutal — in the dueling ring, she was a storm no one could match. But to me…" his breath caught, chest heaving as fresh tears threatened, "…to me, she was peace."

The smile faltered, crumbling under the weight of memory. "She died in that same ring. A duel gone too far. She never yielded. Even bleeding out, she smiled at me… like I'd won something, though all I did was lose everything."

Korda's fists clenched against his knees, armor groaning with the force. He finally dragged his gaze back to Phobos, eyes raw and wet but unflinching.



"That's why your voice… it feels like her shadow. Strong, but gentle. It cuts me open in ways even blades can't."

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"Maybe... it isn't about cutting you open," Phobos reasoned. "Just cutting open your shell. The thing you've encased yourself in to hide from the world."

She paused, offering an awkward smile.

"It's sweet of you to suggest that I'm strong, but I'm no fighter," she noted. "I'm just... a wayward soul who listens more than they talk. Maybe that accounts for all the 'cutting words' I say when I do speak. There's a lot to hear on the intergalactic hyperlanes. Maybe that accounts for something."

She heard a lot. She saw a lot. There was always something in motion, something changing, and Phobos always found herself being dragged along by the currents of the galaxy. That was, after all, her purpose.

To bring peace to the right places at the right time.


 
Korda let out a low, uneven breath, dragging a gauntleted hand across his face as though he could wipe away the tears and the shame both. The beskar groaned as his shoulders slumped, his bulk seeming smaller for once.

"…I shouldn't have laid all that on you," he muttered, voice rough. "I've fought beside warriors who'd sooner spit in my face than hear half of what I just said. And here I am—dumping it all on a stranger in a garden."

His eyes flicked toward her, the usual feral fire in them dimmed to something more human. "I'm sorry. You didn't ask for that weight. Didn't deserve it."

He let the words hang, then gave a faint, self-mocking huff of air. "Guess the shell cracked more than I thought."


For a long moment, his gaze lingered on the flowers that had sprung up around her feet, the quiet proof of her presence. A hint of something softer bled into his tone, almost a whisper. "Still… thank you. For not turning away."

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"Sometimes the best aid we receive is from a stranger," Phobos mused. "There is no certainty that you will ever meet again, and there is no awareness of one's past. It is easier for you to meet others where they are, then, rather than where they've been."

Phobos understood this better than anyone. It always seemed like she was encountering strangers that helped her in some way. Perhaps this was her way of putting some of that good will back into the galaxy. It hardly mattered, regardless. She was here now, and her presence was very clearly making an impact. She nodded in acknowledgement of the thanks, but little more. After all, she was not here to be praised.

"What do you wish to make of yourself now?" she asked. "I understand that it can be difficult to forgive one's self for past transgressions, but... perhaps you are blinding yourself from the path that allows you to bring some light to the galaxy. Even if it does not change the past, there is still merit in improving the future."


 
Korda leaned back against the bench, the heavy beskar groaning with the motion. Her question lingered in his ears like a charge waiting to detonate.

"What do I wish to make of myself…" he echoed, the words heavy, foreign. His jaw worked as though chewing stone.

Finally, he shook his head. "I don't know if I've got that answer. The galaxy's built on chains — governments, codes, orders. All of them trying to leash men like me. And I've never been one to wear a leash."

His gaze dropped to the ground, to the flowers that had sprung up between the cracks of the paving stones. "Anarchy… chaos… maybe that's all I know. Governments can't hold me. Clans cast me out. All I've got is being a mercenary. Selling my strength to whoever's willing to pay for fire and ruin. It keeps me alive, but…" He hesitated, the words grinding out of him like metal on stone. "…I don't know if it's enough anymore."

He rubbed at the Death Watch sigil on his knuckle plate, the gesture half unconscious, half ritual. "Maybe all I'll ever be is the warhead people point at their enemies. But hearing you speak, seeing this—" his eyes flicked to the unexpected flowers, "—it makes me wonder if I'm blinding myself, like you said. Maybe there's something else… but I can't see it yet."


His red eyes lifted to her, raw and uncertain. "What light can a man like me bring, when all he's ever done is burn?"

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"What light can a man like me bring, when all he's ever done is burn?"

"There are ways to help others that don't involve bringing fire," Phobos reasoned. "Maybe you wish to use your talents to defend rather than attack. Maybe you just want to lay down your arms and live a peaceful life. Whatever the case is, people don't just give up after a fire. They rebuild... trying to make something better for the next generation."

Phobos folded her hands a little tighter in her lap.

"Maybe if you don't believe in yourself, you can believe in someone else," she mused. "Someone you can teach to be better."

For a brighter future. Everything was going to come down to the next generation at some point. That was where they needed to invest their time.


 
Korda's eyes stayed on the garden, though the burn scars along his cheek caught the light of the rising flowers. His helmet rested heavy on the bench beside him, silent and accusing, like the mask he'd lived behind for so long.

"Honor…" he muttered, the word dry in his throat. "They told me it meant standing above others. Cutting them down. Proving strength, no matter the cost. And I believed it. I carried their creed like a blade, sharp and unquestioning."

His hand lifted, staring at the scarred knuckle plates where the Deathwatch sigil was carved deep into the ceramite. A bitter smirk tugged at his mouth, but it never reached his eyes.


"But what if that was never honor at all? What if I was just their hound, wearing the leash and calling it freedom?"

The smirk cracked, and the weight of his exhaustion showed through. He shut his eyes for a long moment, shoulders sagging. "You speak of teaching. Of leaving something better. But what could I ever teach but the fire I've lived in? The only lessons I've ever given the galaxy…" He exhaled, almost a laugh, but too broken to be one. "…were in how to burn."


When he opened his eyes again, they were wet, but steady. "Perhaps I never understood what honor was in the first place."

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"You speak of teaching. Of leaving something better. But what could I ever teach but the fire I've lived in? The only lessons I've ever given the galaxy…" He exhaled, almost a laugh, but too broken to be one. "…were in how to burn."

"You could teach what to avoid," Phobos suggested. "A father tells his sons and daughters his mistakes in the hopes that they will not repeat them. He wishes for them to live more virtuous, just lives so that they may not know his own pain..."

Strange. Had somebody ever told this to her? The words were nostalgic. It was as though she was reliving something she didn't even remember. How...

Peculiar.


"If your honor was real or not doesn't matter now," she decided. "You still live and breath. What you choose next is in your hands only. I can only offer suggestion... Even so, I hope that it has helped... if only a small amount. To be trapped in the past is... to condemn the future as well. Even the future of those around us. The only place in that future we have is what we decide for ourselves."

For better or worse. They could be teachers and help others avoid their mistakes... or burn it all to the ground.


 

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