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Private A Different Kind of Strength

Nitya lowered herself beside him with an easy familiarity, scarcely giving any thought to the rich earth beneath her as she settled at the edge of the planting hole. She had spent enough years tending these gardens that a little soil on her clothes had long ago ceased to matter. It was simply part of the work, as ordinary as the scent of growing things or the breeze that wandered through the terraces each morning.

For a quiet moment, she watched Marrok instead of the sapling. There was something quietly remarkable about seeing him here, sleeves dusted with earth, hands occupied with something that had nothing to do with battle or survival. Earlier that morning she would never have imagined him kneeling in a garden with such patient concentration, yet now the image seemed as though it had always belonged. Somewhere between tea, conversation, and shared silence, he had begun to fit naturally into the rhythm of the monastery. She found herself unexpectedly glad that she had been there to watch that happen.

It pleased her more than she expected.

Not because he was following her instruction perfectly, though he certainly listened with remarkable care, but because somewhere along the way he had stopped trying to prove that he could do it correctly. Earlier that morning he would have measured himself against an imagined standard, searching for evidence that he belonged here before allowing himself to believe it. Now he was simply present. Learning. Participating. The difference was subtle enough that he might not yet recognize it himself, but she did, and watching it unfold filled her with a quiet happiness that settled warmly beneath her ribs. She could not remember the last time another person's growth had felt so personally rewarding to witness.

His observation about dirt being relaxing drew another soft laugh from her, one that lingered easily between them as she gathered another handful of loose soil. "Gardens have a habit of slowing people down," she said. "There are very few things here that respond well to urgency. Plants are remarkably unimpressed by our schedules." Her eyes sparkled briefly with amusement as they drifted toward him. "They tend to insist that we learn theirs instead."

Together they continued filling the space around the roots, their movements gradually finding an effortless rhythm. She noticed how naturally he now matched her pace, neither rushing ahead nor waiting for instruction, simply responding to what the work required. It was such a small thing, yet she found herself quietly cherishing it. There was an ease between them that had not existed when the day began, something built not from dramatic moments but from dozens of little choices to listen, to trust, and simply to remain present with one another. She realized, with a quiet sort of wonder, that she no longer found herself thinking about what to say next. Being beside him had become enough.

When he looked toward her and admitted that he was beginning to understand why people returned, her hands paused for just the briefest moment above the soil. The words settled gently within her, touching something she had not realized had been waiting to hear them. She lowered her gaze to the young tree for a heartbeat, giving herself a moment before looking back at him again. The warmth in her expression had become impossible to hide now, softened further by a happiness that felt too genuine to disguise.

"I hoped you might," she said, her voice scarcely louder than the breeze moving through the terraces. "People often think they return because of the place itself." She let another handful of earth fall gently around the roots, watching it settle into every small space. "Sometimes they do."

She looked at him then, her smile deepening with an honesty she made no effort to conceal.

"But more often," she continued gently, "they return because of the people who made that place feel like home."

For a moment, neither the tree nor the monastery seemed to occupy her full attention. Instead, it rested quietly on the man kneeling beside her, sharing the simple work of planting something neither of them expected to bear fruit for years. She found herself hoping, with surprising clarity, that those years would indeed come. That he would return to prune its branches, to water it through dry summers, to smile when it finally flowered for the first time. More than that, she realized she wanted to be here when he did. The thought arrived so naturally that she accepted it without argument, allowing it to settle beside all the other quiet hopes this morning had unexpectedly given her.

Only then did she glance back toward the sapling, tilting her head ever so slightly as she studied its position in the slowly filling hole. "We can correct its placement as the hole fills in with dirt," she said, her tone returning to its familiar gentle practicality. "The soil will alter its current setting a little as it settles around the roots, so this is the easiest time to make those tiny adjustments." A faint smile returned to her lips as she brushed another handful of earth into place. "Gardens are wonderfully forgiving in that way. They allow us to make small corrections before asking us to live with them."

Her fingers brushed lightly against the trunk to steady it for a moment, and in doing so they came close enough to his hand that she became quietly aware of its nearness once again. This time she did not hurry the movement away. Instead, she allowed the moment to linger for the briefest heartbeat, quietly savoring the simple closeness before returning her attention to the tree. It was a small thing, almost inconsequential, and yet she found herself hoping that, before too long, such moments would no longer need to be accidental.

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Marrok continued working beside her, the rhythm of gathering and settling earth becoming almost meditative. Each handful found its place around the roots without haste, without precision beyond what the tree itself required.

He understood now why she had smiled when he admitted the work was relaxing. There was no advantage to rushing. The tree would not reward urgency. Only patience. He found that strangely comforting.

Her observation that plants insisted people learn their schedule drew another quiet laugh from him. "I've spent most of my life believing the galaxy eventually yields to enough planning." He brushed another careful handful of soil around the roots. "It appears plants have reached a unanimous decision to ignore that philosophy."

His smile lingered. "I respect them for it."

As they continued working together, Marrok became increasingly aware of how naturally their movements had synchronized. Neither of them directed the other. Neither needed to. One gathered soil while the other steadied the sapling. One paused, the other naturally filled the moment. It was... effortless.

He couldn't remember the last time working beside another person had felt this uncomplicated. Not because the task lacked importance. Because neither of them felt the need to prove anything.

Then she spoke about why people returned. Marrok's hands slowed. Not stopping completely. Just enough for her words to settle. Because of the people who made that place feel like home. His gaze lifted to meet hers. There was such simple certainty in her expression. No attempt to persuade him. Only truth, quietly offered. Something warm spread through his chest.

He realized, with almost startling clarity, that the monastery had begun feeling less unfamiliar long before they had reached the garden. Not because of the terraces. Not because of the quiet. Because of her.

His attention remained on her for another heartbeat. "I think..." His voice was softer than before. "...I'm beginning to understand the difference." A faint breath escaped him.

"I arrived this morning believing this place might change me." His fingers settled another layer of earth around the roots. "But I don't think it was ever just the place." His eyes met hers again, lingering just a little longer.

"I think..." A small smile tugged at the corner of his mouth. "...places become home because someone chooses to share them."

Her explanation about the soil settling drew his attention back to the sapling. He nodded thoughtfully. "There seems to be a recurring lesson. Nothing living expects perfection at the beginning." He smiled. "Only patience, and someone willing to keep showing up."

As she steadied the trunk, her hand came close to his once again. This time, instead of instinctively withdrawing, Marrok simply let his hand remain where it was. Their fingers rested only a breath apart while they supported the same fragile trunk. The closeness felt... natural. Comfortable.

He realized he no longer viewed it as something to avoid. When the tree stood on its own, he looked down at their nearly touching hands for the briefest moment. Without allowing himself time to overthink it, he gently turned his hand over and, with the lightest touch of his fingertips, brushed a small streak of dark soil from the back of Nitya's hand. The motion was slow enough that she could easily pull away if she wished.

"There." His voice was almost sheepish. "I thought you deserved at least one clean hand." A quiet chuckle escaped him. "I suspect the garden will disagree before we're finished."

Only after the words left him did he realize what he had done. Old Marrok would have spent several minutes debating whether the gesture was appropriate. This Marrok had simply seen something small he could do for her... and done it.

The realization made him smile to himself. Perhaps growth wasn't always found in profound revelations. Sometimes... It was found in no longer being afraid of kindness.
 
Nitya continued working beside him, though her attention had begun to divide itself rather unevenly between the young tree and the man kneeling beside her. There was something quietly satisfying about watching Marrok surrender himself to the simplicity of the task, his earlier need for certainty gradually giving way to something gentler. He was still attentive, still careful, still unmistakably himself, but the vigilance that had seemed woven through every movement when he first arrived had softened. She found herself increasingly aware of those changes, not merely because she was pleased to see them in him, but because some warmer part of her had begun to cherish being here to witness them.

His declaration that the plants had unanimously rejected his philosophy of planning drew a laugh from her, warm and easy enough that she made no effort to restrain it. "They are remarkably stubborn that way," she agreed, gathering another handful of soil and settling it around the roots. "You can give them everything they need, and they will still insist upon doing things according to their own schedule. I suspect that is part of their charm." Her smile lingered as she glanced toward him. "Although I am beginning to think learning that the galaxy does not require your permission before proceeding may be particularly healthy for you."

They continued filling the hole together, and Nitya became increasingly conscious of the quiet rhythm that had developed between them. It was not simply that they worked well beside one another. There was an ease to it that she had not expected, a natural awareness of where the other was and what they intended without either needing to explain themselves. She had known him for so little time that she should perhaps have found the familiarity strange, yet she did not. Instead, she found herself enjoying it, allowing the silences between their words to become something shared rather than empty, and wondering when his presence beside her had begun to feel quite so natural.

When Marrok spoke of beginning to understand why people returned, she heard something beneath the words that made her hands slow against the soil. His gaze found hers, and for a moment she simply held it, feeling the warmth of the morning gather into something more personal than the lessons they had spent hours disguising as conversations about gardens. "Places rarely become home because of the stones used to build them," she said softly. "Or because the gardens are beautiful, or the rooms comfortable. Those things may make somewhere pleasant, but they are not usually what draws someone back." Her expression softened as she looked at him. "People return because something waits for them there. Because there are people who notice when they arrive, and notice when they are gone."

Perhaps she should have looked away then. Earlier that morning, she probably would have. Instead, Nitya allowed her gaze to remain on his for another heartbeat, quietly acknowledging to herself that she wanted to be one of those reasons for him. The realization did not frighten her as much as she might have expected. It was too new to name and far too delicate to burden with expectation, but she liked him. She liked the thoughtfulness beneath his caution, the humor emerging as he relaxed, the care he gave even to something as simple as settling earth around a sapling. More than that, she liked the person she saw appearing whenever he allowed himself to stop preparing for whatever might go wrong next.

As the last of the loose soil settled around the roots, the sapling no longer required both of them to keep it upright. Nitya eased her hand away from the slender trunk, watching it remain steady on its own before turning her attention back toward Marrok. She had barely begun to move when his fingertips brushed across the back of her hand, carefully sweeping away the dark streak of soil left against her skin. The touch was gentle and deliberate, entirely different from the accidental brushes they had shared earlier, and Nitya went very still beneath it. Warmth spread through her before she could reason herself out of feeling it, and the small smile that touched her lips came without permission. She found herself watching his fingers against her skin and, rather unexpectedly, wishing the gesture had required a little longer.

"There," he said, and his sheepish explanation only deepened the warmth already gathering within her. Nitya looked down at the hand he had cleaned, then slowly lifted her gaze back to him. There was something deeply endearing about the fact that he had simply acted without dissecting the impulse first, particularly after everything he had told her about the man he had been when he arrived. Perhaps that was another small victory neither of them needed to turn into a lesson. "Thank you," she said, and there was a softness in her voice that made it clear she was acknowledging more than the absence of dirt. "You appear to be getting dangerously good at acting before you have prepared the appropriate charts."

The teasing might have allowed the moment to pass easily, but Nitya discovered that she did not quite want it to. The tree stood securely between them now, leaving neither of their hands occupied by the need to support it, and her gaze dropped briefly to his. Every touch between them until now had either been accidental or practical, with his last gesture marking the first quiet departure from that pattern. She had welcomed it. More than welcomed it, if she was willing to be truthful with herself, and she wanted him to know that his kindness had not disappeared unnoticed into the morning.

So Nitya reached toward him. She did it slowly, without assumption, allowing her fingertips to touch his first and leaving him every opportunity to withdraw if the closeness was not something he wanted. Her eyes lifted to his as she let the contact remain, and if he accepted it, her fingers would settle gently into his hand rather than retreat. The smile that warmed her face then was quieter than her earlier laughter but far more revealing, carrying a tenderness she no longer felt any particular need to hide from him. Her thumb moved lightly against the side of his hand as she glanced toward the newly planted tree before returning her attention to Marrok. "I think," she murmured, "that is enough gardening philosophy for one tree." Yet she made no move to release his hand, content for the moment simply to kneel beside him in the morning sunlight and enjoy the possibility that something besides the sapling had begun putting down roots.

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Objective: Get more help along a new path
Location: Oralis Prime
Outfit: Gray Robes
Tags: Nitya Xeraic Nitya Xeraic

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Marrok nodded slowly as Nitya spoke of the stubbornness of plants. There was a lesson in there that extended well beyond gardening, and this time he did not need her to point it out for him. "I think I'm beginning to see that most things in the galaxy are much the same."

A quiet chuckle followed as another handful of earth slipped through his fingers. "They grow. They change. They make choices. Sometimes regardless of how thoroughly someone planned for them." His mouth twisted into an amused smile. "I'm beginning to suspect my old spreadsheet model of understanding the galaxy may have been slightly out of touch with the galaxy as a whole."

That realization would once have bothered him. There had been comfort in believing sufficient preparation could reduce uncertainty to something manageable. Now, kneeling in the dirt beside Nitya, he could recognize how much of life existed beyond prediction without immediately feeling threatened by it. Perhaps uncertainty did not always need to be conquered. Sometimes it merely needed to be lived.

When Nitya spoke of places becoming home because someone waited there, Marrok's attention shifted completely from the sapling to her. He held her gaze, feeling the meaning beneath her words even though neither of them gave it a name. Someone who noticed when he arrived. Someone who noticed when he left. He had spent so much of his life believing that usefulness was what made his presence matter. Missions noticed when he was absent. Units noticed when they were missing a warrior. People noticed when the protection he provided disappeared. This was different.

"I think there's something comforting about that." His voice had grown softer. "Being expected somewhere without being required there." A faint smile appeared. "I don't think I've had much of that."

He glanced toward the sapling before looking back at her. "I find that I like the idea." More than the idea, if he was being truthful. He liked knowing that she would notice. The thought was no longer something he could comfortably pretend was merely part of his appreciation for the monastery.

When she thanked him for brushing the dirt from her hand, Marrok's smile warmed at her teasing. "Dangerously good might be overstating it." He glanced toward the newly planted tree. "I did spend several minutes determining where to dig a hole." A quiet laugh escaped him. "But perhaps there's hope for me yet."

Then Nitya reached toward him. Marrok's attention dropped immediately to her approaching fingers. There was nothing accidental about this touch. Nothing practical. Nothing that could be explained by a shared sapling or a passing brush of hands. She was choosing it. And, perhaps more importantly, giving him the opportunity to choose as well.

He did. Gladly. His fingers opened to receive hers without hesitation, settling gently around her hand when she placed it within his. The warmth of her skin against his produced an immediate flutter somewhere beneath his ribs, but he made no attempt to withdraw from the feeling.

His thumb shifted almost unconsciously against her fingers in quiet answer to hers. For once, Marrok did not interrogate the moment. He didn't ask where it was leading. Didn't wonder whether allowing this closeness was wise after knowing her for such a short time. Didn't search the Force for some warning that he was moving too quickly.

He simply looked at Nitya and allowed himself to enjoy holding her hand. Her smile made that remarkably easy. When she declared that they had exhausted their gardening philosophy, his expression broke into a broad grin. "Good." His eyes flicked briefly toward their joined hands before returning to hers. "Because I'm beginning to think the tree has endured enough responsibility for my personal development."

He made no move to release her. Instead, he shifted slightly where he knelt beside her, allowing their joined hands to rest comfortably between them. "So, Teacher..." The title carried considerably more warmth and playfulness than reverence. "If gardening philosophy is finished for the moment..." His grin widened. "...what's the next lesson?"

A beat passed. "Preferably something designed to remove charts from my decision-making process entirely." His gaze remained comfortably upon hers. "Because I'm beginning to discover that some choices are considerably more enjoyable when I don't give myself enough time to analyze them."
 
Nitya felt his fingers close around hers and, for several quiet heartbeats, found herself far less interested in the newly planted tree than she had been moments before. She had given him every opportunity to leave the gesture unanswered, uncertain whether the warmth she had sensed growing between them belonged equally to him or whether she had allowed her own feelings to color what had simply been kindness. The ease with which he accepted her hand answered that uncertainty more clearly than words could have. His thumb moved gently against her fingers, and a pleasant warmth spread through her that had nothing to do with the morning sun. She did not look away from him, nor did she attempt to disguise the smile that came when she realized neither of them seemed particularly interested in letting go.

His observation about being expected without being required stayed with her as they remained beside the sapling, because there was something about the distinction that she understood more deeply than she wanted to explain. Nitya had never wanted another person to remain because obligation held them somewhere. She had seen too many lives shaped by duty until affection and responsibility became difficult to distinguish from one another. Choice mattered to her. Perhaps that was why Marrok's growing desire to return had affected her so strongly. Nothing required him to come back to Oralis Prime, and nothing required him to spend the morning beside her. If he returned, it would be because some part of him wanted to, and she was beginning to hope, with considerably less caution than before, that she might be part of the reason why.

When he asked about the next lesson, Nitya's eyes brightened with amusement. "I think the next lesson should be learning that there does not always need to be a lesson," she answered, giving his hand a gentle squeeze before finally rising with him from the earth. "You have spent the entire morning trying to discover what everything means. Perhaps we should see what happens if we simply allow the rest of the day to happen." Her smile deepened as she glanced toward the tree, now standing somewhat uncertainly in its new home. "Besides, I think we have asked enough of your first student. We should give it some time to recover from the experience."

They did not go anywhere particularly important after that, and Nitya would later think that perhaps this was what made the remainder of the day matter so much. She showed him more of the monastery, though the tour gradually lost any resemblance to one. They wandered through terraces they had already passed and took paths that led nowhere except toward views she happened to enjoy. She showed him the places where the gardens gave way to the wilder slopes of Oralis Prime, where cultivation ended without any obvious boundary, and the landscape continued according to its own designs. They spoke when conversation came naturally and allowed silence when it did not, and somewhere along the way, Nitya stopped thinking about whether she was supposed to be teaching him anything at all.

They ate later than either of them had probably intended, lingering over a simple meal while the monastery continued around them. Their conversation wandered just as freely as their steps had, touching upon worlds they had visited, places Marrok remembered mostly through assignments and places Nitya knew through stories rather than experience. She asked him about some of them without trying to turn his answers toward whatever lesson might be hiding beneath the memory, and when he inevitably found one himself, she teased him for doing her work for her. He made her laugh more than once, and each time she became a little more aware of how much she enjoyed the sound when it was him who had drawn it from her.

By afternoon, the morning's careful distance seemed almost difficult to remember. They walked beneath the trees and along old stone paths as sunlight gradually shifted toward evening, sometimes close enough that their shoulders brushed without either of them adjusting away. Nitya found herself learning smaller things about him now, things that had nothing to do with whatever had brought him to the monastery in search of another path. The cadence of his humor when he was no longer guarding it, the subjects that drew his curiosity before practicality intervened, the moments when something beautiful caught his attention, and he forgot to explain why it mattered. She offered pieces of herself in return, not revelations carefully selected for their usefulness, but ordinary things, memories, preferences, and thoughts that emerged simply because she wanted him to know them.

At some point, they returned to the gardens, although neither had deliberately suggested doing so. Their path naturally brought them back to the small plot where the young fruit tree stood beneath the lengthening shadows, its slender trunk still upright in the soil they had settled around it together. Nitya slowed beside it and smiled, resisting the temptation to turn even that into another metaphor. There would be time enough for meanings later. For now, it was simply a tree they had planted together on the morning they met, and she discovered that she liked the simplicity of remembering it that way.

The day had begun with Marrok arriving as someone searching for guidance, and Nitya had expected little more than conversation, perhaps a meal, and the chance to offer whatever perspective might help him find what he needed. Instead, as the light softened over the terraces and the monastery settled toward evening, she found herself reluctant to see the day end. She liked having him beside her. The admission no longer seemed premature or particularly complicated. She did not know what might grow from the warmth between them, and for once she felt no need to determine its shape before allowing it to exist. They had spent enough of the morning discussing the patience required to nurture living things that she could hardly refuse the same patience to this.

Eventually, they would have to part, if only for the evening, but Nitya did not hurry them toward it. There were still paths they had not walked and conversations that had not found their endings, and the young tree behind them would be there tomorrow, beginning the long and invisible work of settling its roots into unfamiliar soil. As she continued beside Marrok beneath the fading warmth of the day, she found herself thinking that he had been right about one thing. Some choices were considerably more enjoyable when they were not given enough time to be analyzed. She had reached for his hand without knowing precisely what would follow, and hours later she was simply glad that she had. Whatever came after this could wait until another day. For now, it was enough that when Marrok eventually left the monastery, Nitya already knew she would be looking forward to the moment he returned.

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