In the more recent months I've been focused on only the Order of the Righteous Flame. In the past half year and more I've even been limiting myself to just a handful of characters; which I've taken down to only focusing on three. Amelia, Ocano, and The Blood Queen. That way I could focus more on a few to ensure that each has quality over quantity. [member="Matsu Xiangu"]
Yes, I do get frustrated with people. It is a personal flaw that I still struggle with; that I am attempting to wrangle, yet it still gets the better of me at times. I accept that I do have that problem, and it is one that I have continued to attempt to correct. Some days I can bite my tongue, other days I can't and need to rant.
I will say this much though, as I know the attempt at me being in a faction that you're talking about. I have struggled with finding a way to answer this without it sounding like an excuse or pushing the blame onto others; so I will write it as the point of view that I saw. Yes, I made a character and joined the Republic when it was a Major Faction. No, I did not leave that faction or followed it for as long as needed until my next idea (as you've mentioned). While I was part of the Republic Major Faction (once more this is from my point of view), I saw that my character was often ignored or otherwise felt that the character was being written off. I had only one or two individuals within the faction actively writing with me and I tried to keep a level head and stay on board.
When ever I joined a Faction thread or an Invasion or Dominion thread, it always felt the same. It felt that I was only there to write for myself and that my actions were only for myself and that no one cared that my character (or even I myself, the writer) was participating in the thread. I felt unwelcome as a member of the Republic Major Faction, so rather than sticking around to continue feeling like anything I was writing was being ignored, I left the faction.
Again, that was from my point of view; and I could have just as easily misread or misjudged the situation. It could have just as easily hurt even more by people picking up the view that I didn't want to put the time or effort into the Republic and that character. I did, I wanted that character to be part of the Republic Faction. I wanted to help that Faction and work with its writers; it just felt that only one or two others in the faction wanted me to be there. I attempted to work in a Major faction and I felt unwelcome. Once more I can agree that I could have read that situation as wrong, and that others reading this may be thinking that I'm just trying to push the blame on others (when I'm not). I did try to work with others and it only felt like that help wasn't wanted.
I have since gone on to write up the Blood Queen (and while as of late work and IRL obligations have kept my from focusing on writing) it is still a character that I want to develop. I've even limited myself to working with only three characters as mentioned above to focus my attention. [member="Valiens Nantaris"]
The potential mental health issue I could end up dealing with is a bit more of a problem than social anxiety. While your list may help you, much of what you suggest just wouldn't work for me. Hell, I barely have time to get on this site any more let alone has 30mins to exercise. Likewise it was only recently that I had a relationship end and even though it wasn't a bad breakup, there are still feelings of anger and frustration that I associate with it thus I've decided that dating isn't the best for me at this time. I appreciate the pointers and the help that you're offering; I'm just not sure that it would aid me as it has aided you. [member="Jay Scott Clark"]