Private Good Day for fishin' ain't it?

[Reina Daival]

Tag: Valaine Valentine
Location: Manaan

"It didn't feel silly at the time. It felt like the only way I could take my life into my own hands. And even then, it still failed. I was taken away. Transformed. My entire life changed and I couldn't do anything to stop it..."

Her eyes flickered to over towards Valaine's hand on the railing. The imprint being left on the railing, as if Valaine was squeezing it for dear life. Was it because of something Reina had said? Or was it because she was speaking again? She was oblivious to what was going on in the Sangir's head. Instead she focused on the question about Coruscant, shaking her head.

"I don't know. I found out one of the Masters died. They had a...memorial for him whilst I was captured. I never got to say goodbye to him. I wasn't...overly close to him. They might be able to understand me not being there...but I can't."

At the end of the day, Reina was her worst critic. She was the one who always put pressure on herself when no-one else did. It caused her to break more often than not. It was something she'd have to figure out how to solve. And it was true that this was a nice conversation. But...with the way Valaine had been gripping onto the railing?...

"...I think I should stop talking for a while. My voice might be getting to you. I'm sorry if it is. I don't...want to influence you. But what I will say Valaine is...it still matters. It's not too late. You aren't stuck in your ways. Very few people are...By the Spirit, I sound like some kind of self help guide."

She sighed, letting out a small giggle afterwards. Why could she give this advice to other people, but never listen to it herself? Maybe she needed to listen to it.
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[Valaine Valentine]

Tags - Reina Daival

"If I were in your position I'd have considered my own survival the only option to truly spite the person I was dealing with." she answered, and it was true, she'd gotten herself into plenty of trouble already because of her spite in the face of powerful people. Sometimes she paid dearly for it, but there's always one constant; she survives to spite again.

She let out a calming sigh as she hesitantly reached a hand forward, making it very clear and known that she was doing so, so that she could give a reassuring pat upon Reina's shoulder if allowed. "Definitely sounds like you're trapped in your own thoughts while surrounded by people who just accept you for who you are. And I mean, I get it, been there too. Still there sometimes." Likewise Valaine also wondered she couldn't just take her own advice sometimes too... Truly similar in more ways than one, these two.

The influence was strong now, she just wanted to keep listening to Reina, keep her attention on her, and so when she mentioned that she should stop speaking, the very dangerous cycle began. "Hm? Oh, I wouldn't worry about it, it's fine right? I don't think it's even effecting me really." she answered, eyes not breaking off of Reina for a moment.

She hummed thoughtfully, biting her lip in thought before she replied. "I don't know though, you've got no idea who I am or what I've done. You'd think very differently if you did. But I like your optimism. Just a shame you can't seem to apply it to yourself too."

 

[Reina Daival]

Tag: Valaine Valentine
Location: Manaan

"It was spite in a way. She wanted to control my life. Make it what she wanted. So I wanted to take that out of her hands. I've been plenty spiteful with her before. I cut off my prosthesis when she tried to break it. I blew up my eardrums when she tried to monologue to me. I can...be pretty petty."

Strange. Strange how similar they were once again. Reina wasn't sure how to feel about it. The last person she thought she was similar to ended up stabbing her in the back. Was she really willing to trust someone like that again? What if this was all an act of Valaine's behalf...She shook her head at that thought, flinching ever so slightly at the pat on her shoulder. Reina still wasn't used to physical contact.

"It's hard to get out of my head. I used to not care. I closed myself off from the Galaxy. Didn't care about anyone but myself...but the Jedi have made me care about others."

Reina then turned her attention towards Valaine, this time breaking out into a small smirk at the way the Sangir's eyes wouldn't leave her. It had been...disturbing earlier but this time? Now that there were starting to understand each other better, it didn't feel as bad. Though Reina still didn't want to be the center of someone's attention.

"You sure about? Since the way you're looking at me is implying otherwise."

Either way, Reina reached her hand over towards Valaine's shoulder, giving it a small squeeze to try and be there for the Sangir.

"You're right. I don't know who you are. Or what you've done. That doesn't mean you can't change. You don't need to let what you are affect /who/ you are."

In the way, that was what Reina needed to believe herself. Just because she had been changed. Been transformed into an Ersansyr, that didn't mean it had changed who Reina was. Though in all honesty? It had changed her. For the better. It made her more introspective on things.

"I'm...going to stop talking now though. I don't want to influence your choices Valaine. I don't want to influence anyone."
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[Valaine Valentine]

Tags - Reina Daival

Again familiarity rang in Reina's words. She recalled the spite she showed someone too, how she constantly refused her approaches, how she even made to strike her mask. How humorous that the two had held spite for the same individual, but would likely not come to realize it. "Ah.. Then I'd commend you for that at least. I like to thrash against control too." she replied as her tired eyes remained locked upon her. Valaine knew very little about the Jedi, save that they were apparently her enemy... But if their order worked out for Reina then she supposed she'd just have to accept that it was best for her.

Upon being confronted about the influence upon her mind Valaine tilted her head curiously. It had taken such a hold of her that she could no longer separate her own thoughts from it as she shrugged. "You think so...? ... I... Really can't tell." she answered honestly as Reina's hand reached for her own shoulder. Even then her gaze didn't divert away from Reina's as she felt the hand upon her.

Amidst the conversation the Sangnir couldn't help but smirk at the two of them sharing advice they both should've taken themselves. But as Reina once more spoke of ceasing to talk, that cycle continued; "Mm? But you've got such a lovely voice." she commented. She was trapped in that cycle until the other would truly would stop talking to her. A dangerous power indeed, that voice of hers.

 

[Reina Daival]

Tag: Valaine Valentine
Location: Manaan

"Mhm."

Reina just gave a half-committed mumble to Valaine's commendation. The conversation had been nice at first, but it seemed like it was time for her to stop talking. There was a small part of her in the back of her mind that thought she should continue talking. Did it really matter if she was influencing someone else? Especially when she could perhaps influence Valaine for the better? Help give her hope? But that would be false hope. And Reina didn't do anything fake. She wasn't good at lying. Never had been. No matter what some people might have said.

The silence felt strange. For a while there, Reina had ended up liking the sound of her own voice. In a way, this trip had been a lot more...helpful than Reina had expected. It was helping her growth. Helping her to heal into a better person. Or at least letting her make the choices to be better than who she used to be. Free will was something she would never want to take away from anyone. Even if it could help them, people deserved free will. Deserved to make choices that could destroy or save them.

...Ew. When did she start to get so philosophical off her own thoughts? Reina broke out into a smile at that, staring out amidst the waves. Maybe this wasn't going to be as bad as she thought though. Maybe she was still here. Despite everything, it was still her.​

 

[Valaine Valentine]

Tags - Reina Daival

After Reina had stopped talking it took a little while for that influence to start fading, and it was perhaps a very awkward silence as the Sangnir continued to stare at her. But eventually... it seemed she was able to look away again. She wasn't as panicked in trying to get away before she said anything she'd regret now though, perhaps some lingering influence still floating in her thoughts... But she still had to make a departure just in case.

With a gentle calming sigh she traced a finger along the imprint on the railing she had caused earlier. "I uh-..." she began. "... Yeah, it did hit me. Sorry. I know it's not my fault, but I felt the need to apologize anyways." she spoke before looking back to her. "That being said... I do need to go. And before you get into your head, no, it's not because of you." It kind of was. "I've just got some things to take care of is all. I really do like your company." she spoke honestly.

She brushed a hand through her dark hair, tucking some of her locks behind a pointed ear. "As I've said before, you'll get through all this, and I do hope we'll bump into each other again. And when we do, I'll expect to see some progress you know?" she smirked lightly as she took a step back.

"And... I'll try take what you've told me to heart too. So promise you'll do the same, hm?"

 

[Reina Daival]

Tag: Valaine Valentine
Location: Manaan

At the very least, Reina was proving to herself and Valaine in a way that she wasn't going to use her voice to take advantage of people. It would have been so easy for her. For the woman who didn't want people to leave her behind to use her voice to stop them...but it also went against who she was. It felt strange to have someone apologise to her however. Reina wasn't used to others saying sorry. She was the one who was used to doing it.

She hesitated as Reina decided whether or not to speak again before shaking her head. She hoped that both her and Valaine would make some progress on each other's worries and insecurities, but there was a part of Reina, deep down inside of her, that was worried about it. The last person she had this kind of heart to heart to, whilst out fishing, ended up vanishing. Reina had never seen them again, even though they were meant to have been like an older sister to her...

It didn't matter though. Reina wasn't going to force Valaine to stay. Instead she raised her thumb up to give Valaine...well, a thumbs up. It was her way of making the promise without speaking. She really needed to find someone to help her control her voice...But that could come another day. For now, she just picked up her fishing rod and got back to work ready to use it. She was going to hang out here for a bit longer, even if Valaine was leaving.​

 

[Valaine Valentine]

Tags - Reina Daival

And so with a smile and a little wave of her fingers she turned and departed, though noticeably she kept some distance from the edge of the water.

Despite the powers of her voice she felt she had an enjoyable conversation with Reina, and she had meant it when she said that they could become awful friends together. But knowing what Valaine knew now, that Reina was jedi, she feared that such a friendship was going to be tumultuous at best...

At the very least she had prevented causing her more grief by hiding her identity, and so she gave herself a mental pat on the back for that. Maybe she really was becoming a better person... She'd always be a terrible Acolyte though.