Life after New Cov has not been easy. Nearly all of my messages had gone unanswered. So either they were never opened to begin with, or more than likely; none had a reason to respond to me in regards to this sudden change. There were no requests for further explanations. There have been no attempts made to reach out (save one). It seems as though some had just taken my credits and run, while others treat me as though I was dead and buried.
And that all just proves how little I was valued and how little my life mattered to those that I spent it with the most. Perhaps I shall just change my identity and never look back. Afterall, there is nothing waiting for me from my past, and no one.
I do not know what path I am to follow next. I am no Force wizard either, so my options are limited. I have no staff and my credits are limited. I am mindful about how much I spend on meals and how often I do so in a day to make those credits last. But at some point they will run out.
This is not how I pictured my future to be. I did not expect it to be this quiet and unfulfilling. Nowhere will feel like home. I am no longer living life, but merely existing within it.
And if it was not for Mr. Usher , I would have no one to talk to. My biggest fear right now is that he will abandon me too.
If ever I find some new path, I will have a funeral for my former life. Maybe that will be the best way to move on and forget. Soon, I will no longer be known as Liin. I will cary no titles or anything of the sort as I no longer deserve them.
I will just be Tera.
And nothing more.
And that all just proves how little I was valued and how little my life mattered to those that I spent it with the most. Perhaps I shall just change my identity and never look back. Afterall, there is nothing waiting for me from my past, and no one.
I do not know what path I am to follow next. I am no Force wizard either, so my options are limited. I have no staff and my credits are limited. I am mindful about how much I spend on meals and how often I do so in a day to make those credits last. But at some point they will run out.
This is not how I pictured my future to be. I did not expect it to be this quiet and unfulfilling. Nowhere will feel like home. I am no longer living life, but merely existing within it.
And if it was not for Mr. Usher , I would have no one to talk to. My biggest fear right now is that he will abandon me too.
If ever I find some new path, I will have a funeral for my former life. Maybe that will be the best way to move on and forget. Soon, I will no longer be known as Liin. I will cary no titles or anything of the sort as I no longer deserve them.
I will just be Tera.
And nothing more.
