Between remembrance of the past ...moving forward. [Connor]

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It might as well been yesterday rather than more than a season that past. When he'd returned, devoid of any memory nor idea of the past he'd once lived. How much that had changed....and after much work along with the help of others.

He could piece some of it together....thought much work had still be done. Once of which what was brought him here.....where part him did not dare go for so long. Where deep in the catacombs lay a link to his past. His Master before his disappearance who as far he'd learn. Had died valiantly in battle....which was one the few things that bother him still.

So take the advice of one the healer he figured he'd waited long enough. And that it was time make peace with the past by facing it head on,,,,

So with a heavy heart and let out a deep sigh. He made his way down the catacombs to for once.

 

[000]

Once there Ronin could help feel the sense of sadness at the same time fear. For it seems for the longest time the desire of wanting to know his past had been gnawing in the back of his mind.As the void and seem deep emptiness he felt so unbearable. Especially during those first few season after he awoke. Barely alive in some faraway colony in the edge of space. With nothing less than few item at hand that left him with more question than answers. Then the days following after that when in some strange ways he slowly realize. He was not quite like the other as much he'd tried. That there were things he could do in times of great distress or duress that defied explanation. That all but made him a fear of the future coming to the realization perhaps there was a reason. For why the past was lost to him......so from then on he'd stay away from knowing or the wanting to know. Hiding out in the far depth of the universe. Till day he was found.....and slowly come to realize.

This other life.....the past he once lived....seem so foreign and alien to him. In a way gave him hope that perhaps things were not as bad it seem. That in one his last session with one the healer and meeting with a close friend before . A possible reason for the torment he felt first few season after his awoke. Could be due to the fate that befell her as reading thru what little he could in the archive about her. He came to figure he'd probably been close to her. In a way akin to a son would be as in his brief wandering he came felt the same with the family that took him in during his early recovery. That however hard it was he'd depart from their company as soon he could. Fearing and believing his presence seem only bring them more harm and danger than good.

Which seem to be the same way he somewhat felt when he first arrived here. So much so that even when he came know of the catacombs. And the notion his Master effigy and being there made things hard. That for a while he took to wandering and not wanting to face the past ......as one his healer suggested. till today.

When he'd somehow sum up the courage to make himself come here. To visit her resting place and offer what little he could abet it seem been much too late. That he was still here and try his best stay the course she'd always believe he could. Despite others misgivings......the haunting dark phantom from which he could feel the pull. Of dark and light with each passing day as the feeling of disconnect or loss ate into the foreground of his mind....thought. Conflicted and lost in the reality of what he once was and was at that time.....so he slowly and silently walks forth.