Cora
Resentful agony
I’ve walked these streets more times than I can count, but they still don’t feel like mine. Nothing does.
I keep my head low, so sick of catching my reflection in every damn window. Sick of the scar that reminds me of every mistake I’ve made. So sick of pretending I’m something I’m not.
I thought leaving the Order would give me freedom. Instead it feels like I’m caught in the same spiral, spinning out and not learning a thing from it.
Running in circles. Even when I’m standing still.
The air tastes like metal and stormwater. This district is loud, yet somehow everything feels muted. Like the world’s happening a few inches above where I stand. Like I slipped beneath the surface without anyone noticing.
Maybe that’s why I walk at night. The dark doesn’t expect anything from me. It doesn’t care if I’m barely holding it together. If I’m coming undone.
The city murmurs around me. Somewhere a ship lifts off, and its engines send a vibration through my bones. Streetlights flicker like they’re mocking me. I keep walking anyway, because if I stop, the frustration might swallow me whole.
I tell myself I’m just clearing my mind. But I know the truth. I’m searching for something I can’t name.
Maybe someone will cross my path. Maybe no one will. The night leaves room for either.
I keep my head low, so sick of catching my reflection in every damn window. Sick of the scar that reminds me of every mistake I’ve made. So sick of pretending I’m something I’m not.
I thought leaving the Order would give me freedom. Instead it feels like I’m caught in the same spiral, spinning out and not learning a thing from it.
Running in circles. Even when I’m standing still.
The air tastes like metal and stormwater. This district is loud, yet somehow everything feels muted. Like the world’s happening a few inches above where I stand. Like I slipped beneath the surface without anyone noticing.
Maybe that’s why I walk at night. The dark doesn’t expect anything from me. It doesn’t care if I’m barely holding it together. If I’m coming undone.
The city murmurs around me. Somewhere a ship lifts off, and its engines send a vibration through my bones. Streetlights flicker like they’re mocking me. I keep walking anyway, because if I stop, the frustration might swallow me whole.
I tell myself I’m just clearing my mind. But I know the truth. I’m searching for something I can’t name.
Maybe someone will cross my path. Maybe no one will. The night leaves room for either.